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When You Say Nothing At All

10
October

Well, in less than 48 hours, I may get to find out if I am going to go to jail or pay some hefty fine. I really am not looking forward to this. I shouldn’t be too nervous, since this is the third hearing that I’ve been scheduled for with this and, aside from my outburst last time and being made to feel like I was about 2 inches tall the time before, nothing has really happened this time around. I don’t want to quit worrying altogether, though. I have this feeling that if I don’t go in at least slightly anxious, then I will end up feeling completely overwhelmed or unprepared by whatever ends up happening.

Other than my inevitable meeting hearing with fate the judge and the city attorney, I don’t think I have anything else going on this week or anytime soon. Molly is going back to the vet this week, I think, to get her stitches taken out from her surgery. My mom will probably have lots of fun chores for me to do for her.

Oh, my mom is supposed to try pool therapy. I have a feeling her trying it won’t last long. I think that she truly has given up on getting around by herself and that she doesn’t feel that she needs to work toward getting better. If I suggested that to her, as I have tried to do in the past, then she would freak out and act like I’m just not understanding her pain or her weakness. I understand the issues that she has. I understand them quite well. What I don’t understand is how she thinks that that pain or that weakness means that she is excused from ever even trying to do anything at all. (Yeah, I know that sounds weird coming from me.)

Ugh. I’ve had (what feels like) a migraine brewing for a few hours now. I know that getting off the computer, shunning all electricity, etc. might help it get better, but it also might do nothing and will leave me in pain and bored.

I was going to call my family doctor to find out the results from the tests related to my last appointment, since I haven’t heard back on the ultrasound and the urine culture shouldn’t take too long to do. I didn’t call since it was Columbus Day and I figured that their office would close up shop for a holiday. I just need to remember to call tomorrow.

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Be Sure To Visit Me in the Pokey

28
September

My court date is finally upon us. In about 6 hours, I will have to be in court. Of course, my “trial” won’t be until after they go through all of the other municipal court business. I never did get a lawyer or any legal help of of any type, so I could be screwed. I kinda felt that it wouldn’t do any good. I could be wrong, and if I am, then I guess I’m even more screwed than I should be.

I don’t want to be pessimistic about what will happen, but let’s face it, there’s just one way this will all end up. I’ll be guilty, even if I’m not. The municipal court is set up to make money for the city, so it won’t matter that my yard has been mowed multiple times since the letter that said I was in violation. It won’t matter that there are pictures to prove this. In fact, any pictures that I show will probably be challenged by the city because the employees of the city must be more honest than a citizen who repeatedly violates the grass ordinance.

So, I guess the only hope that I can have is for the fine (plus court costs) not to be too hefty and to not get a jail sentence, which I could technically get. Ugh. I hate this whole situation.

I have a feeling that I am probably the most pessimistic member of my family when it comes to this case, but I don’t see any reason to be really optimistic about it. The way that the last few appearances have gone down has proven to me that my fate has already been set in stone. So, I guess I just have to take my lumps.

On the off chance that I do actually get jailed, I thought I’d mention that Molly has to go in on Thursday for surgery to remove the tumor on her hip. I hope that she’ll be okay. I’m probably more worried about her than I am about myself, which is good. As long as I can focus my anxiety and tears on her, then I won’t feel so self-centered or entrenched in this whole situation. Send some positive thoughts her way, please.

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The Poor Basset Baby

17
August

If you are easily sickened, then you might not want to read this entry. There is reference to bodily fluids, animals, aggressive behaviors by dogs, and some fairly icky stuff.

