Holiday Wishlist Meme 2015

This is a meme that I participate in every year on LiveJournal. Even if you get nothing, it’s still a fun meme because it allows us to be kids again and make Christmas lists. Let’s face it, that kind of dreaming and hope is fun. So here’s my wishlist this year. If you want to make one, leave me a link and I’ll post it here.



Make a post (public, friends-locked, filtered… whatever you’re comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related (“I’d love a Snape/Hermione icon that’s just for me”) to medium (“I wish for _____ on DVD”) to really big (“All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV”). The important thing is to make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it’s your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) can get in touch with you. Your home address is not required!

Make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ so that the holiday joy will spread.


Surf around your friends list (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here’s the important part…

You needn’t spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn’t to put people out, it’s to provide everyone a chance to be someone else’s holiday elf – to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not – it’s your call. There are no guarantees with this project, and no strings attached. Just… wish, and it might come true. Give and you might receive. You’ll have the joy of knowing you made someone’s holiday special.


I have listed more than 10 things.

  1. Shot glasses, coffee mugs, teapots. I collect these, so I would love to have some new ones to add to my very small collection.
  2. Crafting stuff. Knitting, crocheting, quilting, sewing, adult coloring books.
  3. Toys for Amy Pond. She’ll be 3 years old on the 21st of December. She loves squeaky toys, Kongs, pillows, blankets…basically, anything you put in front of her. She’s also a tad destructive on most things, so the less destructible, the better.
  4. Home repairs. I have a GoFundMe donation page set up because my house has serious issues and needs to be fixed. We’ve got leaks in the bathrooms, cracks in the walls, a broken window with a piece of metal over it, and we have to walk around on the concrete slab in most rooms because the carpet had to be taken up years ago, but we didn’t have the money to replace it. Our laundry room needs to be rewired and/or we need a new dryer because any time that we try to use it, it knocks the power off. (We have to hang dry all of our clothes in the bathroom with a space heater.) We also need a new roof and siding (some of ours has rotted) and home insurance. (We can’t get any because of the problems listed.) And at some point we’d like to have central air-conditioning back in the house so that we wouldn’t have to rely on window a/c during the summer, but that’s not as necessary as the rest of the things needing to be fixed. The city I live in can sometimes donate siding and shingles if a person has a group willing to put make the repairs, but we’ve got no one willing to do the work. Any help would be really nice, even if it’s in the form of recommendations for groups that help with this sort of thing.
  5. Help with my domain hosting bill. It is processed through PayPal, but the money doesn’t go to me. It goes directly to DreamHost, the company that I get my site hosted through, and is automatically applied to my account. The minimum they’ll allow is $10.
  6. Help with other bills. I have a GoFundMe for that as well.
  7. Guitar. No, I don’t expect anyone to get this for me. I would just like to learn how to play guitar sometime.
  8. Gift Cards. Specifically:, Barnes & Noble, Lane Bryant, iTunes, Starbucks, Target, Torrid, Walmart – Amazon for books, movies, and other things. B&N for books. Lane Bryant & Torrid for clothes, accessories, etc. Having a gift card means that I’m a lot less likely to abuse my credit card with them. Target & Walmart would be used for groceries, makeup, clothes, and conditioner. (My hair dries out easily–which leads to matting and breaking–and Target sells a conditioner that keeps it moisturized.) And iTunes for new music and, in case they never get around to bumping the song limit up, converting my music library to iTunes purchases, so that I can listen to the rest of my music collection. Starbucks is so I can get the occasional drink when I’m not at home. 
  9. Anything from my wishlist. Anything on the list would be great. I’ve tried to arrange things from high to low priority, but, as you can probably figure by it simply being on the wishlist, I actually would like to have it. And if you see something on the list that you could get at a cheaper price or used, I’m good with that.
  10. Fandom/care packages.
  11. Makeup. I’m a ginger, so I have very pale skin. Any colors that look good on people with really light skin will be fine. (I’m not afraid of bright or bold colors.) I mainly wear nail polish, lipstick and eyeshadow.
  12. Accessories. Hats, socks, scarves, headbands, purses, barettes, necklaces, bracelets. I absolutely need a wallet. Belts if they’re made for plus-size women.
  13. Stuffed animal/plushies.
  14. Well wishes. I had knee surgery on the 3rd of December, so positive thoughts/vibes/prayers would be appreciated for that. And for me to be a bit more outgoing and less afraid to speak up for myself in the next year.
  15. An alarm clock that I could attach my iPod to so that I could listen to music while sleeping. Music helps me sleep,but if I keep the iPod on me when I head to bed, I end up staring at the screen all night & forgetting to sleep.
  16. Surprise me.


