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Before Christmas, my mom said that she had a sinus infection, so I knew that I, at some point, would also have a sinus infection. I know that they aren’t supposed to be contagious, but my immune system has yet to figure that out. Well, a couple of days after Christmas, it finally showed up. It seemed to be really nasty on Tuesday, almost gone on Wednesday, and back by Thursday. But when I woke up on Friday morning, I knew something was horribly off. I was coughing more than I usually do, which is pretty amazing considering that I cough on a daily basis. My left eye was runny. At first I thought it was just tears from the pressure of the infection, until I decided to wipe my eye with a facial tissue.12 It wasn’t tears. It was pus. As the night went on, my eye kept getting more red. My cough was also increasing and I was starting to have trouble breathing.3 I went to bed and was trying to get comfortable but I just couldn’t breathe. Eventually, I called the on-call doctor and she told me to get my butt to the ER for a breathing treatment. Unfortunately, getting to the ER at about 4:30 in the morning is not the best way to get quick treatment. Most of the ER shuts down after midnight until 8 in the morning, even on the last weekend of the year. I was triaged quickly and had an X-ray, blood work, and EKG hours before a bed was available for my butt. I waited around 4 hours for that bed and my breathing just kept feeling like it was getting worse; my eye was also getting more nasty by the minute. Oh, and my infamous cough was starting to scare everyone in the waiting room. When I first got to the ER, one or two people had on masks. By the time I was called back to a room, almost everyone had one on. I honestly started to empathize with Typhoid Mary at that point. It’s odd to be treated like a biohazard when you can’t breathe. After the sun came out and the television had gone from infomercials & overnight news to Saturday morning children’s programs, I was called back to a room. It was another hour before I had my breathing treatment, and another hour after that before the doctor could secure the “eye room” to do a proper examination of my eye. He4 wasn’t sure if the conjunctivitis had caused any lasting damage to my eye, so he wanted to view it under a slit lamp. The room was empty and across the hall, so I’m not totally sure why it took so long or why, after it was over, I wasn’t allowed to just walk right back across the hall to my assigned bed. While I was in the eye room, the nurse brought me three 20mg prednisone tablets. She kept asking later if the steroids were helping. I kept responding that I couldn’t tell if the steroid was working, but that I knew that the breathing treatment had helped. By noon, I was being discharged with a diagnosis of conjunctivitis and bronchitis. I also had a prescription for the ophthalmic version of Neosporin ointment.5 I didn’t have any prescriptions for the bronchitis. I guess that they thought they had done enough to help get that under control.6 Since it was a holiday weekend, I couldn’t get in to see the family doctor until at least Tuesday, so I was trying desperately to make it through without going to the hospital again. There were a few times when I didn’t think I would make it. But I did. Instead of getting a Tuesday appointment, I got a Wednesday one and the family doctor, who I don’t always agree with, agreed with my belief that the Emergency Room doctor should have given me a prescription for another 4 days worth of prednisone. Because it had been five days since the initial dose, he had to start me on a new 5 day course of the drug. He also told me to use my inhaler regularly until I was feeling better. I’ve spent most of the last week just trying to pass the time. I’ve been avoiding social media and anything that required any real energy usage. I became even more of a recluse with a sad, unfulfilling life7 and a penchant for tantrums89 while I was recovering. Kidding.10 Fancy talk for a Kleenex. ↩Really fancy talk for a Kleenex from a Star Wars box. ↩No, I don’t always have trouble breathing when I cough. I cough like healthy people do healthy stuff. Cough variant asthma is the funnest. ↩Yeah, I never got to see the on-call doctor I had talked to on the phone. ↩No, really. ↩They hadn’t. ↩Did I mention that that creep has a reference to me in his Twitter bio? ↩Oh, he had more words for me after I turned down his altruistic offer of a possible book deal: I tried at least. BTW, I’ve been a pro writer since 1983. You have no idea how much damage you’ve done to your writing career before it even got started. No agent, no publisher, will want to deal with someone who intends to damage another writer’s sales over a disagreement on social media. They’d be too worried you would do the same to them if you ever got mad at them. Easier to give you a form rejection and move on. And trust me, this little tantrum you threw on Goodreads is going to be seen by every agent and publisher you submit to when they Google your name. Good luck with your career. I think you’re going to need it. Yep. Now he wants me to be afraid that I will never be published because I didn’t take kindly to his insults and his tacit support of a friend’s outright bigotry. ↩It takes chutzpah to say a woman would be a […]

