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Recipe: Turkey, Zucchini, and Pineapple Macaroni

Tonight, I made this for dinner. I didn’t feel like making Turkey Empanditas, which was what I was originally planning on cooking. I needed to use the ground turkey, so I made this instead.

Ingredients
1 lb. ground turkey
1 Tbsp. olive oil
2 tsp. Italian seasoning
2 cans diced tomatoes (no salt added; with basil, oregano, garlic)
1 zucchini (cut into chunks)
1 can tomato paste
1 can pineapple chunks (save some of the syrup/juice; rinse the chunks off)
1 tsp. honey (opt.)
1 pound macaroni
dash of salt (opt.)
dash of pepper (opt.)

    Cooking Instructions

  1. Heat olive oil on Medium or Medium-High heat in skillet. Add ground turkey and allow to brown. Add Italian seasoning while turkey browns.
  2. Add chunks of zucchini and stir. Cook for about three minutes before adding tomatoes. Stir again. Cook for another two minutes. Stir in tomato paste and cook three more minutes. Stir in honey before adding pineapples and the reserved syrup/juice. Add salt and pepper. Bring to boil, then turn down the heat and let simmer for 20-30 minutes.
  3. Cook pasta. Once pasta has been cooked and drained, mix the sauce in well.
  4. Serve.
    Notes

  • You don’t have to put the actual pineapple in, if you’re not a big pineapple fan. The syrup/juice is what gives the flavor the right kick.
  • According to my family, Parmesan, cheddar, and mozzarella all taste pretty good with it.

Nutritional Details
Serves: 8
Calories: 307
Total Fat: 7g
Saturated Fat: 2g
Polyunsaturated Fat: 0g
Monounsaturated Fat: 1g
Trans Fat: 0g
Cholesterol: 50mg
Sodium: 87mg
Potassium: 605mg
Total Carbs: 41g
Dietary Fiber: 5g
Sugars: 19g
Protein: 18g
Vitamin A: 13%
Vitamin C: 37%
Calcium: 4%
Iron: 18%

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Some Part of Me Is Gone

When I was first planning on doing pool therapy, I tried on an old swimsuit to see how it fit. It was a bit tight in the hips. In the weeks after, I apparently lost enough weight that this is no longer the case. I can’t say for certain how much weight I may have lost in that time because I don’t have a scale at home.1 I just know that some part of me is gone, and I am absolutely, completely, totally okay with that.

I just wish I could keep up with the number. I’m almost tempted to use crowd-sourcing to buy a scale. I won’t, especially since I know how well that went with the home repair fund.

Still, it was just a nice surprise to have this week.


  1. The weight that I report on MFP comes from doctor appointments. 

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Tired Girl

I had my second session of pool therapy today. The exercises had more reps today. There were also new exercises added. Instead of just focusing on my legs & my back, exercises for my arms were added in today. My arms are not happy with this development.

One of the ladies (Barbara) in the pool started talking to me when she was coming over to the deep end where I was doing bicycles. Barbara said that she was going over where the baby (me) was. She said I looked fifteen and asked how old I actually was. I told her & she exclaimed, “I have a thirty year old granddaughter.”1 One of the therapists said something then about how I was about the right age to be her daughter, if she’d had her kids earlier.2 Anyway, Barbara and I talked about our lives & families. She was really a sweetie. Before I knew it, I’d stayed in the pool for 75 minutes.

Now I’m tired and a bit hungry.34 Maybe I won’t be asked to meet anyone to give them head tonight.5 I can only hope.


  1. I couldn’t believe that. She didn’t look old enough. 

  2. I knew that about her because I met her when I was 7 or 8. She did mom’s first round of pool therapy in 1991 or 1992. She also did the round for her in 2012 & dad’s in 2011. 

  3. I didn’t eat much this morning/afternoon before therapy. 

  4. I ended up checking my blood sugar before dinner, but after I had had some chocolate and non-fat Greek Yogurt. It was 98. Mom thinks I stayed in the pool too long and let my blood sugar get too low. 

  5. Longish story. 

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Not In Too Deep

Today was my first day of pool therapy. I found something important out1 today: I am not afraid of the water. My whole fear of water and swimming is actually from my mom’s fear. I just picked up on her anxiety. I figured this out for sure when I had to go in the 7′ deep section of the pool. Admittedly, I had the float things under my arms, but I would have freaked out if she had been there.2

Anyway, pool therapy is also fun, except that I still do the whole pointed-toe/ballet thing. I had to actively remind myself not to turn my legs out and to stop pointing my toes. I had to keep from doing pliés instead of squats. One of these days I’m going to stop acting like a dancer. Today was one step toward that day.