Outlander, Disney (especially Sleeping Beauty & Brave), Castle, Big Bang Theory, Orphan Black, Doctor Who, Supernatural, Star Wars, Scream Queens, OUAT, Harry Potter, Twilight, Buffy/Angel, Hunger Games, Arrow/The Flash, PLL, iZombie, Jane the Virgin, Bones, Reign, Game of Thrones, Glee, How to Get Away with Murder, The Blacklist, 2 Broke Girls, Marvel/SHIELD, Gilmore Girls, Charmed, New Girl, Project Runway, Auburn University, UNC, Hello Kitty/Sanrio, Taylor Swift, Kate Winslet, Leonardo DiCaprio, Dakota Johnson, Jamie Dornan


Crafts, fashion, reading, listening to music, singing, walking, cooking, hair, makeup, politics (progressive/liberal/left-wing), feminism, green living, cute stuff, photography

Favorite colors

pink, purple, baby blue, silver, red


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Happy Holidays everyone. :) I hope everyone has a great rest of the year and an awesome 2016.

Throwback Thursday: My Beloved Peace Sign Earrings

via Instagram

This one is from 2008. I really miss the peace sign earrings. I also miss being able to wear earrings in general. (Metal allergies and scarring/infection issues ruined them for me.)

I lost the earring the night of the Halloween Dance in 2008, which was the week after Jennifer’s car caught fire while we were driving back to Huntsville from Scottsboro. Some of the events of that night (as well as the weeks surrounding it) are part of why I’m not active in the LDS church now. None of those reasons have to do with the lost earring, except that part of why I got the third piercing in each ear was due to the church’s “one piercing” policy, aka:

If girls or women desire to have their ears pierced, they are encouraged to wear only one pair of modest earrings.

There is also an anti-tattoo sentiment within the church that had me considering saving up for a tattoo, but I didn’t.

I guess I’ve digressed from talking about my love for these stupid (yet pretty) earrings.

My Year in Music: 2013

After seeing Jenn’s post on her top tracks of 2013, I thought I’d do the unoriginal thing and check and see what songs I listened to the most over the last year. According to, the top 25 songs are:

  1. One Direction – Story of My Life
  2. Mumford & Sons – Broken Crown
  3. Lindsey Pavao – Say Aah (The Voice Performance)
  4. Ed Sheeran – The A Team
  5. Sara Bareilles – Breathe Again
  6. Flo Rida – In the Ayer (feat.
  7. Death Cab for Cutie – I Will Follow You Into The Dark
  8. Ellie Goulding – Lights
  9. Katy Perry – Circle the Drain
  10. Ed Sheeran – Drunk
  11. Dixie Chicks – Top Of The World
  12. Kelly Clarkson – Already Gone
  13. Ed Sheeran – Small Bump
  14. Taylor Swift – All Too Well
  15. Christina Aguilera – The Right Man
  16. The Maine – My Heroine
  17. Eagles – Hotel California (LP Version)
  18. Leona Lewis – Better in Time
  19. Kate Voegele – Forever And Almost Always
  20. Maroon 5 – One More Night
  21. Miranda Lambert – Gunpowder & Lead
  22. Iron & Wine – Flightless Bird, American Mouth
  23. Gossip – Heavy Cross
  24. ZZ Ward – Blue Eyes Blind
  25. AFI – Prelude 12/21

The pathetic thing is that the number one song is from a group that I spent the majority of the last few years criticizing, then I heard this song and now I feel like Paul Rudd should be mocking me in some SNL skit. In the last month, I have listened to said song 99 times. That’s a little sad, isn’t it? If you don’t think it is, keep in mind that those 99 times occurred between November 27 and the end of the year. Also, it was 43 more times than I listened to Broken Crown, which was one of the other songs that I was overly obsessed with this past year.