From My Sinuses, With Love


Local news showed a story about the Madison County GOP’s pre-Presidential election meeting. At the very end of it, one of the speakers can be heard saying that he wants to “whip” Hillary Clinton. It may have been an innocent comment, but it’s still odd to say you want to physically accost the opposing candidate. That’s especially true when the candidate is a woman and in a culture that one beat women into submission–and not for kinky fun times.

Madison County GOP wants to whip Hillary Clinton




I am having trouble falling asleep,1 so I went on YouTube.2 I checked my notifications and found out that I am apparently a truly awful human being.3    I didn’t like a music video, so I can’t appreciate real music.     Flower graphics symbolize pure beauty and that sexuality doesn’t have to be raw and raunchy.4 Oh and nude5 women, including ones portrayed in sexualized situations aren’t being objectified.6 But we’re back to my bitterness and that I’m a hater.        If you don’t agree with Marina or mandyy, don’t express yourself. And I don’t know who told these folks that the women weren’t being sexualized or objectified, but they were wrong. I love that they needed to tell me it’s my opinion. I bet they don’t realize there are non-One Direction fans that disliked the video.     I stand by all of my remarks—including the MySpace comment.  I think I may be able to sleep now. Thanks, Zayn stans.  Because of the overdraft issue. ↩The best cure for insomnia. ↩It’s not the first time that’s been suggested. ↩Unless it’s done right. ↩Except for the hearts and flowers strategically placed later. ↩I guess it’s like if a tabloid puts a bar across a celeb’s boobs. They’re preserving the pure beauty of the boobs. ↩

I Guess My Ass Is Bitter



Gays carry disease whether you like it or not. They’re the fucking plague on this planet. I wish they’d just fucking die in a holocaust. I’m sharing my opinion and I will say it again and again NASH GRIER WAS SPOT ON. So you think gay people carry HIV more than any other group, lesbians are the one demographic that carries the least. Truth is any sex that allows for any ripping of tissues allows for the transmission of blood. Gay people don’t get HIV simply because they’re gay. Straight people have less of a chance of getting it than gay men do, but they are more likely to get it than lesbians. The point I’m making is the two biggest groups that contract HIV are homosexual men and heterosexuals. Heterosexual couples that engage in anal sex at the same rate that homosexuals do are at a much higher risk at contracting HIV than heterosexual couples that do not participate in anal sex.  Nobody should be insulted and lied about just for being gay. To scream fag at an AIDS commercial that’s educating you about how not everyone with HIV is gay, is to disregard every heterosexual who has contracted AIDS through needle sharing, anal sex, blood transfusions or any other possible way. It takes a very sick twisted and demented individual to scream the word ‘fag’ at the video of HIV victims regardless of their orientation.  Basically fuck you, you homophobic piece of shit.  via Tumblr

Homophobic Disinformation


Yesterday afternoon, I made these videos as part of that #YesAllWomen video project that I mentioned yesterday. Madison mentioned on her Instagram account that the deadline is Friday, May 30. If you’re interested in contributing, then you’ll need to do so by then. It was actually a much larger video that I had to cut down in order to upload it. (The original file was over 33 minutes long and 2.6 GB of memory.) I was surprised at how long it ended up being. This may be the most I’ve actually talked all year. I would encourage others to share their stories. If you don’t feel safe doing it in a video or in a tweet, then you could do something as “little” as writing in a personal journal or something. Acknowledging it is a major step. And, if you ever feel that you’re ready, getting out to someone is a big thing. And remember that no person’s story is more or less important than any other person’s story. Anyone who judges you for what you’ve experienced is not someone whose opinion you should concern yourself with or obsess over.

