Alabama


In just a few hours, I get to find out if my months of physical therapy are actually coming to an end. They should be, but the way that Brant talked on Tuesday makes me think it might not be.  If it is: I am planning on going to the Wellness Center to sign up to continue my rehabilitation on my own.1 If it isn’t: No trip to the Wellness Center will take place. I will come home as usual and continue my appointments. I will try not to be too cocky about the possibility that it may happen, but I will also try not to be disappointed if it doesn’t.2 I mentioned the possibility of changing family practice physicians the other night. It looks like that won’t be happening. The billing folks at UAB have written off the appointments. Apparently, they were all assigned to an attending who only briefly worked there. He never became certified with our insurance company. They seemed to be as frustrated with anything related to him3 as we were. So, yay, no new doctors!4 Anyway, I guess that’s all for now—except that I should point out how fucking awful Nazis/Neo-Nazis are. If you follow me on Twitter, you’ve probably seen my “conversation” with a self-proclaimed Nazi5 lately. They aren’t just bigots, they are assholes. No, wait. Assholes have the potential for good feelings. Nazis are the feeling lactose intolerant individuals get when they’ve just consumed massive amounts of ice cream, cheese, milk, etc.6 They. Are. Awful. And this guy is no different. They’re also incredibly boring, as there is only so much they can actually manage to say.7 And they piss. me. off.8 And I keep wanting to walk away from the arguments, but that ignoramus says something even more grotesque and my brain just goes into “must tell him he’s a racist jerk” mode. I should just walk away and maybe I will this time or the next. Just curious, but how would you interpret this picture?910       Oh well. I better go twiddle my thumbs11 for a while until it’s time for therapy.  My insurance plan covers a membership at the Center. ↩I am fairly certain that it will happen. ↩Re: He caused more problems than he solved. ↩I think I hear Handel’s “Messiah” playing in the distance. ↩This is where he’d go “@janersm *National Socialist.” But fuck it, he’s a fucking Nazi. If he doesn’t like being called such, he can stop being a fucking Nazi. ↩If you aren’t lactose intolerant, imagine the worst attack of nausea, fatigue, wooziness/dizziness, headaches, gas and either constipation or diarrhea you’ve ever had. Now multiply all of that by about 100. Voilà! ↩Blah, blah, blah. Jewish conspiracy. Blah, blah, blah. Lies. Blah, blah, blah. White is right. Blah, blah, blah. Holocaust? What Holocaust? Blah, blah, blah. I’m a pathetically ignorant shitbag, but I’ll never admit that. Blah, blah, fucking blah. ↩Considering how much time I’ve spent trying to learn about why & how the Holocaust and other bigotry has happened, this should come as no surprise. ↩@Bobasnotdead is the Nazi you’ve been looking for. ↩^ See what I did there. ↩Sleep. ↩