I also went ahead and checked out my top artist list. Guess what? One Direction made it onto this list as well. (They also made it onto my top played albums list.) Maybe I need some kind of psychological help specifically for this new-found appreciation of that group. But they only made it to number 5 on this list, between the Glee Cast (with 951 listens) at #1 and Anna Nalick (with 100) at #25:

  1. Glee Cast
  2. Taylor Swift
  3. Maroon 5
  4. P!nk
  5. One Direction
  6. Christina Aguilera
  7. Florence + the Machine
  8. Mariah Carey
  9. Ed Sheeran
  10. Rihanna
  11. *NSYNC
  12. Britney Spears
  13. Katy Perry
  14. Mumford & Sons
  15. Dixie Chicks
  16. Kelly Clarkson
  17. Adele
  18. Amy Winehouse
  19. Beyoncé
  20. Whitney Houston
  21. Iron & Wine
  22. Melanie Martinez
  23. Gin Wigmore
  24. The Avett Brothers
  25. Anna Nalick

Oddly, until the last month, I only had 1 song scrobbled from The Avett Brothers and now I’ve listened to them 101 times…I guess I may be forming a new musical obsession. Other music obsessions that started this year: Melanie Martinez, Ed Sheeran (you gotta love a ginger born on February 17), and Mumford & Sons. (I blame Tumblr for those last 2 obsessions, as well as my overplaying “My Heroine” by The Maine.)

Anyway, if you want to keep up with what music I actually listen (and, possibly, become obsessed with) to throughout the year, you can do so via my profile or my Spotify account.

My Year in Books: 2013


This year I read…a lot. I logged a total of 210 books and 70,347 pages. My Goodreads challenge goal was 50 and I hit that on March 2nd, with the book Wanted by Sara Shepard. I planned all year to expand the challenge, but decided against it each time.

The final book that I read this year was Dare You To by Katie McGarry, a book that I had started twice before. I finished it early in the morning on December 30th. It was the second book in the Pushing the Limits series by McGarry, which is an interesting book that deals with growing up and moving past depressing circumstances–parents with mental illness and drug addiction, being orphaned, having parents who don’t pay attention, having parents who try to kill you or who have partners who have tried to do so. Basically, people whose lives are really shitty, but who are trying to move past that.

The first book that I read this year was Looking for Alaska by John Green. That was on January 4th. I followed that up with Paper Towns; Will Grayson, Will Grayson; and An Abundance of Katherines, all by Green (well, WGWG was also by David Levithan), all in a row. Twelve days after finishing Looking for Alaska, I read The Fault in Our Stars. I had to wait that long not just because of the high demand of that book, but because Looking for Alaska had just about killed me. (I cried so much that it aggravated my asthma, migraines, and Sjögren’s.) Luckily, he has only released those books because I do not think that my body could have taken any more of an emotional beating. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a great writer. It’s just that his stories have a tendency to bring about emotional exhaustion.

There were a lot of other books that I read that were very dramatic. One example is Me Before You by Jojo Moyes. I think Moyes might be a British version of John Green, except her books aren’t for the young adult genre. And pretty much anything written by Gayle Forman both amazed me and made me cry like a baby from all the feels it gave me.

There were quite a few books that were funny. The book Let’s Pretend this Never Happened by Jenny Lawson aka The Bloggess was one of the funniest books I have ever read. I had to be careful while reading it at night to not wake up my sleeping family members. After reading the emotional books of Green and Moyes and everyone else like that, this memoir was able to help me feel a bit more light-hearted.

There were also some that were extremely bad, and one of those was written by a former favorite author of mine within a former favorite series of mine. Yes, I’m talking about Dead Ever After. The only thing I can thank Charlaine Harris for about that book is that my review of it got liked by a hell of a lot of people on So, thank you, Ms. Harris, for fucking up and an entire series with seal sex and giving me a chance to become internet famous. Oddly, though, her fuck up wasn’t the worst book that I read this year. That would definitely have to go to Honor Student  or its follow-up Honor Thy Teacher by Teresa Mummert. That one was just…wow.

I joined some new fandoms thanks to some series this past year: Vampire Academy, VA’s spinoff Bloodlines, and Pretty Little Liars (though I enjoy the TV series a hell of a lot more than the book series) to name a few. Actually, I probably joined the fandom for The Mortal Instruments, even though I’m probably more in the part of it that just sits by the sideline munching on popcorn and waiting for people to realize they’re being ripped off. (Seriously, read Harry Potter and watch Buffy and you’ll figure out that this great and magical world you believe in is the product of someone else’s mind.)

