Daily Archives: September 25, 2015


my new knee brace
Since the orthopedist told me on Wednesday that I needed to go through another round of physical therapy, use a designer drug for the inflammation,1 and wear a brace when I’m not in the shower, I’ve been a bit skeptical of how any of it was going to work. It didn’t help when the brace I was originally fitted with had a hole pop up in the top seam in the back. It also didn’t help when I thought back over all the weeks of physical therapy I’ve already been through.2 But I decided this morning that I would at least try to follow his orders. I set up a new round of physical therapy. The scheduler said that my folder from this Summer had probably already been closed, since I was technically discharged. I may end up with the physical therapist I had this summer. I may end up with the one I had last summer. I may end up with one of the ones who worked with my dad during the summer. Or I could end up with any of a large number of physical therapists that work for Huntsville Hospital. I may not have faith that physical therapy will help, but I’ve got to give it a shot. If it doesn’t work, it doesn’t work. But if it does work, then that will be nice. I may just need a lot more therapy than was originally anticipated. The pharmacy called this morning about the anti-inflammatory spray. At first I didn’t want to say okay to paying the $10 that the medicine will cost me–because insurance won’t cover it–but my mom basically told me that $10 isn’t much and that I need to try to do whatever I can to help my knee. And she reminded me of what I’ve already said in this entry, “if it doesn’t work, it doesn’t work.” She also reminded me that it would be a lot better to at least try the medicine than to go back to the orthopedist in four weeks and tell the doctor that I didn’t do as he ordered. I took the ill-fitting brace with the popped seam back. The DME3 people at the orthopedist’s office were nice and the one who helped me today actually checked to see how the brace fit when I was standing before she let me leave. She could see why it was so uncomfortable–the top part was too tight. She said she knew why it was hard to fit it because the XL brace that I was taking back was not only too small for the bottom part of my thigh, its opening for the kneecap was too large4 and the bottom part was too big for my calf. She said that the kneecap and calf issues could be helped by the straps, but that the only way to fix the top issue was to go with an XXL. The new brace feels much better. Oh, she showed me how the hole popped in the other brace. I was pulling it up in the back and just pulled that seem apart. She said that I needed to try to do most, if not all, of the pulling in the front of the brace, so that’s how I’m pulling. Maybe it will all work. And if it doesn’t, then I guess I’ll cross that issue when I get to it. I just have to keep myself from falling into the “it-hurts-so-bad-I-want-to-die” thinking. A spray that won’t arrive until at least Monday. ↩My physical therapist was great, but the pain I endured during the physical therapy was very unpleasant. ↩Durable Medical Equipment ↩aka my kneecap was too small ↩

Grit and Bear It


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Last night, a couple of ladies on Twitter had a whine-fest over my blocking them after I favorited and retweeted these: @LibertyBelleCJL anti-gun control/pro death penalty nut who loves fetuses.. — LaurelMd (@PanchoPanucci) September 24, 2015 @CaseyParksIt @LibertyBelleCJL 'protecting life' with anti-gun control, pro death penalty, pro war?..get a clue.. — LaurelMd (@PanchoPanucci) September 24, 2015 They thought that I was the friend of PanchoPanucci, but I simply found those tweets after searching through the #DefundPP hashtag. I favorited and retweeted them because I agreed that there is a good deal of hypocrisy within that movement. Ladies, I'm not her friend. But if you want to read my tweets regarding #defundpp I'll unblock you. https://t.co/2VZX5BBvNR — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 You can find out what I REALLY think of you. https://t.co/2VZX5BBvNR — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 @_wintergirl93 @LibertyBelleCJL Go ahead, girls. I had you blocked before even reading those tweets. — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 When they found out that I had them blocked before even finding their tweets, they had to throw a fit. How could anyone ever want to block them? They’re just too perfect for that. Clearly, I’m doing something awful to decide that I don’t want to interact with people who I think will only cause drama and spread hate. I figure that they were upset because they feel that they have a right to be heard by every single person on earth. Just because you have the right to share your beliefs and opinions with the world doesn’t mean that the world will listen to you. Why does it even matter who I am? Yes, I prematurely block people. Most are individuals who follow racists. https://t.co/7Hkv3hACCo — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 Actually I'm very confident in my position. Why should I not block people who follow bigots? Or those who name call? https://t.co/rMEfYhdVSA — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 What? You WOULDN'T block people who follow actual Neo-Nazis, Klan members, & people preaching white supremacy? https://t.co/GNpD2JLpTC — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 @_wintergirl93 Look at accounts under the various hashtags for white supremacy. If you see someone you follow, that's why you were blocked. — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 They even had to have their friends come to the rescue.1 It was not at all surprising. Nah, you can just check those hashtags. I'm sure you'll find 'em. https://t.co/MdCgCagLeG — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 25, 2015 And, of course, supporting Planned Parenthood means I don’t understand what racism actually is, or that a lot of old companies and organizations had ties to various racist groups and regimes. Guess what, folks! Margaret Sanger was not the only racist alive in the 20th Century. There were a lot of them and there were some who had a direct hand in actual atrocities. How do you feel about Volkswagen, Porsche, Hugo Boss, Bayer, IBM, Daimler, Kellogg & BASF? https://t.co/bxrGrVicpW — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 25, 2015 That tweet seemed to scare most of them off, but I basically warned off any future comments with: Dear #DefundPP, Every time you take an Aspirin made by Bayer & every time you hear about Sarin gas, remember this: http://t.co/eRjzOJk7qJ — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 25, 2015 I've heard enough about how Margaret Sanger was an eugenicist & how people who support #PlannedParenthood now are responsible for that. — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 25, 2015 If you bring up Sanger, I may bring up some companies or individuals that I'm sure you've supported that have ties to Nazis & other racists. — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 25, 2015 I hope that maybe they’ll get the message, but I really doubt it. They were actually encouraging their friends to do this. ↩