I think I’m going to enjoy the sessions. I’ll probably sign up for some water aerobics classes after I’ve finished, so that I can keep doing this sort of stuff.

In non-PT related news, my second Thought Catalog post was published today.3 It has to do with stupid things I’ve been told by pro-birth people. It was meant to be a snarky way for me to say some of the things I’ve always wanted to say to these remarks. Some people didn’t get the humor behind it. Eh. I can’t please everyone.

Oh, and I accidentally may have gotten my mom’s home health nurse4 cancelled. I was 99.9% asleep when the nurse called this morning. My mom was the grocery store, which is the only non-doctor place she goes, and she asked to speak to mom. I said that she had to go somewhere, but that she would be back soon. The nurse decided that means that mom isn’t home-bound.5


  1. Other than that exhaustion starts setting in quickly once you get out. 

  2. She used to freak out with them when I would watch her. And I was always nervous when she had pool therapy. 

  3. I’ve already cross-posted it here. 

  4. at least for the clot 

  5. As far as I know, weekly trips to the grocery store are something that even Medicare recognizes as something that home-bound people do. 

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8 Things Pro-Birth Advocates Say

Previously published on Thought Catalog

Openly supporting certain positions can lead to harassment, especially on the Internet. It’s something that anyone who speaks their mind eventually ends expecting. Expecting it doesn’t mean that it is less painful or more fun. It just means that you’ve learned to expect that some folks just don’t understand how to talk to another human being like they’re actually a human being. Quite frankly, that sucks.

For being pro-choice and for promoting access to things like free/cheap birth control, other safe and affordable forms of reproductive health care, and comprehensive sex education, I’ve encountered a variety of different slams. There are a lot of assumptions that pro-birth people make when you support the right to access safe and legal abortions.

(I am referring to them as pro-birth instead of pro-life for the purpose of this post because many support multiple policies that endanger lives. There are some very considerate pro-life people out there and this is not geared toward those people.)

1. You should keep your legs closed. But I just got this fancy Thighmaster. Wait. Do they even sell those anymore? Thank you for assuming that because I support abortion that I am promiscuous. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being promiscuous, but I’m not. And my promiscuous tendencies or lack thereof is not the basis for how I feel about an issue.

2. You’re a sex-obsessed whore. Seriously? What the fuck?  Taking birth control doesn’t mean that you’re a prostitute. It doesn’t even mean that you’re having sex. There are these things called medical conditions, like anemia, premenstrual syndrome, endometriosis or Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, where women take “The Pill” to keep from being sick, dying of blood, in severe pain, or from being horribly depressed. Women even take it for acne. Whatever the reason a person takes, you shouldn’t be judging them.

3. You’re stupid. How’d you come to that conclusion? Is there some statistical evidence that people who believe in abortion have lower IQs? Or does it just make you feel uncomfortable that my brain is okay with the idea that I can’t make personal decisions for another person? Ding, ding, ding. Ladies and gentlemen, I think we have a winner.

Having a different opinion doesn’t make a person stupid. And a person’s intelligence and understanding can be measured in a variety of ways. Some people are talented at understanding science and math. Some understand Russian Literature. Some have a natural ability to fix a car. Some have an ability to paint. Some are good listeners. We’re all different in our ways of understanding our world. If everyone is different, then who are you to judge who is and who is not smart?

4. You’re ugly. And that makes me wrong how? Who cares what I look like? If you think I’m ugly, then you think I’m ugly. It doesn’t make me want to change my opinion. Bringing up a person’s appearance when you’re debating a particular topic is such a ridiculous tactic. There are a lot of really hot people who are stupid and really ugly people who are smart and vice versa. Appearance doesn’t impact a person’s intelligence or their ability to formulate an opinion, unless they let it. And the only reason that they might let it is that we’ve got some really messed up ideas of what counts most in American culture.

5. No one will ever have sex with you if you have that attitude. Fuck that. What you mean is that you and other peoplelike you don’t want to have sex with anyone who has a particular belief set. Well, that’s fine. People like me probably wouldn’t want to have sex with people like you. Does that shock you?