Hours Feel Like Days


Where’s Buffy the Vampire Yeti Slayer when you need her?  Actually, I love snow…in theory. In reality, snow is cold and I’m Southern. I like snow, but I haven’t really forgiven snow for the near-frostbite of 1993.  My friend and classmate Lindsay invited me to her house that Sunday. On the way to her house I fell and hit my butt on the ice-covered sidewalk.  I continued to her house, which is ten houses from me. I got there & we played in the yard. Her backyard neighbor invited us to play with her. Instead of going across the sidewalk, we walked across the ice-covered ditch. The ice was thin, I was not. My foot went through the ice and the water entered my sneakers & multiple pairs of socks. We continued to play. I started having trouble walking and my feet hurt. Then they didn’t hurt, but walking got harder. I finally convinced Lindsay something was wrong. Her mom had me sit in their garage for a little while to warm myself. Then she drove me home from their house—the only time that ever happened in our friendship. She told me to take a lukewarm shower, NOT a hot one,1 and take some Tylenol.  Also, I’m a little annoyed over the week in 1996 we got iced in at Nana’s when Granddaddy died.23 Nana, Mom, Dad, Aunt Barbara, Uncle Danny, Eric, and I were “stuck together” in the same house for a week, with enough clothes and medicine for two days. Mom & Dad had to come back to Huntsville, at one point, to feed Blizzard,4 Snowflake,5 & Tom,67 who were at home by themselves, and to get some clothes, medicine, etc.8 It was an odd week, but we had plenty of food9 and were able to get along pretty well.10  Maybe I’m annoyed with ice, not snow. It’s all cold and wet, though. They go together, so…I’ll blame it on the snow. But snow does go well with my gingerness.11   And snow itself is very pretty, which I like. It also seems to make the neighborhood quieter, which I also like.  Anyway, it’s cold and I’m conflicted on how on how I feel about the coldness.  Oh, a progress note on my knee, I tried on a pair of my “high”12 heeled  shoes. That sounds like an odd and random thing to mention, right? It was my first time wearing heels at all since before the surgery. I walked in them for a few minutes. I nearly fell a few times, too.13  But I didn’t actually fall.  Go me.  Mom and I argued a bit about the height of the shoes. They were three inches tall, which is like 7 or 8 inches to her.  I was a little flabbergasted at her “they’re just so high” angst. They’re only slightly higher than I am supposed to wear.14 But she’s my mom and she is supposed to freak out over that sort of thing. Even if I am almost 32.15 Anyway, my knee did fine with the shoes, so that was good. That’s so important to know, FYI, because you can burn yourself easily if you have frostbite. ↩He had died at the hospital the day before. He was not dead in the house with us. ↩We were all at her house because his visitation was February 1st and his funeral was scheduled for the 2nd. It ended up being the 7th, which was the day after what could have been his 77th birthday. ↩Black female cat. ↩Black female cat. ↩Siamese female cat named by a two year old. ↩If you are wanting to mock said two year old, remember how adorable that toddler could be. Basically:   ↩Etc. being code for pads because that was also the week my second period ever decided to start. ↩People had brought a lot of food over because people do that when someone dies. ↩This was before I broke my family apart with my blog. ↩I like how I look when I’m out in snow better than I do in most other weather. ↩3 inches are not that high, comparatively speaking. ↩It’s amazing how quickly one can lose the ability to walk in heels. ↩Two inches is max when you have joint issues. It’s supposed to be the max for everyone. ↩Less than a month. ↩