Last night, Molly, the first Basset Hound of the family, began to whine and complain more often than she normally does. (Molly whines and complains regularly. She also barks to get us to give attention or go lay down in my dad’s bed with her.) This whine sounded painful, so I was thinking she might need to go to the vet if she kept it up. This morning, I checked a spot on her that we keep an eye on and it looked really bad. Some of it looked potentially necrotic or maybe gangrenous, and it just looked a lot worse than normal. (This is a spot that looks like a tumor and has had an infection in it off and on for over a year. She has been treated for it several times, but she’s like me with the trouble getting over infections.) My dad and I were going to clean it this morning, like we do every morning (my dad also cleans it at other times and puts Neosporin on it) and while I was looking at Alice and Gretchen, my father touched it. He touched it enough to make her yelp and, apparently, enough to cause the bit of icky tissue to come off and blood & pus to spread all over my father’s bed, Molly, my dad, and even some on me. The yelping triggered Gretchen to go into a bit of a red zone kind of area and she went after Alice. (Gretchen has always responded to Molly like Molly is her mother and Molly has always acted like Gretchen is her puppy.) So, I didn’t see the “explosion” of blood & pus, since I was trying to break up a dog fight. I did see the aftermath, and it was very gross.

I went into the living room to talk about the massive blood/pus “explosion” and ask for her opinion. I knew that I thought Molly needed to be checked out by the vet, but I was a bit hesitant to bring it up with my dad. My mom also thought it was a good idea. My dad, who is often hesitant about going to the vet’s office (because it is very expensive and usually we end up having to do non-prescription care for the fur babies issues), was actually wanting to take her to the vet after this morning’s blood and pus related problems before I suggested it to him. He was especially concerned since Molly is his baby and he was having trouble controlling the blood/pus draining out. He couldn’t get enough pressure to get it to stop for long, and any time that he did, Molly would start licking and it would begin pouring out again.

So, before the dogs were able to go out for their morning constitutional (walk) and have breakfast, my dad and I took her to the vet. I was worried that the vet would be judgmental about how bad her hip had gotten since the last visit, but he wasn’t. He said we were treating it with stuff that would normally work (peroxide, Neosporin, cleaning it), but that she needed an oral antibiotic. He also drained it some more, which was easier for him to do since Molly was in a muzzle. (She has to wear a muzzle because anytime she sees a vet or anyone in scrubs, she bites them. She was not well-treated by a vet prior to our adopting her, so she’s got issues with doctors and techs.) He said she should be okay.

He also told us that after the infection gets cleared up, which I hope that it does get cleared up this time, that we will need to talk about getting rid of the tumor. He felt that it had something to do with the tumor. I’ve heard of animals getting abscesses with tumors, but usually they’re cancerous, I think. Her tumors have always been benign/fatty tumors and the vets were willing to only really take them off after they have formed some kind of abscess. That means that they go from being non-painful to being horribly painful and to making her suffer. Honestly, I don’t get why they have a wait on it policy.

So, now I’m hoping that she gets better. I hate to see her or any of the people or animals in my family in any kind of pain or suffering from any illness. It is very depressing to see her or anyone suffer. Hopefully, this abscess will get better very, very soon.  I also hope that this tumor is not really serious, but I have a feeling it will be.  I can’t imagine her having cancer or how my dad or Gretchen would handle that.  It would devastate us all, but my dad and Gretchen would be especially upset.

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10 Day Challenge: Day 2

27
April

So, today (yesterday actually) was day number 2 of the 10 Day Challenge.  The topic for Day 2 is:

Day 2: Nine Things You Can’t Live Without

I could go all materialistic and say nine things that (truth is) I could probably do without.  I’ll try not to do that.