6. You must hate men. Are you trying to be an ignorant asshole? Or is this something you excel at naturally? Did you know that men can be pro-choice? Oh, my goodness. Your world is probably imploding right now, isn’t it?

7. You’re a baby-killer and a monster. Hey, I’m not Olaf the Troll! I don’t go around pillaging fictional towns, eating babies, and trying to get revenge against my ex-lover-who-became-a-demon-because-I-cheated. (If you get this reference, you deserve a cookie or some cookie dough.) Your ridiculousness is seriously breaking my heart.

8. God hates you. You hate me, so you assume that means that a deity that you happen to believe in also hates me. Narcissist much? If God exists, then let God tell me this. It is not up to you. That you think it is up to you makes me think you aren’t really clear on the whole idea of humility. Maybe you need to work on that before you judge me.

It used to bug me when these things were said to me. It doesn’t make me feel all warm and fuzzy now, but I don’t take it personally. I realize that this is just what some pro-birth people are taught to feel. I hope that they figure out that they’re wrong at some point, but it’s not really something that I expect because they’re stubborn. I hope that they realize that I’m just as stubborn about my beliefs as they are.

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Oh, Robin

I am shocked that he’s dead, but not how he died. He’s had a long history of addiction and mental health issues. I’ve seen people say how shocking it is that someone so happy would take his own life.

Part of the problem with depression is that others don’t realize a suicidal person can fake a smile or make you laugh while also wanting to die. They can lie with the best of them and tell you that a they don’t want to die. Depressed people become very skilled at this sort of thing. And, when the person has an Academy Award for his ability to act, they can convince the world that they aren’t suffering.

But he did suffer.

He acknowledged that suffering openly, but no one would think anything of it. He could have cried out in the open and people wouldn’t have noticed, or they would have just said he was a little sad that day. People don’t pay attention to this level of pain. People don’t want to act like this kind of suffering exists in the world. And when they do acknowledge it, they like to put labels on it. Their favorite label: selfish.

People who are mentally ill get called this.

Depressed? Selfish.

Anxious? Selfish.

Suicidal? Selfish.

Actually committing suicide? This is the most selfish thing you could ever do.

This is what I like to call bullshit.

Mental illness and suicide are not selfish. They are a result of a real problem. This problem can be different for every person. People aren’t just thinking of themselves and their pain. When I’m suicidal, I wholly feel that my death will make people that I care about feel better. I think that my death would be the best thing I could do for everyone everywhere. It’s not just my pain that cripples me when I’m depressed and suicidal, it’s that I begin to feel like I am the cause of the pain and suffering of those around me.

And people forget that mental illness has a physical element to it. Low levels or inefficient processing of Serotonin, Norepinephrine, Dopamine, GABA, etc. can make a person depressed. It can lead to suicidal feelings. It can lead to them feeling like they will never be better and that they are prolonging the inevitable. They can choose to end their treatments.

On ONTD, some compared suicide and depression to cancer, and that’s a really good comparison.

If a person with cancer chooses not to go through with treatment anymore, knowing that it will result in the death of that individual, that’s a choice. They’ve made a choice that will end their lives. Or, if they choose to increase pain medication (which slows their breathing and can result in death) to ease the process of dying, then they have also made a choice that will end their lives. If a person with depression chooses feels that treatment will no longer help with their condition, then takes their own life, it’s the same thing. Or, if they choose to hasten their death by taking more medicine or using some other method, then it’s also the same thing.

Depression and mental health issues can have physical origins. If they didn’t, then drugs like Prozac (which works with neurotransmitters) wouldn’t help some people. Mental illness is an issue within the nervous system. Other nervous system issues are not so heavily stigmatized. You never hear someone saying that a person discontinuing treatment for epilepsy or cancer or MS is making a selfish choice. If that’s not selfish, then suicide is not selfish.

I am saying this as a person who has had a mother who has attempted suicide over a dozen times and been in and out of psychiatric facilities, a person who has other seriously mentally ill family members, and a person who has been in therapy & has had self-injurious feelings, as well as suicidal tendencies off and on for over twenty years.

Technically, his suicide was a choice, but it was not the kind people usually think of. It was a choice to end the suffering, to end his pain. It was no different from a cancer patient saying no more. Yes, it meant that left his family, friends, and fans, but that doesn’t mean that we should judge this decision. This was something that he felt was necessary. Who are we to judge that? And if we call him selfish for ending his life, then are we not being selfish for judging him for a desperate sort of pain that so many have obviously not even bothered to notice?

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