Tag: Psychology


You Have Questions, I Have Answers

9
June

It’s that time again. I have to go through my Formspring account to go through all of the questions. I didn’t answer all of them, because some were not questions and/or they didn’t apply to me personally. I figured that instead of spamming the Facebook, Tumblr, or Twitter feeds of other people or posting separate posts on here per question, I would make one big Q&A post. If you have any questions that you want to ask, there are links below for my Formspring account and my Tumblr ask box. If you’d rather ask questions here, then that’s fine, too.

Question: I want you to try to stop saying the word “fat.” To stop saying “That’s so gay” or fag. To stop saying “retard.” To stop telling people you don’t care. Why Because words CAN hurt people. Sometimes MORE than sticks and stones. Don’t cause someone’s scar.
Answer: I don’t say those things. The only time I say the word fat is in reference to myself.

Question: What do you think of me??!!
Answer: I don’t know who you are, so I don’t have any opinion about you.

Question: What are your dreams u die die want to achieve??
Answer:I’m not quite sure what you’re asking, but I’m guessing that you want to know what I want to do before I die. I would like to finally get my act together and finish the novels I’ve been trying to write for years. I would like to get married and have kids. I would like to be able to have my opinions respected by people that I know in real life. (Some people refuse to listen to me because my opinions are so different from their opinions.)

Question: If a person owns a piece of land, do they own it all the way down to the center of the earth?
Answer: LOL! I don’t know, but that’s a good question.

Question: Why does a gynecologist leave the room when you undress?
Answer: I think they do it so that people will feel calmer and more relaxed. I think that if women had to undress in front of their doctors that they might feel uncomfortable.

Question: Formspring has be come very overcrowded recently, we are looking to cut down on our users so please show us that you are active and press “ask followers” (below this question). Anyone who fails to do this within 4 days will be removed from formspring.
Answer: Obviously, since you posted this a week ago and I’m only now even looking at it, this isn’t a legit issue. I would recommend that people not pass along rumors and things like this. Generally, they aren’t true.

Question: If you were able to hang with ASkars for the day, what would you do?
Answer: I could say something perverted or obscene, but I think if I were actually going to hang out with him for the day that I would just want to talk and get to know him. He always seems really cool, and I think that talking to him would be really fun.

Question: What’s your favorite tree?
Answer: My favorite tree is the Weeping Willow tree. I’ve always loved that kind of tree, even before Buffy came along and before we named one of our Basset Hounds after the BtVS character. I always thought they were beautiful, when I was a child. They always seemed kind of magical to me. Also, they’re one of the few trees that I have never been allergic to in my life.

Question: Is there a celebrity you just can’t stand? Who is it and why don’t you like them?
Answer: There are a couple. I think the one that I like the least is Tom Cruise. The reason is fairly simple. He was going on talk shows to promote some movie and his new relationship with Katie Holmes. While he was on some of these shows, he made it clear that he is an idiot when it comes to information about mental illness and mental health care. Though I believe that people have a right to their opinions, I felt that such an influential person going on national television and bashing something that people rely on to survive was wrong. He may have influenced someone to the point that they quit their meds and counseling and ended up hurting someone they know or doing harm to their own body/life. I also am a bit anti-Tom Selleck. He went on The Rosie O’Donnell Show and defended the NRA and the ability to access guns. He did this just weeks after Columbine. Of course, there are also some idiots who think that they can enter the political world. *cough*Sarah Palin*cough* Other than that, I can’t really think of anyone.

Question: Which Greek God and Goddess are your favorites?
Answer: I would say my favorite Greek goddess is either Artemis or Gaea. My favorite Greek god would be Apollo.

Question: If you could trade places with a celebrity for a week, who would you choose and why?
Answer: Probably someone on Glee or True Blood. I would love to know what it is like to be on the sets of those shows and to get to know the cast.

Question: Who’s your favorite twitter celebrity?
Answer: I don’t know. Probably the Voldemort twitter account. It always is interesting.

Question: When it’s hot out, what do you do to stay cool? And let’s assume you don’t have AC.
Answer: I would say being in the morgue would keep me cool. AC isn’t enough to keep me cool. I have to keep ice packs on me a lot of the time to keep me from getting sick from the heat.

Question: What is your favorite cartoon?
Answer: I don’t know. I’m not really a cartoon girl.

Question: Who is your favorite superhero?
Answer: Underdog.

Question: One movie that makes you cry every time you watch it… go!
Answer: A Walk to Remember

Question: What would you attempt to do, if you knew you couldn’t fail?
Answer: I don’t know. Maybe time travel. I mean, if you couldn’t fail, then you wouldn’t look dumb when you tried and it didn’t work. Most of the time when you fail at things, no one notices. Usually the only time that failures are noticed is when they are related to something big. So that would be the only time you’d really worry about failure. I figure that time travel is a fairly big concept.

Question: When cheese gets its picture taken, what does it say?
Answer: People.