Welcome to Snowpocalypse 2016



If you considering seven years a long time, then I’ve been using Twitter for a long time. Even if you don’t, that’s longer than most people have been on the site. It’s probably longer than the user @AdmForrestal has been using it, but he’s brought the weirdness in a major way. I would applaud his weirdness or laugh at it if it wasn’t so ridiculous and, to some degree, frightening. This racist human being1 has decided that I defend the opinions that I have so vehemently because I’m working for someone. That’s right. I have a particular opinion because I’m a shill for some company or government agency. Yes, just what any contrarian would do with their life: conform to a particular idea to make money. Because contrarians are all about the Benjamins and not about the whole thinking-for-themselves thing. Uh-huh. But really this guy claimed I’m a shill. @janersm You clearly have been told to ind this post on the internet and make shit up who do you work for? — JamesForrestal (@AdmForrestal) November 9, 2015 And why did he do this? Because he’s nuts. No, I shouldn’t say that, especially since I would chide anyone else who promoted stigma when they were encountering someone who behaved in a difficult manner. His reason was that he believed that I lied about my experiences in hospital emergency rooms. He said that patients don’t get visitors until they’ve been stabilized. That’s not always true. One of my examples of that not being true was back in July of 2012 when a mound of fire ants decided to make me their bitch. I was at the park with my mom and my dad waiting between doctor appointments. We sat under a shady tree because it was hot as hell outside and we happened to sit next to a fire ant mound. We didn’t know that my predisposed-to-atopy2 body had decided that fire ants were just so out of style and that it wanted nothing more to do with them, so it just had to respond with anaphylaxis. Clearly, no other reaction would have been appropriate for that situation. My parents, as witnesses to my fall and the first people that I mentioned the ant bites to,3 were essential to my care that day and to keeping me alive. They were the ones who told the doctors about my medical history. And they were the ones who eventually told the doctors about the ant bites. Before that happened, they thought that my fall and my two fainting spells were a result of the heat4. But the fainting, the hospital visit, and everything associated with that day was all clearly a part of a conspiracy to upset @AdmForrestal. When I mentioned before I “fainted” that we were hanging out at the Park, I was clearly just setting up this ruse. Dad decided we could spend some time under a tree at the park; so did the birds http://t.co/ujNyLHij — Janet Morris (@janersm) July 24, 2012 The geese in the picture included with that tweet were clearly provided by PETA and were part of a liberal media conspiracy to upset this one random Twitter user over three years later. The original caption for that faked picture was “More lazy geese”, which, again, was all part of my clearly faked fall. No one in their right mind would ever insult geese by calling them lazy.5 My first tweet from the ER? Clearly, it was also a big old hoax. I know absolutely nothing about having anaphylaxis. Took 7 or so sticks to get IV started. Pulse being monitored. It was 139 at the park. — Janet Morris (@janersm) July 24, 2012 Obviously, I’ve never ever talked about being a hard stick over the last almost 15 years of having this website. And I’ve never mentioned that I have tachycardia. Those were all totally new occurrences and haven’t happened since. Except on that one day. That’s how you can totally tell that I’m a shill. Because that isn’t an ongoing issue for me. @janersm Idiot, the shock of hives and vomiting is not life threatening after stabilization them bringing them into a room after that haps — JamesForrestal (@AdmForrestal) November 9, 2015 If I did know anything about anaphylaxis, I would have vomited instead of just fainting, having my heart rate go up, developing hives, and being extremely dizzy. And my life wouldn’t have been in danger even when my parents were in the room with me. And when I mentioned that I hadn’t been tweeting during the rest of my visit? Clearly, that was me covering my ass. I must have needed some time to come up with the whole story. I wanted to update when I got discharged but my phone was completely dead, so it's been charging for a few hours. — Janet Morris (@janersm) July 25, 2012 When I talked that night about how hard my father took the trip, I was obviously continuing the hoax. When he had to be hospitalized the next day for stress that included that ER visit, I was also continuing the ruse on this poor Twitter user that I wouldn’t talk to for another three years. Other than that, I'm itchy, sore, have a headache, and have been trying to reassure my dad that it isn't his fault this happened. — Janet Morris (@janersm) July 25, 2012 When I talked about the people who helped me after I fainted, I must have been making that up, too. Oh, and when I fell the principals of Ed White & Hampton Cove did the first aid while Dad called 911. They also helped keep me from — Janet Morris (@janersm) July 25, 2012 getting up. I was stubborn enough that I kept thinking I was okay to get up. The four of them managed to keep me still. — Janet Morris (@janersm) July 25, 2012 I mentioned two random schools in Huntsville in my shout-out for shits and giggles. […]

