I have repeatedly told her I don’t believe, I haven’t, and I won’t. Why does she insist on continuing everything? I know why. She sees only one outcome- me returning to true belief and revoking my “homosexual feelings”. Even if a “miracle” happens and I loose attraction to girls, I won’t return. Even without including my sexuality, I don’t respect/agree with/desire to be apart of the church. The times where I have been most happy has been the times where I was inactive or doubting. Where my mother sees one outcome, I see one as well- they are just polar opposites.