My #YesAllWomen Videos




BEFORE YOU READ THIS!!! I am only editing this from my original response on Tumblr to add this bit in and put the link to that response at the very bottom. Other than that, this should be the response verbatim. The quotes that I used to refute brozor’s claims are directly from the manifesto that Elliot Rodger wrote. They include some very violent imagery. If you are triggered easily by, well, just about anything, then you might want to avoid this post. brozor: I wouldn’t be so fucking angry at tumblr’s response to the recent shooting if: the killer was of sound mind and wasn’t diagnosed with aspergers the killer outright said he actually hated women and talked about them in a negative, personal way the killer didn’t outright call men oafish assholes who he thought didn’t deserve the companionship he wanted the victims were all females  angry feminists would stop for 5 minutes and watch his entire video themselves so they actually know what they’re complaining about before they start pinning the entire thing on “the patriarchy” and “male entitlement”  About your points: Having a diagnosis (according to the family lawyer) as having a case of high-functioning Asperger’s does not mean that he wasn’t of “sound mind”. While I know from watching the video, trying to watch some of his other videos, and reading part of his manifesto that he wasn’t what most would consider “normal”, I also wouldn’t attribute his behavior and his attitudes to an ASD. Does your lack of negative, personal feelings towards women include (pages 5 & 6 of his manifesto): I was happy, and completely oblivious of the fact that my future on this world would only turn to darkness and misery because of girls. This girl who was my friend, Maddy Humpreys, would eventually come to represent everything I hate and despise; everything that is against me, and everything that I’m against. I was playing innocently with this girl, in the manner that all children play. We even took baths together; it was the only time in my life that I would see a girl my age naked. When I think about the experiences I had during my friendship with her, it makes me think ominously of the fact that all children, boys and girls, start out the same. We all start out innocent, and we all start outtogether. Only through the experiences and circumstances of growing up do we drift apart, form allegiances, and face each other as enemies. That is when wars happen, and that is when the true nature of humanity rises to the surface. At this stage of my life, of course, my war hadn’t started yet, and it wouldn’t start for a long time. I was enjoying my life without a care in the world, not knowing that all of my joy is destined to turn to dust. Or this (page 41): The only time I did care was when a group of popular Seventh Grade girls started teasing me, which hurt a lot. One of these girls was Monette Moio, a pretty blonde girl who was Ashton’s younger sister. She must have thought I was an ultimate loser. I hated her so much, and I will never forget her. I started to hate all girls because of this. I saw them as mean, cruel, and heartless creatures that took pleasure from my suffering. Or this (page 48): One boy who was tall and had blonde hair called me a “loser”, right in front of his girlfriends. Yes, he had girls with him. Pretty girls. And they didn’t seem to mind that he was such an evil bastard. In fact, I bet they liked him for it. This is how girls are, and I was starting to realize it. This was what truly opened my eyes to how brutal the world is. The most meanest and depraved of men come out on top, and women flock to these men. Their evil acts are rewarded by women; while the good, decent men are laughed at. It is sick, twisted, and wrong in every way. I hated the girls even more than the bullies because of this. Or this (page 50): My fear of girls made me keep my distance from Pollina. She was a total bitch anyway, and her attitude would only get worse. She is a true representative of everything I hate about women. Or this (page 57): I formed an ideology in my head of how the world should work. I was fueled both by my desire to destroy all of the injustices of the world, and to exact revenge on everyone I envy and hate. I decided that my destiny in life is to rise to power so I can impose my ideology on the world and set everything right. Or this (page 103): There were some actors and celebrities on the carpet with us, and the paparazzi yelled at me a few times to get out of the way as they were taking pictures of some cunt actress. I discreetly gave those paparazzi pigs my middle finger. Elliot Rodger will not move aside for a stupid, good-for-nothing, over-glorified actress, whoever the fuck she was. Or this (pages 117 & 118): I hated all of those obnoxious, boisterous men who were able to enjoy pleasurable sex lives with beautiful girls, but I hated the girl’s even more, because they were the ones who chose those men instead of me. It was their choice. They are the ones who deprived me of love and sex.My hatred and rage towards all women festered inside me like a plague. Their very existence is the cause of all of my torture, pain and suffering throughout my life. My life turned into a living hell after I started desiring them when I hit puberty. I desire them intensely, but I could never have them. I could never have the experience of holding hands with a beautiful girl and walking on a […]