A Conspiracy of Ants


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After getting the notice that UAB was closing their OB/GYN office in Huntsville, I sent a request for a first available appointment for an annual exam. You know, the exam that I was I could schedule in October…when they cancelled my birth control consultation without informing me and told me that I could either pay them $90 that I didn’t have if I wanted to get my birth control that day or schedule an appointment for an annual in October and get it then. Obviously, I should have fucked up my finances even more and paid for the $90 appointment because I got this response to my request: Unfortunately we are no longer scheduling annuals due to the closure of our office next month. Your last one was 10/14/15 so you can have one at any time. I show you have Human insurance and MC. You should contact Human for a list of preferred providers. Once you find a new Dr you will need to sign a release form for your records. Feel free to call if you have any questions Needless to say, I was not amused. It wouldn’t be a stretch to say that I was pretty pissed off, so I fired off this response: I understand your office is closing, but this appointment is important and time-sensitive. I went off the Depo, then was rudely told my birth control consultation appointment was cancelled when I arrived for said appointment, and was told that day that I would need to wait until my annual exam at your office to get the birth control prescription. Now you’re refusing to schedule the exam? This birth control prescription is to keep my anemia in check and prevent me from having to undergo infusions. I’ve already had some bleeding because it has been so long since I had my last Depo. And I’ve already started having early signs of the anemia popping up. If I am even able to find a local doctor that takes the Humana & the Medicaid, it will probably be 2 months for me to get in, so I would appreciate you making an exception in this case…especially since part of this predicament is on you guys in the first place. Yes, it’s manipulative. Yes, it’s abrasive. Yes, all of that was necessary. The reality of their office closing on short notice is that it’s putting lives in danger. I know that they still have pregnant patients that they need to see, but they also have cases like mine where birth control is a life-saving medication and they have people who may have diagnoses of cancer delayed by months because they had to transfer their care to another doctor. I am so sick of doctors and their employees acting like routine appointments are unimportant. They may not seem to be important to some patients, but they are actually very important for others.1 And it will take a while to find a doctor who takes my insurances. It always does. Right now, I can’t even get the physician finder on Humana’s website to work. Once it starts to work, I can’t even guarantee that who they list will even taken the insurance.2 What am I supposed to do? Am I supposed to let my health get worse? Am I supposed to just pretend like all of this bullshit, douchenuggetry, and dumbfuckery is acceptable? Fuck that. This is my life that they are messing with and they don’t have a right to jeopardize it. I shouldn’t have to sit here and wonder if I’m actually going to get medicine that I need in time to avoid infusions. I shouldn’t have to worry that lately I’ve been cold on hot days and that I’ve been paler than usual. But this is what I have to worry about when medical offices and insurance companies decide to make arbitrary decisions that endanger my life. I know that neither the office nor the insurance company are intending to harm patients by making these decisions, but that is what is happening/can happen when they cut off proper healthcare. Actually, they’re very important for all of them. ↩Humana has a tendency to list people who don’t accept their plans and not list ones who do. ↩

I Need That Appointment



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Guess who’s back…back again? If you said the Backstreet Boys, you are wrong in so many ways. If you said Dale Jackson, then obviously you’ve been reading my tweets for the past few hours. The man that I have had either blocked or muted for years has once again deemed it necessary to bother me.1 Apparently, people can’t post links to petitions about voter suppression without earning an annoying tweet from the awful and annoying Mr. Jackson. That'll be a very short investigation called for by very stupid people. #alpolitics https://t.co/Vk7ePWzS5h — Dale Jackson (@TheDaleJackson) October 5, 2015 The “conversation” quickly devolved into him calling me stupid2 and wanting me to prove that he’s a racist. 