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The Life of a Dutz

27
January

When I was about fifteen or sixteen, I was on AOL telling Ana, my online BFF at the time, that I had just broken my foot or sprained my ankle. I went on to tell her how, especially for the three years prior to that, I had a tendency to be really clumsy. I told her of the seventh grade sprained ankle spree. I think I even told her about how I had gotten so clumsy in eighth grade that I was kept out of my P.E. class and had to gain credits that year by aiding for a special ed P.E. class in the elementary school attached to my middle school.

After expounding on my clumsy behavior and exhibiting a tendency towards the ditzy side, Ana proclaimed me the Dutz or Dutzy. The nickname kind of stuck with some folks online and with quite a few off. (Ana was also the person who gave me the nickname of Janers.) I even named my website “The Dutz Land” back when I received the nickname, so in 1999/2000.

Anyway, what I’m getting at, is that bumping into things, falling down, getting burns, etc. is just a part of who I am. We used to have an armchair in our house that had been in the same spot since before my parents and I moved in with Dadada. From the time I was quite young, I would always manage to catch my smallest toe on one side or the other (depending on which I side I was walking past). Also, I’ve been coming to this house (the one I live in and own) since I was a baby and I have consistently bumped into the corner where the living room & hallway meet. I bump into doors, shut my hands in car doors, step in holes that I know exist, trip over my toes (or jeans if I’m wearing long ones), fall out of chairs/off beds or couches, kick things while I sleep, bang my head into desks (while sleeping), etc. In third grade, I even almost got frostbite because I ended up stepping through a sheet of ice in a storm drain and my foot got soaked and, subsequently, very blue and cold as I tried to get help in getting back home.

So, when I mention that I burned my finger or have a paper cut or anything like that, it might seem like a bad thing, but it’s something that I have grown quite accustomed to. Honestly, if I got through a week without getting burned, cut, bruised, banged up, or falling, I think I might have a panic attack. It’s just something that I think of as being part of my life and something that will probably always be a part of my life (given the clumsiness of my family in general and my hand-to-eye coordination issues as a kid). But I do appreciate the concern when things like that happen.

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Nerves set afire

2
August

Have you ever felt REALLY nervous when you’re about to start to a new school? Well, this is worse than any nervous experience in my whole life…that I can think of. All of my friends keep asking me if I’m excited about going to college, my answer is:

NO!!!!!!!

I’m not excited. I’m nervous! VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY nervous! Not that I’ll fail (well, not very nervous). Not that I’ll be late for classes. I’m nervous about seeing all those people. I mean, there are 8,000 people who go to the 3 campuses of Calhoun. I really don’t want to embarrass myself in front of a fraction of those people.

*sigh*

I also keep telling them that sometimes I wonder if I’m ready for this. Then, they ask if I think I made the wrong decision when I dropped out. I KNOW that I made the right decision. I mean, I feel it in my heart. I know that I couldn’t have stayed one more second. High school was not for me. But there are so many things that I wish I could’ve experienced:

More pep rallies
2 Junior/Senior Proms (I quit a few months before the first one I’d have gone to)
The ability to be nominated for homecoming court (If Coach Val had written down MY name instead of Megan’s, I would’ve been on the nominations list…and it wasn’t that I didn’t get the votes of my homeroom. They voted for Leigh and me, but Coach Val LOVED Megan…:oP)
Senior Skip Day
Graduation
Saying goodbye to all my friends

I’m never going to get those things…I mean, yeah, I’ll graduate and I’ll have the chance to say goodbye to my friends before they go to college, but I won’t get 175 more days to say how much they mean to me. I won’t get all those little things that you don’t realize how much you love until they’re gone.

I have got to quit talking about this stuff, because I’m going to start crying. :*( I cry really easily.

You know, over the past few weeks, people have really only gotten to see the annoyed me. Well, from here on out, I’m going to try to focus more on me and my friends–online and off. :)

Oh, my mom has decided yet AGAIN that I can have a DIFFERENT time to take classes and this time, I’ll get them in Decatur. :o P She doesn’t want me to have to stay at school alone for two hours because she’ll have to drop me off at 2 so she can go to work…So, now I may have to go to school at 8 in the morning. That really doesn’t thrill me, because it’s about an hour from my house to the campus. NO FUN!!!!!

Aw…Xan looks so depressed. I don’t know if he’s really sad or if he just wants attention. (He is SOOOO good at manipulation.)

*yawn*

I slept for a little while longer this more after I took X-boy for his walk.

My butt hurts. I know, you didn’t need to know that, but…who cares? It’s my diary…it’s my butt, it hurts…I share. So…:oP

NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I now have “Born to Make You Happy” by Pinky Spears in my head thanks to some stupid tv commercial.

Oh, that reminds me…I updated my AOL profile. It still looks stupid, but it’s mine so that makes sense. :) If you have AOL, just go to get a member profile and type in Jadimo. You’ll see my dorkiness.

Well, I guess I get to go check my faves. I want to thank those of you who’ve left nice notes over the past few weeks, because I don’t feel like I ever thank you guys enough. Nice notes really do touch my heart. :)

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