Speaking of stuff that came from the mind of other people, I read a lot of former fanfiction. Some of it (Gabriel’s Inferno) was better than others (A Million Dirty Secrets). In the case of that last work, I have to wonder why it was ever pulled-to-publish. It couldn’t have been a very good piece of fanwork if it turned out to be as bad as it was, after having professional editing done.

There were certain tropes and other things that I learned really piss me off. The biggest one was that almost any time that there was a bisexual character, that character would be one who would screw just about anyone. That’s not how bisexuality works. Just because a person likes male and female parts doesn’t mean that they want to be in relationships with both at the same time, nor does it mean they would do it behind the backs of the people they’re involved with. Continuing to do story after story where that’s the case just encourages people to think that that is how bisexuality works. I doubt that most bisexuals are philanderers. Now, there may be a few who are polyamorous, but being polyamorous doesn’t mean that they would intentionally lie to both people that they are dating. (Being polyamorous also doesn’t mean that one is a cheater.)

Another thing that bugged me was there was a line that I saw in a lot of romance novels. The line? “Curves in all the right places.” Now that might not bug most people, but for me, it always triggered the thought, “Well, where else would they be? Boobs are going to be on the chest, not a person’s knee, so of course they’re in the right place.” Basically, it made me wonder if people expect other people to look deformed or think that people who don’t fit their ideal are deformed. It played into this tendency of most of the stories to have a “slim” or “petite” girl and a “muscular” or an “extremely tall” guy. Must every girl look like a beauty queen? Must every guy look like Adonis? Must that be so important to the characters that they have to talk about it on every single page sometimes? It’s almost like a game of “How Shallow Can We Be” and I think that makes us all losers.

And, then, there was all the incestuous relationships that were a part of certain series, Mortal Instruments and Blue Bloods. Incest isn’t sexy. I’ve never understood the whole fascination that some people have with incestuous relationships, but shipping them and promoting them and all of that just really bugs me.

There were also some really cool things in books I read. I liked reading about characters who were in touch with their geekiness or their awkwardness. I liked that they weren’t necessarily ashamed of those things. I also loved to read about female characters who were kickass or who weren’t afraid to stand up for what was right. It was refreshing to have female characters who weren’t having to be rescued or who didn’t automatically stay with a guy who happened to be a stalking douche because of his stalking behavior or her being enamored with his supreme douchiness. Okay, I think I may have begun to digress.

Anyway, this has been what my year of reading was like. So, now I have questions that you don’t have to answer, but it would be cool if you did:

  • Did anyone else have a reading goal? How did you do?
  • Which books that you read this past year did you like the most? Which ones did you hate?
  • Are you planning on doing a reading challenge in 2014? What number would you set for yourself?
  • What books would you recommend for others to read? What books would you advise against?
  • What’s your favorite genre to read? What’s your least favorite?
  • Are there any authors that you’ve started to love? Are there any you’ve started to hate?
  • What tropes make you cringe? Which ones are your guilty pleasures?

A Soundtrack for My Life: 2012

I was thinking about how I spend so much time listening to music, but I never really talk about it on here. So I thought that maybe I could give a list of songs–a soundtrack, if you will–that I listened to, was obsessed with, or felt some kind of connection to over the past year. Maybe I can make this a New Year tradition.

“Everybody’s doing it, so why the hell should I?”

Track 01: Gin Wigmore – “Black Sheep”

It has been pointed out to me in the past that I’ve got a tendency towards being a contrarian. This song is one that I’ve listened to whenever I’ve been feeling stressed. It sort of empowers me and helps me remember that “fuck the world” attitude.

Track 02: Maroon 5 – “One More Night”

Honestly, this was a song that I used to block the world out. I could just turn it on and focus on the song. It helped me to calm down so many times that I lost count.

Track 03: P!nk – “Are We All We Are”

I didn’t realize that I enjoyed this song so much until I started going around singing the lyrics to myself. Admittedly, I sometimes do that with Bieber songs, but I wasn’t as ashamed to do it with this song.

Track 04: Amy Winehouse – “Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow”

This is probably the most under-appreciated song by her. The version on the soundtrack for Bridget Jones is the better version of it. It’s a slowed down version of a classic song by The Shirelles that I grew up listening to on the oldies/adult contemporary station that my parents always listened to.

Track 05: Garfunkel and Oates – “Pregnant Women are Smug”

Though most expectant mothers* are cool, there are always some who just irk you. So, whenever I would finish talking to one of those irksome ones, I would listen to this to make me laugh.  * = Chances are that if you had a baby in the past few years and I’m still talking to you on a regular basis, this doesn’t apply to you.