3 I’m pretty sure that his racism could be inferred by anyone who read his tweets or listened to his talk show. I don’t. I try to pretend like the man doesn’t exist. His talk show makes my anxiety levels go up because it seems like he’s constantly yelling. Despite what some people think, anger and rage are not my cup of tea. Anyway, Dale and his followers4 seem to think that voter suppression will not happen as a result of Alabama closing 31 of its driver license offices, leaving only 28, because most people get their licenses using other methods. Well, that’s nice, but it’s still possible and any possible injustice is something that people should be alarmed by.5 They, including Dale,6789 also thought that it was super easy1011 to get a free photo voter ID from the state, which I’m guessing is either from willful ignorance or laziness. Either way, I was amazed at how often they got it wrong. I started to write a tweet out to send to one of them, informing them of their ignorance, but it ended up being extremely long. I realized it was actually almost blog post length, so I thought I’d post it here rather than on Twitter or an app for super-long tweets: If you think you can get a photo voter ID easily in the state of Alabama, you’re wrong. First of all, you can’t get one if you currently have any other form of recognized (at precincts) state-issued photo ID. If your other ID expires tomorrow, you better have someone bring you to the registrar two days from now. And they may try to convince you to get your license renewed, even if you can no longer drive or cannot afford the fee for the non-driver ID. (Paying to procure an ID for the purpose of voting is a violation of laws prohibiting poll taxes.) To get the ID, you have to bring your birth certificate to the registrar. No big deal, right? Except that many people don’t have a copy on hand. If you DON’T have one, you’ll need to get one. And to get one, you have to pay a fee. (This falls under the poll tax classification, but you can challenge getting it for yourself & authorize the registrar to get it from ADPH for free.) Even if you bring every piece of required information with you, there’s no guarantee that they will know what to do with it. I wasn’t the only person who had trouble. Three or four people came in while I waited & got turned away for bs reasons. I almost got turned away for bs reasons & was told I needed to pay for the ID several times before the actual county registrar came in & told them that was unconstitutional. And you may have difficulty finding the registrar office. I’ve seen several people say, “Just go to the courthouse.” (I thought that was where the registrar in my county was, too. It wasn’t. It was miles away & difficult to find.) Now once you have the ID, you may end up having other issues. You know how you use a photo ID at medical appointments? Yeah, they don’t have to use this one. It actually says you can’t use it for non voting purposes. Some offices & hospitals take this seriously, which makes it difficult to get admitted to a clinic/hospital. I know that I’ve already shared this story on Twitter and on here. I’m fairly certain that many of those who were claiming that the IDs were easy to get either won’t read this or, if they read it, they will say that it’s lies or exaggerations or something along those lines. Still, I felt it was necessary to refute their ignorance. Personally, I think that a lot of people who think that the voter suppression isn’t going to happen with the office closures or that the IDs aren’t hard to get are just misinformed.12 They may not mean to be ignorant on an issue, but that doesn’t mean that that ignorance shouldn’t be challenged or called out. But, Dale, if you ever feel the need to contact me again, take this advice: I’m serious. No, really, I am. Go away. Stay away. Buh-bye now. Edited – 10/06/2015 at 11:58 am to change of to if in this sentence: First of all, you can’t get one if you currently have any other form of recognized (at precincts) state-issued photo ID. It seems like every year since 2008 or 2009 he shows up. ↩Get a new line, Dale. ↩Get a new schtick, Dale. ↩Remember my lemmings/sheep comment from before? ↩Surprise, surprise: Injustice isn’t good. It’s actually really bad and we should try to make sure that it never happens. ↩ We know what happened. Budget cuts closed numerous state operations. Every county has a place to get free ID. End. https://t.co/27EOsnSg9h — Dale Jackson (@TheDaleJackson) October 2, 2015  ↩ You do realize, every county has a venue that provides free Voter ID. Which is racism? https://t.co/oCufvStgWS — Dale Jackson (@TheDaleJackson) October 6, 2015  ↩ And the state provides Voter IDs for free in every single county. Please acknowledge you know this. https://t.co/1EO0XfWm56 — Dale Jackson (@TheDaleJackson) October 5, 2015  ↩I did acknowledge it a few times. And I […]