  1. My parents: Even when we don’t get along, I still love them so much that it is hard to envision a time when they wouldn’t be in my life.
  2. My puppy babies: I always thought that I was a cat person, but it has become quite evident over the past 10 years that I’m quite good at being part of “a pack”.
  3. The ability to read: I know that the possibility to go blind or to have some kind of life-altering brain injury could happen, but I can’t imagine being me and being unable to read.
  4. The ability to listen to and appreciate music: For the love of God, I’m not referring to the teenage thing known as the Bieber. I’m talking real soulful or beautiful or life-altering music.  Music that touches the depths of a person either by its message or by the musician’s talent/skill.
  5. My sense of humor: Some people might not think of me as being funny.  I think, though, that they just cannot appreciate my type of wit.  ;)
  6. The friends and family that I have that care as much for me as I do for them:This group of people should know who they are, but I don’t know that they know just how much they mean to me.  Whether it’s checking on me when they notice I haven’t been online for a while (for some that’s a day and others a few weeks) or send me a birthday wish or telling a joke on one of those days when I’m just completely blue.  These people are important.  These people matter.  They (you) should know that.
  7. Therapy: The first time I went to therapy, I was 8.  I’m 27 now.  I’m still crazy, and I can’t imagine a time happening where I won’t need therapy in order to make it from day to day.
  8. My fear of slugs: This fear will never go away.  I figure that if it ceases to affect me, then I will cease to be the Janet that most people know and love or, for some, know and loathe.
  9. My fangirl tendencies:I’ve got to be a fangirl.  That’s just who I am.  It’s how I roll.  Like it or lump it, folks!

 

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She Bites

25
April

Molly seems to have a bit of a love of chewing on the arms of my parents and me. It seems like one of those things that little puppies do. Hopefully, she will grow out of it soon because its so painful. I know she doesn’t mean to hurt any of us, but that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt.

I’ve done about half of my research paper, which is due next Saturday. I need to finish it, and I still have the other essay to write, which is due on Tuesday. Blah. I’m procrastinating. I don’t know why I’m stalling so much on this, but I just don’t feel inspired to write. I don’t like writing when I’m uninspired.

I was considering undoing the password protection on the entry “What Went Down” and making it a public entry, but I don’t want even more drama with the person that the entry is about. I don’t want anything else to do with her. I’m not joining any boards that I know that she’s at because I don’t want to be around her. I also don’t want to have to deal with her affinity for calling me a “fat slob” or telling me to go “suffocate on my fat”. What she said didn’t upset me as much as it shocked me. I didn’t expect that kind of behavior from someone her age. Of course, it was reminiscent of my former boss’s behavior last summer when she said something about me being in the refrigerator. Somehow these people seem to think that saying something bad about my weight will somehow injure me. Though I have had issues in the past with people’s comments about my weight, the insults that were made by these two people didn’t upset me. I think I’m starting to grow as a person…no pun intended.

Speaking of my weight…I can’t really tell if I’ve lost any lately. If I obsessively weighed myself everyday, I might know. Of course, if I obsessively weighed everyday then I would probably quit eating when I didn’t lose x number of pounds in a 24-hour period. I would become so obsessed with making the number go down that I would sacrifice my health in the meantime. That’s why I made the decision when I had the surgery that I was not going to become one of the people who weighed everyday. I decided I’d only weigh at doctor’s appointments and whenever my Nana makes me weigh at her house. That way I won’t become fixated on some number and lose sight of my real goal, which is to be healthy.

I think that starting after school ends, I will be looking for some new Moderators and Super Moderators for Celestial. I’ll mainly be looking for people who are already active members there. So, if you’re interested in becoming a Moderator or a Super Moderator, then start posting on Celestial. You don’t have to post like a million times…just post at least a couple of posts a day if possible. Not many. I don’t expect people to give up their offline lives in order to post a million times a day on my boards. I’m not unreasonable.

I made a theme image for JetRockit, but I doubt it’ll be used. You can view it here…it’s a Buffy/Angel theme with pictures from “Surprise”. No one has said anything about it on there, and I’d like to at least have some feedback. I mean, I know its not as good as most folks do, but still…I like it.

Plugs: Alx, Ang, Angela, Chrissy, Erin, Iris, Jackie, Jaclyn, Jeni, Julie, Kasie, Kat B, Kelley, Krissy, Kristie, Li, Maj, Mellybelly, Nicola, Rose, Sarah, Sarah, Simone, Stacey, Stephanie, Steve, Tara, Tess, Wendii, Whitney

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