Track 06: The Wanted – “Glad You Came”

Okay, I’m almost 29 and I still like some boy band music. I should be more ashamed of that, but I’m not really. This song is just fun.

Track 07: Glee Cast – “Without You”

This is a cover of the song that was released by Usher and David Guetta. It’s slower and more ballad-like than the original. Since I’m a bit of a ballad connoisseur, this version was right up my alley.

Track 08: ZZ Ward – “Blue Eyes Blind”

I’m not really sure why I enjoy this particular song so much. It’s just a good song.

Track 09: Taylor Swift – “Ronan”

It was very difficult to narrow down which Swifty song I would put on this list. I loved just about all of the songs that came out this year, and I love most of her music anyway. I ended up picking this one over “Begin Again”, “We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together”, and “All Too Well” (some of my favorites from Red) because this song still manages to make me sob like crazy.

“Ronan” was the song that she did on the Stand Up 2 Cancer special and is about Ronan Thompson, the son of Maya, who blogs at Rockstar Ronan, and Woody Thompson. Maya blogged about Ronan through his fight with neuroblastoma (a childhood cancer that is common and  difficult to treat) and continues to blog about life without Ronan since his death in May of 2011. Taylor Swift was a reader of the blog and wrote this song about him and about the love for him that his family and countless others have.   (BTW – Downloading the song from iTunes benefits The Ronan Thompson Foundation, which is a foundation established to find a cure for neuroblastoma.)

Track 10: Melanie Martinez – “Too Close”

This is a cover by The Voice contestant Melanie Martinez of the Alex Clare song that’s featured in some commercial. It’s a stripped down version of the song, which gives the lyrics a lot more power. It’s very beautiful, and though I love the original version, this was my favorite of the two.

Track 11: Kesha – “Don’t Think Twice, It’s All Right”

This is not the kind of song that you would expect Kesha (aka Ke$ha) to sing. It’s a cover of a Bob Dylan song and was featured on the Bob Dylan tribute album, Chimes of Freedom: The Songs of Bob Dylan Honoring 50 Years of Amnesty International. It stays true to folk style that Bob Dylan has become an icon of. It is raw and emotional and it doesn’t sound a thing like the girl who likes to sing songs about glitter and brushing her teeth with Jack Daniels.

Track 12: Ellie Goulding – “Lights”

I listened to this song so many times on the trip between Nana’s house and Huntsville while the house was condemned. It was one of the songs that was played over and over by the radio station that my parents now listen to. It became one of those songs that sort of grew on me.

Track 13: Lindsey Pavao – “Say Aah”

I apparently like covers. I also like artists that have their own sound. Lindsey Pavao used this song to tried out for the second season of The Voice. Her version debuted at #80 on the Billboard Charts, making her the first person from that season to end up on the charts. She didn’t win, but she did manage to leave her own Lindsey-style mark on that season.

“I’m not going to listen to what the past says.”

Track 14: Lana Del Rey – “Diet Mountain Dew”

The singer that many a Tumblr user worships in some way, shape or form. Many like her more well-known songs. (You know, the ones she actually released as singles.) I think this is actually her best song, though. It’s got just enough of an earworm quality that it is hard to get out of your head, yet it is high enough quality that you don’t really want it to get out of your head.

Track 15: Mackenzie Bourg – “Call Me Maybe”

So this song was kind of a big deal for Carly Rae Jepsen, but I don’t like her version so much. (It goes back to the whole contrarian thing.) Mackenzie took this huge hit and covered it on, you guessed it, The Voice. His version involved a bit more acoustic guitar and a bit less of the bubblegum-style. It actually made me appreciate the original song, which is quite an amazing feat.

Um, if anyone else wants to do this and wants me to link to their post, feel free to leave a comment here or just link back to this entry. (I should be able to use the trackback to find it.)

A Year In Review: 2012

1.What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before? 
I got to live through having my house condemned. I lived in a city other than Huntsville for longer than a month–around five months. I’ve had to live without having a fur-baby of some type. I had iron infusions. I was officially creeped out by several relatives. I didn’t get to celebrate Thanksgiving. I acknowledged a long-held secret, but managed to do it in a quite secretive way. (Vague enough for you?)