‘Cause It Feels So Empty Without Me


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Late last week, I rescheduled my appointment with the UAB OB/GYN clinic to get my Depo Provera shot on Tuesday to Thursday afternoon at 2:30.1 I asked that the nature of the appointment also change, since I had done some reading and found out that Depo Provera increases the chance of bone loss. I was told that since I wasn’t dude for an annual visit until October 15 that I would have to make it into a birth control consultation. I said that was fine. On Thursday afternoon, I was in a pretty good mood. I knew that it was possible, if the doctor took too long or there was some unexpected wait going on, I was going to have to stay at the clinic longer than usual because my mom had a dentist appointment, I still felt relatively optimistic. That should have made me nervous, but it didn’t. I was even joking around. 2:16 pm: Craving coffee on the way to a birth control appt while wearing a short strapless dress. Clearly my LDS conversion didn't take. — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 That changed after I started signing in. 2:33 pm: Well, that's just great. If you're conservative you probably need to unfollow me right now because I am fucking pissed off. — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 The receptionist started by saying that someone should have gotten in touch with me. She asked if I was on Medicare. I told her I had Humana Medicare and Medicaid. She said that the Business Office had told them that Medicare wouldn’t cover my birth control consultation. I thought that there must have been some misunderstanding. Medicare has never denied a birth control consultation that I’ve been to, including the ones that I went to when my gynecologist was trying to come up with a treatment for the Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, but my hormones weren’t taking to the ring or the Seasonale or any of the many hormonal birth control methods that I tried. And I knew that, as a Medicaid patient, there shouldn’t be a rule against birth control access.2 I asked if she could appeal it and she said not today. That might seem like a perfectly reasonable statement for her, but I’m on a clock. Depo shots are only effective for so long. And once the progesterone has gotten out of my system, my dysfunctional uterine bleeding or, more specifically, my menometrorrhagia3 will act up again. I will bleed for days, weeks, or months on end until my iron stores are depleted and my anemia comes back with a vengeance. Birth control is life or death for treatment for me. Even if it weren’t, denying access to it would be wrong. So I started drafting tweet after tweet of how horrifying the situation was. 2:34 pm: I arrived for my #birthcontrol consultation appointment & was told insurance won't cover it. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare (1/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 I get to wait a month until my annual exam. My Depo will wear off in the meantime. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (2/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 I will start bleeding. My anemia will get worse. My overall health will get worse. (3/31) @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 All because there's a magical little rule that says I can't come in before my annual (4/31) @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 exam to switch #birthcontrol methods. A switch I was making because Depo increases risk of bone loss. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare (5/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 As a person with joint issues & a vitamin d def., bone loss isn't something I need. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (6/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 It's ridiculous that I've never run into this rule before. I've taken bc off and on @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (7/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 for 20 years, and half of those have been on #Medicare & #Medicaid. I've had bc consults in that time. @HumanaHelp #birthcontrol (8/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 I asked the receptionist if it could be appealed. She said not today & acted like this @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (9/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 rule was something she'd never heard of, but she also wouldn't get call anyone @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (10/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 from the business office for me to ask. She also claimed they tried to tell me. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (11/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 Kinda funny since they didn't call & didn't email. How hard were they *trying*? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (12/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 So, when did this rule come along? Why is my health allowed to be put in jeopardy? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (13/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 Are other women being forced to go w/o meds? Are they on meds that could hurt them? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (14/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 How many low income patients are being denied basic healthcare? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (15/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 Believe it or not, not all #birthcontrol is safe or effective for all people who take it. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare (16/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 Patients deserve to be able to find the one that fits their needs. Why deny us that? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (17/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 They said that to get the prescription, I'd have to pay for a $90 office visit today. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (18/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 IF I HAD $90 TO SPEND ON AN OB/GYN APPOINTMENT, I WOULDN'T BE A PATIENT THERE. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (19/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 It's […]

Some Days Even My Lucky Rocketship Underpants Don’t Help



In two emails1 through my personal health record, I expressed my frustration over the poor care and the lack of orders/referral at the office this afternoon. I was in yesterday (April 7, 2015) with a sore throat. A rapid strep test was ordered and was positive. I was prescribed the antibiotic Zithromax, which I’m allergic to, and I didn’t learn which drug it was until I got to the pharmacy. It was after 5 by then. At almost 7 last night, I received a call from a different doctor at the clinic saying that I needed to come in this morning for orders for a throat culture that I would have done at the Lab downstairs, and for a referral to an infectious disease specialist. When I got to the clinic this morning, the referral hadn’t been done and order that was done was for a test that LabCorp apparently doesn’t perform. They told me that a doctor or nurse would have to perform it. When I went back up to the clinic, the power glitch had knocked out the server so the receptionists took my name, date of birth, and phone number and said that I would be called. No call has happened. I would like to know when my orders and my referral will be ready. I’ve had 2 positive strep tests and one negative one since March 13, continuous symptoms of strep, and one round of clindamycin, which is the only medicine for strep that I can take. I have seen four doctors and three have said that it wasn’t strep, including Dr. Shaw yesterday. I think I’ve been patient, but my patience is really running thin. I feel horrible. I feel like I’m on fire most of the time. My skin has broken out in a rash. I am so exhausted that just making my breakfast is enough to make me go back to bed for two or three hours. I can’t exercise. I can’t go out. I just get to sit around and hope that the ice and tylenol will do something while I wait for orders and a referral that probably should have been ordered weeks ago. Please help me out. I really wish that someone there would take this more seriously. I know that they have a lot of other patients, but, like I told the attending, I think I’ve been patient enough. I know that the power going out and the server going down today wasn’t their fault, but the information wasn’t there before the power and server issues. And the receptionists were like, “Oh well. It’s not here.”2 I wanted to scream, but that would hurt too much. I wanted to offer to stay until they figured it out, but they indicated that that wasn’t an option. But I knew that if I left, I would be ignored or forgotten or put on the bottom of the pile, whatever you want to call the dismissive behavior they typically have. They only allow messages to be 1000 characters long. I tend to be wordy. ↩Really awesome level of compassion guys. ↩