Question: Out of your 5 senses (hearing, sight, touch, smell, and taste), which one could you do without?
Answer: I think I’ve answered this question before, but I’ll answer it again. I would probably say sight. Even though I enjoy the beauty of things, I feel like my other senses are more important to me as a person.

Question: Would you risk your life for your best friend? How far would you go to risk your life – even if that meant taking your life?
Answer: It would be nice if I said that I would, but I don’t really know.

Question: Are there any songs with your name in that you like?
Answer: In the title? Only for my middle name. I really like Dirty Diana. In the lyrics, I like Nasty. I guess I kind of like Damnit Janet, but I haven’t really heard it enough to be sure.

Question: Will we ever have flying cars.?..God damn it I want a flyin….NO……. I demand a flying car.
Answer: I don’t know. I guess it is possible that eventually we will.

Question: What makes you angry?
Answer: Ignorance.

Question: When you’re on a date, do you think the man should pay or not?
Answer: If he asked me, I think he should pay. If I asked him, I should pay. The only way I would think differently is if we agreed to something different beforehand.

Question: DO you enjoy asking questioins, or answering them?
Answer: Yes. I love answering them, and I like asking them as well.

Question: What was the last film that made you cry?
Answer: I’m not really sure.

Question: Would you survive if Twitter closed?
Answer: Yes. I don’t have to be on Twitter to survive.

Question: Why do bad things always happen to good people? Why do good things always happen to bad people? Well, not all the time. But I think majority of the time it goes that way? Don’t you think? When will the good people get a ‘break’?
Answer: My opinion on this really changes depending on the day. I think that bad things probably happen because life, by its very nature, is unfair. Bad things probably happen to bad people as well, but we just don’t hear about it. It does sometimes think that good people have really bad things happen more often than bad people, but I don’t know why it would really happen more to one group than the other. Maybe it is because bad people are more likely to take advantage of the niceness offered by the good people than good people taking advantage of the bad folks. Maybe good people are just too nice for their own good.

Question: Glitter or shiny things?
Answer: Glitter!

Question: Could you imagine using this in public – discreetly? http://go-girl.com
Answer: Ew. No!

Question: Would you rather be alone with your own thoughts or entrenched with a million thoughts from others?
Answer: I’d rather be alone with my own thoughts. I think that knowing the thoughts of others might be too much for me to handle. It might also violate the privacy of other people.

Question: What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
Answer: I wouldn’t do anything differently.

Question: What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
Answer: I eat sandwiches and meat differently. Instead of biting like most people, I have to put the food at my front teeth, then pull it with my hands to tear into/rip it.

Question: Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Answer: Doing the right things.

Question: Do you have any birth marks? if so where?
Answer: No birthmarks. I have freckles and some moles, but no birthmarks.

Question: Do you consider who holds the power of the social networks you use and what impact it has on you?
Answer: Yes. Sometimes it seems like those who run the networks are more intent on making money than providing a good service. I know that they are typically commercial ventures, so I get why they do it. It seems, though, that the quality of some of social media websites has declined because of the desires of those in charge to make money.

Question: Would you rather sweat green liquid out of your pores or fart blue smoke?
Answer: LOL! Ew. I guess the sweat thing, but either would be grotesque.

Question: Imagine that you were isolated in a remote part of the world. No phone, no internet, no social interaction with anyone. Describe your location and how you are feeling.
Answer: I would probably feel sleepy. I know that right after the April 27th tornadoes, when we had no power and intermittent cell service, I did a lot of sleeping. I think that I rely on all of the internet interactions to keep my brain going. Otherwise, it seems to go into hibernation mode.

Feel free to ask me and questions that you have at formspring or tumblr. You can also post questions to the fuzzypinkslippers.com version of this entry. I will try to answer them all.

 

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The More That Is Said

15
February

Today (Sunday) it was revealed that Amy Bishop was a suspect in an attempted bombing. This was after yesterday’s statement that she killed her younger brother in 1986. People are still trying to say that this was a woman who plotted this whole thing out with malice of intent. I really am starting to doubt whether that’s even possible, given the reported reasoning behind the prior two events, and the reported reason for this particular event.

I honestly think that she has Borderline Personality Disorder and some sort of psychotic or depersonalization disorder. I know, I’m not allowed to actually diagnose her, since I never received a degree in a social work or psychology field. However, I did do training in social work, and had I not been kept from graduating, I might have a licensed Master’s degree in Social Work, with the ability to tell you what the crap was really wrong with this woman.

So, why do I think that she’s a Borderline? I’ve italicized the things that I think she’s exhibited.

From Google Health:

Borderline personality disorder is a condition in which a person makes impulsive actions, and has an unstable mood and chaotic relationships.

From the National Institute of Mental Health:

While a person with depression or bipolar disorder typically endures the same mood for weeks, a person with BPD may experience intense bouts of anger, depression, and anxiety that may last only hours, or at most a day. These may be associated with episodes of impulsive aggression, self-injury, and drug or alcohol abuse. Distortions in cognition and sense of self can lead to frequent changes in long-term goals, career plans, jobs, friendships, gender identity, and values. Sometimes people with BPD view themselves as fundamentally bad, or unworthy. They may feel unfairly misunderstood or mistreated, bored, empty, and have little idea who they are. Such symptoms are most acute when people with BPD feel isolated and lacking in social support, and may result in frantic efforts to avoid being alone.