2.Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? 
Generally speaking, I don’t make resolutions.

3.Did anyone close to you give birth?
Physically close? No. Emotionally close? Yes. Several people that I was very close to as a child had children. Then, of course, there was teh interwebz baby boom of 2012.

4.Did anyone close to you die?
Yes, Xander. My sweet, little baby. I miss him every single day.

5.What countries did you visit?
None. I’ve never left this country. I guess you could say that I lived in redneck country for a while. That would be true. I was in an area of the world where around 98% of the people (seriously) are white, and some of those people tend to complain about how the other folks are taking their jobs and houses away. (Oh, it was also a first to actually be in an area where there were so few non-white people.)

6.What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
Iron. Money would be nice, too. And less drama and depression.

7.What date from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Just one day? I don’t know if I should go for Easter, when Xander died. The next week, when our house was condemned. Two days after that, when my mom went in the hospital for two weeks and nearly died from kidney failure. May when my parents had to officially sign the dogs over to the city. Three days later when we were told we couldn’t see them again. That day in July when I fell in the park because I got bitten by fire ants and then found out that I had developed an allergy to said fire ants. The next day when I started my first round of iron infusions and then had to check my dad into the hospital because he was suicidal, before going back to Nana’s and finding out that my aunt thought my dad was faking his depression, my mom was faking her kidney problems, and that I’m, as always, evil. The day that I had to go to a cancer center and found out that my family doctors had fucked up royally when it came to my anemia, then I came home and all some of my relatives cared about was that Obama was (in their minds) an evil Muslim out to turn everyone into a socialist and do all that anti-Jesus hippie-esque stuff. Or Election Day, when I got called crazy by a friend because I said she didn’t understand what racism was. I think I know which day I’ll go with. Today, because it is the end of this godforsaken year.

8.What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Not killing myself (or anyone else) or cutting or wrist-banging. Oh, and I haven’t said “fuck you” to any city attorneys this year, so that’s a plus. Oh, and I finished my 2012 Goodreads Reading Challenge for the first time.

9.What was your biggest failure?
I still can’t stand up for myself in most non-internet, non-court situations.

10.Did you suffer illness or injury?
Aside from the anemia, depression, and the anaphylaxis? Yeah, I’ve had headaches, but most have gotten better with BOTOX. (Whodathunk that poison could do some good?) I’ve had anxiety, but that’s nothing new. And I’ve had the bumps and bruises that come with my clumsiness.

11.What was the best thing you bought?

12.Whose behavior merited celebration?
Dad–even though he’s been so angry since we moved back into the house, he’s worked so hard this year.

13.Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Aunt Barbara, Deb, and Billy – Stalking? Disturbing and twisted. Setting someone up to get picked on via a Facebook post? How juvenile. Giving a twenty-eight year old a hard time for a Facebook picture with a Hello Kitty toy when you, as a sixty year old, have hundreds of Beanie Babies? Lame.

Also, Aunt Judy. Holding me responsible for something that you think happened (but didn’t) when I was twelve now that I’m twenty-eight? Unbelievable.

14.Where did most of your money go?
Paying off credit cards and getting groceries.

15.What events did you get really, really, really excited about?
Every day while the dogs were at the shelter, I got excited to see them. I also got excited when my mom got out of the hospital. I think the most excited I got, though, was when I found out that our house was no longer condemned.

16.What song will always remind you of 2012?
“We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together” by Taylor Swift

17.Compared to this time last year, are you:
i.happier or sadder? Sadder
ii.thinner or fatter? thinner, oddly
iii.richer or poorer? poorer

18.What do you wish you’d done more of?

19.What do you wish you’d done less of?

20.How will you be spending Christmas? 
I spent Christmas sleeping and watching Doctor Who with a headache.

21.Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
Nana, probably. Or one of my parents. I never talk to anyone on the phone. (Phone fear.)

22.Did you fall in love in 2012?

23. How many one-night stands?

24. What was your favorite TV program?
True Blood and Glee.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Ha ha.

seriously, though26. What was the best book you read?
The best book that I read was either The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Hate List, or Katherine (a historical romance novel about the relationship between my 19th great-grandfather and 19th great-grandmother)

27. What was your greatest musical discovery or rediscovery?
Gin Wigmore.

28. What did you want and get?
My mom to live.

29. What did you want and not get?
Alice, Gretchen, Molly, and Willow. Also, Xander to be okay.

30. What were your favorite films of this year?
I didn’t go to the theater this year.

31.What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I probably slept. I turned 28. As you get older, you have to sleep more. 😉

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
BOTOX and having a purple bedroom.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Pajamas. I rarely get dressed anymore.