Positively Yours


A while back, I was openly complaining on Twitter about my local library’s lack of feminist texts written by actual feminists. I mentioned their account and got this response: @janersm We're sorry you haven't found what you're looking for in our catalog. Visit http://t.co/o1Tf1VtPuN and make a recommendation! — HMCPL (@HMCPL) January 20, 2015 I had actually requested books before this tweet and those purchases were approved.1 I started to wonder what exactly they would actually approve if I started requesting more liberal and more graphic books. The table below has my “findings”. Non-fiction was denied more often than fiction. Higher quality romance and erotic novels were denied more often than lower quality ones. Books with women as submissives and sex slaves were approved, but ones with Dommes and female switches were not. Books dealing with sex work were denied quite often. Books often associated with being liberal and with liberal movements (i.e. Occupy) were usually denied. Several of the books that I requested that were denied were part of various series–ones that the library already has at least one book in.23456 Sometimes the book I would request would be the first book in a series. And it would still get denied. Oh. Remember my original complaint about the lack of feminist books? It extended to the approval/denial process. Of the books on feminism that I requested, 72% of them were denied. Book Title Author Status Fiction/Non-Fiction Age Group Genre/Topic After Summer Abbott, Hailey Declined Fiction Young Adult Romance American Way of Poverty: How the Other Half Still Lives, The Abramsky, Sasha Approved Non-Fiction Adults Politics / Economy Angel, The Reisz, Tiffany Declined Fiction Adults Romance: BDSM/Kink/Non-Traditional Do Muslim Women Need Saving? Abu-Lughod, Lila Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / Religion Erotic Slavehood: A Miss Abernathy Omnibus Abernathy, Christina Declined Non-Fiction Adults BDSM Falling for the Backup Aleo, Toni Declined Fiction Adults Romance: Sports Free Women of Spain: Anarchism and the Struggle for the Emancipation of Women Acklesberg, Martha A. Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism History of Celibacy, A Abbott, Elizabeth Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / History House is Not a Home, A Adler, Polly Declined Non-Fiction Adults Memoir / Sexism I Want It That Way Aguirre, Ann Declined Fiction Adults Romance: New Adult Infatuate Agresti, Aimee Requested Fiction Young Adult Fantasy Intimate Adventures of a London Call Girl, The de Jour, Belle Declined Non-Fiction Adults Memoir / Sex Work Prince, The Reisz, Tiffany Declined Fiction Adults Romance: BDSM/Kink/Non-Traditional Resisting Citizenship: Feminist Essays on Politics, Community, and Democracy Ackelsberg, Martha A. Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Sex at the Margins: Migration, Labour Markets and the Rescue Industry Agustín, Laura María Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / Sex Work Sex Myth, The Magnanti, Brooke Approved Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / Sex Work Summer Boys Abbott, Hailey Declined Fiction Young Adult Romance Twist Akins, Karen Requested Fiction Young Adult Science Fiction Sometimes Naughty, Sometimes Nice Raye, Kimberly Declined Fiction Adults Romance Sex, Science, and Stem Cells: Inside the Right Wing Assault on Reason DeGette, Diana Declined Non-Fiction Adults Politics / Science Uprising, The: An Unauthorized Tour of the Populist Revolt Scaring Wall Street and Washington Sirota, David Declined Non-Fiction Adults Politics / Economy Passing of Starr Faithfull, The Goodman, Jonathon Declined Non-Fiction Adults True Crime / Sex Work Rules for Radicals Alinsky, Saul Declined Non-Fiction Adults Politics Female Eunuch, The Greer, Germaine Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Sex and Destiny: The Politics of Human Fertility Greer, Germaine Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Obstacle Race, The: The Fortunes of Women Painters and Their Work Greer, Germaine Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Immortal Craving Castle, Kendra Leigh Approved Fiction Adults Fantasy Midnight Reckoning Castle, Kendra Leigh Approved Fiction Adults Fantasy One Week Girlfriend Murphy, Monica Approved Fiction Adults Romance: New Adult Second Chance Boyfriend Murphy, Monica Approved Fiction Adults Romance: New Adult Four Years Later Murphy, Monica Approved Fiction Adults Romance: New Adult Women’s Room, The French, Marilyn Approved Fiction Adults Feminism Woman Warrior, The Hong Kingston, Maxine Approved Non-Fiction Adults Memoir Feminism is for Everybody hooks, bell Approved Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Sexual Politics Millett, Kate Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Gender Relations in Early Modern England Gowing, Laura Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / History Proposal, The Ashley, Katie Declined Fiction Adults Romance Pairing, The Ashley, Katie Declined Fiction Adults Romance The Extraordinary and the Everyday in Early Modern England Walker, Garthine and Angela McShane-Jones Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / History History of Rape, A: Sexual Violence in France from the 16th to the 20th Century Vigarello, Georges Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / History Gender and Change: Agency, Chronology and Periodisation Shepard, Alexandera and Garthine Walker Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / History Women, Crime, and the Courts in Early Modern England Kermode, Jenny and Garthine Walker Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / History Crime, Gender, and Social Order in Early Modern England Walker, Garthine Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism / History Anything He Wants: Castaway Fawkes, Sara Approved Fiction Adults Romance: BDSM/Kink/Non-Traditional Feminist Theory: From Margin to Center hooks, bell Approved Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Fear of Flying Jong, Erica Approved Fiction Adults Feminism Full Frontal Feminism Valenti, Jessica Approved Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Sister Outsider: Essays and Speeches Lorde, Audre Approved Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Unspeakable Things: Sex, Lies and Revolution Penny, Laurie Approved Non-Fiction Adults Feminism The Collected Poems of Lucille Clifton Clifton, Lucille Approved Non-Fiction Adults Poetry Delta of Venus Nin, Anaïs Approved Fiction Adults Erotic / Short Stories Ain’t I a Woman: Black Women and Feminism hooks, bell Approved Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Baise-Moi Despentes, Virginie Declined Fiction Adults Erotic / Crime Essential Ellen Willis, The Willis, Ellen and Nona Willis Aronowitz Declined Non-Fiction Adults Essays Story of the Eye Bataille, Georges Declined Fiction Adults Erotic Yes Means Yes! Valenti, Jessica Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism Purity Myth, The Valenti, Jessica Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism He’s a Stud, She’s a Slut Valenti, Jessica Declined Non-Fiction Adults Feminism People’s History of Sports in the United States: 250 Years of Politics, Protest, People, and Play Zirin, Dave Declined Non-Fiction Adults Sports / History Delusions of Gender: How Our […]