#DefundPP is Full of Hypocrisy



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Late last week, I rescheduled my appointment with the UAB OB/GYN clinic to get my Depo Provera shot on Tuesday to Thursday afternoon at 2:30.1 I asked that the nature of the appointment also change, since I had done some reading and found out that Depo Provera increases the chance of bone loss. I was told that since I wasn’t dude for an annual visit until October 15 that I would have to make it into a birth control consultation. I said that was fine. On Thursday afternoon, I was in a pretty good mood. I knew that it was possible, if the doctor took too long or there was some unexpected wait going on, I was going to have to stay at the clinic longer than usual because my mom had a dentist appointment, I still felt relatively optimistic. That should have made me nervous, but it didn’t. I was even joking around. 2:16 pm: Craving coffee on the way to a birth control appt while wearing a short strapless dress. Clearly my LDS conversion didn't take. — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 That changed after I started signing in. 2:33 pm: Well, that's just great. If you're conservative you probably need to unfollow me right now because I am fucking pissed off. — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 The receptionist started by saying that someone should have gotten in touch with me. She asked if I was on Medicare. I told her I had Humana Medicare and Medicaid. She said that the Business Office had told them that Medicare wouldn’t cover my birth control consultation. I thought that there must have been some misunderstanding. Medicare has never denied a birth control consultation that I’ve been to, including the ones that I went to when my gynecologist was trying to come up with a treatment for the Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, but my hormones weren’t taking to the ring or the Seasonale or any of the many hormonal birth control methods that I tried. And I knew that, as a Medicaid patient, there shouldn’t be a rule against birth control access.2 I asked if she could appeal it and she said not today. That might seem like a perfectly reasonable statement for her, but I’m on a clock. Depo shots are only effective for so long. And once the progesterone has gotten out of my system, my dysfunctional uterine bleeding or, more specifically, my menometrorrhagia3 will act up again. I will bleed for days, weeks, or months on end until my iron stores are depleted and my anemia comes back with a vengeance. Birth control is life or death for treatment for me. Even if it weren’t, denying access to it would be wrong. So I started drafting tweet after tweet of how horrifying the situation was. 2:34 pm: I arrived for my #birthcontrol consultation appointment & was told insurance won't cover it. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare (1/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 I get to wait a month until my annual exam. My Depo will wear off in the meantime. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (2/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 I will start bleeding. My anemia will get worse. My overall health will get worse. (3/31) @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 All because there's a magical little rule that says I can't come in before my annual (4/31) @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 exam to switch #birthcontrol methods. A switch I was making because Depo increases risk of bone loss. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare (5/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 As a person with joint issues & a vitamin d def., bone loss isn't something I need. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (6/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 It's ridiculous that I've never run into this rule before. I've taken bc off and on @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (7/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 for 20 years, and half of those have been on #Medicare & #Medicaid. I've had bc consults in that time. @HumanaHelp #birthcontrol (8/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 I asked the receptionist if it could be appealed. She said not today & acted like this @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (9/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 rule was something she'd never heard of, but she also wouldn't get call anyone @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (10/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 from the business office for me to ask. She also claimed they tried to tell me. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (11/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 Kinda funny since they didn't call & didn't email. How hard were they *trying*? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (12/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 So, when did this rule come along? Why is my health allowed to be put in jeopardy? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (13/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 Are other women being forced to go w/o meds? Are they on meds that could hurt them? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (14/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 How many low income patients are being denied basic healthcare? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (15/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 Believe it or not, not all #birthcontrol is safe or effective for all people who take it. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare (16/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 Patients deserve to be able to find the one that fits their needs. Why deny us that? @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (17/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 They said that to get the prescription, I'd have to pay for a $90 office visit today. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (18/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 IF I HAD $90 TO SPEND ON AN OB/GYN APPOINTMENT, I WOULDN'T BE A PATIENT THERE. @HumanaHelp #medicaid #medicare #birthcontrol (19/31) — Janet Morris (@janersm) September 24, 2015 It's […]

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