People with BPD often have highly unstable patterns of social relationships. While they can develop intense but stormy attachments, their attitudes towards family, friends, and loved ones may suddenly shift from idealization (great admiration and love) to devaluation (intense anger and dislike). Thus, they may form an immediate attachment and idealize the other person, but when a slight separation or conflict occurs, they switch unexpectedly to the other extreme and angrily accuse the other person of not caring for them at all. Even with family members, individuals with BPD are highly sensitive to rejection, reacting with anger and distress to such mild separations as a vacation, a business trip, or a sudden change in plans. These fears of abandonment seem to be related to difficulties feeling emotionally connected to important persons when they are physically absent, leaving the individual with BPD feeling lost and perhaps worthless. Suicide threats and attempts may occur along with anger at perceived abandonment and disappointments.

People with BPD exhibit other impulsive behaviors, such as excessive spending, binge eating and risky sex. BPD often occurs together with other psychiatric problems, particularly bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety disorders, substance abuse, and other personality disorders.

Two psychoanalysts, Gunderson and Kolb, have said the following should be considered:

  1. Affect: chronic/major depression, helplessness, worthlessness, guilt, anger, anxiety, loneliness, boredom, emptiness
  2. Cognition: odd thinking, unusual perceptions, nondelusional paranoia, quasipsychosis
  3. Impulse action patterns: substance abuse/dependence, sexual deviance, manipulative suicide gestures, other impulsive behaviors
  4. Interpersonal relationships: intolerance of aloneness, abadonment, engulfment, annihilation fears, counterdependencey, stormy relationships, manipulativeness, deprendency, devaluation, masochism/sadism, demandingness, entitlement

The DIB-R is the most influential and best-known “test” for diagnosing BPD. Use of it has led researchers to identify four behavior patterns they consider peculiar to BPD: abandonment, engulfment, annihilation fears; demandingness and entitlement; treatment regressions; and ability to arouse inappropriately close or hostile treatment relationships.

Borderlines, according to Marsha Linehand, “are like people with third degree burns over 90% of their bodies. Lacking emotional skin, they feel agony at the slightest touch or movement.”

When she appeared on camera saying that the shootings didn’t happen and her colleagues weren;’t dead, this screams of dissociation. She may not remember what happened.

Many of her students had described her as witty, which is a common attribute of BPD.

As for the psychosis that I think she may have, it just seems that there is an underlying part of her personality. People have said she was disorganized, which is common with BPD, but the extent to which she was disorganized seems to indicate a psychotic disorder.

Of course, keep in mind that I am not a professional. My only experience is my 3 years in a Social Work program, which included looking into the DSM and at the reasons for Human Behavior, as well as my own personal experiences being crazy and growing up around a bunch of “nuts”, who have problems with psychotic behavior, BPD, anti-social personalities (sociopaths), explosive anger, PTSD, anxiety, etc. I am fairly certain that she is not a sociopath. Strangely, sociopaths are pretty obvious when I see them, and she doesn’t seem to be that type of person. She seems to be more of the “I’m hurting” type, which would indicate more of a Borderline issue.

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Application Status

23
February

I just sent an application this morning to another university in town to see if I could pursue a degree in psychology while I’m waiting on the lawsuit. I also sent it because I’m really afraid to go back to my old school because I think that people there will give me a hard time over the suit. I’m not as naive as I seem. I know that people can take it out on you when you try to prove to them that they’re wrong.

I’m going on Tuesday to see my new therapist. She isn’t completely new to my life. She’s Stephanie’s old case worker. (I can only see Licensed Clinical Social Workers because I’m on Medicare.) I think I’ll be comfortable with her, but I’m not completely sure yet. If I’m not comfortable, then after my intake, I can always request a new therapist. This will make for about 10 different therapists that I’ve seen since I was eight.

So why the new therapist? Well, I could no longer afford to see my psychiatrist, so I had to switch back to the Mental Health Center. :( It sucks. I have an intake to go through with the therapist, then a psychiatric evaluation to go through on March 21st. Not cool. They asked what my diagnoses were on the form, and I marked a few because I’ve been diagnosed with a few. Actually the only one listed that I hadn’t been diagnosed with was Schizophrenia, though it was suggested that I have it back about 4 years ago, and Schizoaffective Disorder is in that class of problems.

I had to go to crisis counseling on Tuesday when I went to sign up to go back to the Mental Health Center. Why? Well, apparently, I was deemed to be in crisis. I had marked that I had a lot of symptoms over the past 48 hours, including feeling hopeless, seeing things, and hearing things. The person scheduling me was like, “You’re not on anything for the psychotic symptoms.” I pointed on the form to the Abilify and told her I was. The thing about it is, I barely recognize that I have those symptoms most days, even when I have them. Eventually, I think you can just get used to having them.

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