34. What kept you sane?
Um, who said I was sane?

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most/least?
Least would probably be Mitt Romney or Paul Ryan or John Boehner.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The Election in general.

37. Whom did you miss?
My babies.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
I tweeted more with some internet folks (Kelsey, Erin, Nancy, and several others), but no one off-line. Oh, except my hematologist. He’s pretty cool. Oh, and the middle school principals that saw me faint at the park, came over and tried to cool me off, helped my parents keep me on the ground, and called 911. Those were definitely the best.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012:
There are some people you just don’t need in your life.

40. Do you have any lost feelings of others.

41.Quote a song that sums up your year:
“So as I write this letter and shed my last tear. It’s all for the better that we end this here. Let’s close this chapter. Say one last prayer, but don’t say that you loved me.”

Holiday Wishlist Meme 2012

This is a meme that I participate in every year on LiveJournal. Even if you get nothing, it’s still a fun meme because it allows us to be kids again and make Christmas lists. Let’s face it, that kind of dreaming and hope is fun. So here’s my wishlist this year. If you want to make one, leave me a link and I’ll post it here.

Make a post (public, friends-locked, filtered… whatever you’re comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related (“I’d love a Snape/Hermione icon that’s just for me”) to medium (“I wish for _____ on DVD”) to really big (“All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV”). The important thing is to make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it’s your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) can get in touch with you. Your home address is not required!

Make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ so that the holiday joy will spread.

Surf around your friends list (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here’s the important part…

If you see a wish you can grant, and it’s in your heart to do so, make someone’s wish come true. Sometimes one person’s trash is another’s treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don’t want or a gift certificate you won’t use – or even know where you could get someone’s dream purebred Basset Hound for free – do it.
You needn’t spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn’t to put people out, it’s to provide everyone a chance to be someone else’s holiday elf – to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not – it’s your call. There are no guarantees with this project, and no strings attached. Just… wish, and it might come true. Give and you might receive. You’ll have the joy of knowing you made someone’s holiday special.



  1. An iTunes digital playlist would be cool to receive or a gift card for iTunes. Music is one of the few things that helps me relax and feel safe anymore.
  2. Books – I love to read, and I will read just about any genre out there.
  3. Other gift cards that would be cool to have are for Starbucks and Rave Motion Pictures. I haven’t been to a movie in the theater or had anything from Starbucks in several years.
  4. wishlist – I know that there’s a lot of stuff on there, and I’ve been meaning to go back through and remove some of the stuff.
  5. Things to decorate my room. My family basically had our home condemned for about 4.5 months this year, and a lot of our stuff was tossed. Before that happened, I had the same posters up in my room that I’d had since I was 16 years old. Now, my room is deep purple, but there’s nothing besides paint on the walls and shelves are kind of empty, so I’d like to change that so that it seems more home-y.
  6. Home repairs – Kitchen appliances, specifically an oven/stove and a dishwasher. Our oven can’t be fixed and we can’t afford to get a new one. The stove-top works fine, but the oven itself is shot. The dishwasher is also unable to be fixed.In April of 2011, our roof got a bit damaged by all the storms that happened on the 27th. We went to the insurance company to get help with the roof and they gave us money for it, which wasn’t enough and ended up getting used to fix the house when it was condemned. Anyway, our insurance policy ended up being canceled because our house wasn’t valuable enough to the insurance company to continue the policy. The only way we can get new insurance is to get a new roof.
  7. Some fuzzy pink slippers. I have had the .com domain for fuzzypinkslippers for almost 12 years and I used to have actual fuzzy pink slippers that I could wear around the house. They got tossed, too. So, I would like some of those.
  8. Blu-Rays or DVDs – Another tool to escape my life.
  9. Peace of mind or hope or prayers or something like that – This last year has sucked and I would just liked for things to be easier or more peaceful for a while. I would like to know that my dogs are okay with their new owners. I would like to know what’s been causing my anemia. I just want to feel good or happy or safe or something nice.
  10. A teddy bear or some stuffed animal. I love plush toys and, as far as I’ve been able to tell, my childhood teddy bear got tossed by a well-meaning person who helped us after the house got condemned.