Elliot Rodger: Brozor’s Post – My Response



descentintotyranny: Elliot Rodger, Gunman in California Mass Shooting, was influenced by the “Men’s Rights Movement” May 24 2014 Trigger Warning: Violence against Women Last Night in Santa Barbara California, a Gunman in a BMW opened fire on students near the UC Santa Barbara campus in Isla Vista. Seven are dead including the gunman, with a further seven injured. The Gunman’s Name is Elliot Rodger. Last night, he posted a chilling manifesto to youtube. Announcing that he is a 22 year old Virgin who has never been kissed he says: “It’s not fair. You girls have never been attracted to me. I don’t know why you girls have never been attracted to me, but I will punish you all for it. It’s an injustice, a crime, because I don’t know what you don’t see in me. I’m the perfect guy, and yet you throw yourselves at all these obnoxious men, instead of me, the supreme gentleman.” “I will punish all of you for it,” he says again, and then he laughs. “On the day of retribution I will enter the hottest sorority house of UCSB, and I will slaughter every single spoiled stuck up blonde slut I see inside there. All those girls that I’ve desired so much, they would have all rejected me and looked down upon me as an inferior man if I ever made a sexual advance towards them. While they throw themselves at these obnoxious brutes. I’ll take great pleasure in slaughtering all of you. You will finally see that I am in truth the superior one. The true Alpha Male.” The true Alpha Male. What those who call themselves the Mens Rights Movement aspire to be. The Men’s Rights Movement as they call themselves is a nebulous group of pickup artists and misogynists who’ve found each other on line, and are attempting to create a movement based around their hatred, disdain, and fear of women. We know for a fact that Rodgers was influenced by this movement, as he is subscribed to multiple “pick up artist” or “mens rights” channels on YouTube. (For those here that don’t use YouTube, when a user subscribes to a channel, they receive notifications when that channel posts a new video.) They include: “The Player Supreme Show” which rails against the feminization of men and talks about how to pick up women. “RSDfreetour” which is a series of self-help seminars run by RSD Nation, a “pick up artist” site. There’s also a user called McHenry Cruiser who in addition to being a pickup artist is a comedian who has some kind of beef with Louis CK, and another called “Squatting Cassanova,” who seems to be your average PUA. I’m still digging through some of the folks he’s subscribed to. He is what the Men’s Rights movement calls an “Incel” which is short for involuntary celibacy. It’s a hot topic in various parts of the manosphere. Rather than seeking mental help for some obvious issues, he sought out the Men’s Rights Movement. He watched their propaganda. He internalized their hatred of women. (There’s no shortage of anti-woman rhetoric and nonsense. For some of the worst of it, check out The Red Pill’s “Pussy Pass” forum, where they take isolated incidents, remove them from any rational context, and blow them way out of proportion.) He listened to these guys talk about being hard, and tough, and true alpha men. He did what they told them, and began lifting weights. We know he had an account on body building forum which was recently deleted by their moderation team. So this kid who needed some serious mental help sought out the destructive, BS views coming from the men’s rights movement. He felt entitled to sex with women. He blamed women for not providing him with sex. He exposed himself to hateful rhetoric about women. And then he acted on that hatred, and targeted college girls for a drive-by shooting, killed six, wounded seven, and then shot himself. I don’t think we should be at all surprised that when hateful rhetoric is trained on any group,  lone wolves like this guy get triggered. via Tumblr

Elliot Rodger, Gunman in California Mass Shooting, was influenced by ...


“I don’t know why you girls aren’t attracted to me, but I will punish you for it. It’s a crime. An injustice. Because I don’t get what you don’t see in me. I’m the perfect guy, and yet you throw yourselves at all these obnoxious men instead of me, the supreme gentleman. And I will punish you for it.” – UCSB mass shooting suspect Elliot Rodger, in his confessional video via Tumblr http://ift.tt/1tA2LWz