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The next time you hear someone ranting about Obamaphone users, point this out to them. When this picture was taken we’d had no power for around an hour. I’d also had little to no cell coverage for the same time. Keep in mind that after the April 27 tornadoes in 2011, I STILL had cell coverage, even though much of North Alabama had NO power at all & they had to have the main lines out of Browns Ferry repaired. The power outage today was JUST South Huntsville. My dad’s phone (a non “Obamaphone”) had coverage, but mine didn’t. This phone’s purpose (according to the FCC) is for a person of limited means to be able to have a Lifeline (aka the service’s actual name) when they need it. But I didn’t. Basically, if an emergency had happened and I couldn’t get to someone else’s phone, I would have been screwed. And, in case I haven’t mentioned it enough, these are not the luxurious phones that some people on the right would like to say they are. You can call and text (old-school style) with them, sometimes. The coverage for the basic services is pretty shoddy. And you can’t text to some numbers or receive texts from some numbers. You cannot take, send, or receive pictures. You cannot surf the internet. And you actually do have to pay for some of the costs associated with the phone, so it isn’t completely free. via Instagram

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foodfinisher: Masturbation is a most deadly sin and children need to be protected from the temptation. via Tumblr The original story is a hoax. I once believed this would happen to me. Actually, I went as far as blaming myself anytime I tried to and something bad happened within the week afterward. Of course, I grew up in a sex negative culture and have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, so my fears make sense.

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