I hate asking for help…

theecrohniegrace:

I have to find 1100 dollars for a procedure on the 15th and its 1100 for just numbing and Valium for the procedure, it’s 3300 if they put me to sleep and because my OBGYN is a bitch and said she didn’t think it was a necessary procedure… If anyone could help out it would mean a lot. Basically I have an abnormal pregnancy possibly molar or Choriocarcinoma but we won’t know til they remove the tissue and test it. But my OBGYN is a pro life bitch and says she thinks all my other doctors are wrong and that there’s nothing wrong with my uterus despite there being a giant mass in it which doctors confirmed doesn’t look like a fetus.

My gofundme is http://ift.tt/1XoxjJC

I would offer my PayPal but I was robbed a while back and my bank card was taken and I had to cancel it and get a new one and it hasn’t come in yet.

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Rage, Rage Against the Dying of the Likes

I get this feeling that people think I’m super angry or rage-y. I argue a lot on social media, but most of the time I’m laughing as it happens. It allows me to talk about issues I care about in a way that’s1 easier for me. It also gives me a chance to refresh my memory on those issues, which is also fun. I used to feel more agitated when I did it & would trigger migraines, blood pressure, and other issues. Now? I try to walk away or center myself long before that. But I probably still come across as Miss Super Bitchy Pants. 

Tonight one of my dad’s friends told me I was full of anger and contempt. He said he’d wanted to contribute $50 to the GoFundMe account, but my anger changed his mind. After he blocked me on Facebook, I found out he donated $25, which meant I couldn’t really thank him. So, dude who is friends with my dad, if you see this, thank you so much. I do appreciate it a lot. And I will try to be a shinier, happier version of myself. Sometimes. When it’s appropriate. Maybe. 

But right now I can say I’m definitely not angry or feeling contempt toward anyone.


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Aleve-iate Your Pain (Or Maybe Not)

I saw the family doctor today about the ongoing knee pain.

The family doctor thinks it is a tendon1 or, more likely, a group of tendons in the back of my knee that are inflamed. She wanted to either put me on a round of steroids or send me to the orthopedist for a cortisone shot. 

Her attending told her to do a round of NSAIDs first, despite having NSAIDs listed as drugs I cannot take.  ((He told her that if they sent me to the orthopedist now that the orthopedist would do two rounds of NSAIDs before doing a shot. And they didn’t want to do the shot too soon–8 weeks of sharp pain in my knee doesn’t exactly seem like it’s all that short of a time period.)) They felt that the 80mg of Protonix2 could keep the ulcers from forming. So she wrote it for prescription strength Naprosyn two times a day for three weeks. My extra-reflux-y,3 post-gastric-bypass stomach & the brain that controls it decided that prescription would not be getting filled.4 I definitely did not want to risk an ulcer.5 She said they might send me to the orthopedist in 3 weeks6 if the pain was still going on. 

Anyway, I came home and was a bit disappointed because I knew that I couldn’t take the espresso-esque dose of Aleve and that that meant the pain would continue for the next 3 weeks. I realized that it could even get worse. And then the realization that I’d have to wait another few weeks for an appointment and that might mean an even longer wait for treatment. I started breaking down and sobbing. I couldn’t see an end in sight and I think my crying worried my mom. We decided I should skip the wait & call the orthopedist.7 I have an appointment for the 14th. Two weeks instead of three somehow leaves me feeling more optimistic. 

phyllis giving financial advice Once I was back into the less-overwhelmed-by-pain mode, my dad told me about Aunt Phyllis’s response to my GoFundMe page to help with my overdraft/unexpected bill issue. I think she meant to be helpful, but her advice really was, well, unhelpful. Missing one payment of most of the bills would just lead to badness. I saw my parents do the “just one month”/deferral thing. Debt stacked up. Debt collectors harassed us regularly. The reason I own the house we live in is that their bill situation got so bad that they could have lost the house. My debt isn’t that bad.

If I skipped a payment, it might get much worse and I don’t want it to get any worse. Besides I have a “don’t take financial, moral, or legal advice from the Morris family” rule. Their solutions can range from bad to sociopathic. I really don’t want to follow in those footsteps. So I may overdraft again this month, but I’ll get caught up soon & figure out a way to pay for what I need and save a little money as I do. 
Oh well. I need to start working on the grocery list since tomorrow is Wednesday.


  1. She also mentioned that I would need to avoid fluoroquinolones–Cipro, Levaquin–because of the risk of tendon rupture. I told her I couldn’t take those because of the neuropathy issue, so I wasn’t really worried about encountering that issue with them. 

  2. A dose that requires maximum doses of maximum strength Gaviscon to back it up. 

  3. Thanks, Dad! 

  4. Even the pharmacist knew I wouldn’t be taking it. When the scrip got to her, she called my house and said she would not fill a medicine we all know I cannot take without endangering my life. 

  5. Especially not after reading about everything that Jenn has gone through with her ulcers. And, no, that doesn’t mean I wanted one before. I’ve also seen the pain they’ve caused my dad. I don’t want to experience that, even if it would mean less pain in my knee. 

  6. My recheck was scheduled for September 21. 

  7. The family doctor said I didn’t actually need a referral because I’ve seen an orthopedist that specializes in knees on another referral recently. 

Help with unexpected bills

Click here to support Help with unexpected bills by Janet Morris:

I’m on disability, which sometimes doesn’t provide me with enough to pay for all of my monthly expenses. This past month was one of those times. I overdrafted my account by $500, which means that when my disability check comes, I will have about $200 to make it through September on. That won’t be enough. I’ve cut out as many expenses as possible for next month, but I will still be at least $200 short. If I overdraft next month, this issue will continue into October, which could continue into November, and so on. I’d just like to get this taken care of so that I can not have this stress hanging over me.

$400 would ensure that I could avoid any overdrafts next month and that I could put whatever is left into a savings account so that I can prevent this sort of thing from happening in the future.

I wouldn’t ask for help if I didn’t need it, but I really do need the help.

Any amount will be greatly appreciated.

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Even if you just pass the link on to someone else, it will be helpful.