Daily Archives: April 12, 2013

Tuesday night seemed like it was going to be just another random night, where my family watched The Voice and basically just acted like we normally do. It sort of changed when my mom picked Amy up and was going to put her in her litter box. Amy jumped, while still about five feet in the air, and landed (somewhat like a cat) legs first. She started screaming, or that’s how I’d described it if she was human, and we were all next to her within a second. My mom held her, while calling the vet. My dad ran to his room to change from shorts to jeans. I sat and tried to calm her down. Mom asked the secretary at the vet’s office if we could go ahead and bring her in to get her checked out. Since it was about 6:52 and they close at 7:00, they said no. (We live five minutes away, so we could have gotten there before they closed, but mom wanted to make sure that they would actually be there and let us in when we got there.) They told us to keep her off her feet for the night and bring her in Wednesday morning, so we did our best to do that. (She still managed to walk around some.) Mom thought she had broken her left front leg. I thought it was a sprain. After being examined the next morning, we found out that she just had soft tissue damage–aka a sprain. (I know that those can be more painful than breaks sometimes, so I shouldn’t have said it was just soft tissue damage.) Anyway, the vet gave her something for the pain. They also went ahead and did the next batch of vaccines she would need this weekend. The doctor also said that she was doing well, other than her leg, and is growing at the proper rate for a puppy of her age and breed. (She gained an ounce since she went to get her worm pill over the weekend.) By Wednesday night, she was running circles around us like she had been before she’d fallen twenty four hours earlier. She hasn’t tried to jump out of our arms when we carry her, though. Wednesday was also the day for my trip to see the family doctor about getting a referral for a different gastroenterologist. When I explained what had happened, he was more than willing to get me a referral to someone else. When I went to get said referral from the “referral person” on his side of the office, she had already gotten one prepared for me…for the same doctor that had laughed at the idea of doing the colonoscopy. She was going to refer me back to the doctor that I was trying to get away from. I told her this, and she had to ask why I needed to see a different doctor, so I told her that that doctor didn’t want to do a test I needed. She proceeded to laugh at this and say, “Well, another doctor won’t necessarily do a test that you want done if you ask for it.” This was when I finally snapped…or just raised my voice a little and got very snippy toward her. I told her that it wasn’t a test I wanted, but one that my hematologist said I needed. I was getting more annoyed by the moment and nearly started crying, because whether I’m angry or sad, the tears always seem to start flowing. I don’t know if it was my annoyed tone, the fact that I wasn’t just doctor-shopping so I could get a test that isn’t necessary, or the tears that were starting to pool in my eyes, but she started to take me more seriously at this point. She apologized and she tried calling someone and they didn’t take my insurance. This was when she did something that I found even more annoying: she told me to go home, call my insurance, get a list of doctors who take my insurance, and call her back with the one I want to see. Maybe she thought I would enjoy this or would make things easier for both of us. It doesn’t. She’s having me do her job for her. Other referral people, including the person on the other side of that very office, know which doctor accepts which insurance plan. It shouldn’t have surprised me that she lacked this knowledge and that she didn’t want to do the job herself, since this is a woman who always takes thirty minutes to an hour to do something that takes every other person with that position five minutes max. She’s not new to the job. She just doesn’t do it very well. And she almost always pisses someone off–either a patient, the patient’s family, a doctor, or a nurse at the nurse’s station that she works at. Honestly, I don’t know how she manages to keep her job at all. Yesterday, we had some pretty bad storms and I, of course, had my typical anxiety related to the storms. Though we had a severe storm pass over, it wasn’t really that bad (damage-wise), but there were some that were relatively close that did some damage. I’m glad that it wasn’t any worse. (Sometimes this weather makes me want to go to some place like San Diego where there is no real weather.) Oh, and because the weather was so bad, a lot of schools and school systems around here closed early, which meant that my therapist had to cancel our group therapy session for this month. So I will have gone two months without any type of therapy. Oh, and today, Amy officially got her lifetime license from the city. My parents had to go to Animal Services with her rabies info and apply for it. Now the city officially knows that we have a new pet. So anyone who is super judgmental and who thinks […]

Taking the Fall

Last night’s Glee was amazing. That’s right. I said it was amazing. Actually, it was fucking brilliant. It was one of the best episodes I have ever seen of any show. And you want to know why? Because it was real. Yes, I said that it was awesome because it was real. I know it is a work of fiction, but it was so realistic. It reminded me of a time in high school, just about five or six months after Columbine, when there was a lockdown at my high school because someone thought they saw someone walking toward the school with a gun. The panic that ensued in the episode reminded me of what everyone was like when the words “Mississippi Red” came over the intercom. The crying and anxiety that the characters experienced reminded me of what my classmates and I were like when we waited to find out if we were safe. And the relief when it was over reminded me of what it was like when we found out that we hadn’t been in any real danger. (If I remember correctly, the guy didn’t have a gun and he wasn’t even really heading toward the school.) We didn’t know that until afterward, so the anxiety that we had was real. The fear we had was real. And the fear and anxiety portrayed in the writing and acting on last night’s episode was very realistic. Even the way that it seemed like they were in lockdown forever, when it was really just a few minutes, was realistic. When you’re in that kind of situation, every second feels like an hour. That they were able to portray that on a sixty minute episode amazed me. I know that people think that it is exploiting Newtown and Sandy Hook, but I don’t really think it is. Think about this little fact: within one month after the Sandy Hook tragedy, there were 5 other school shootings. Five. That was in one month. School shootings don’t belong to just one school. They belong to every school, everywhere. Blaming Glee for having the episode “too soon” after Sandy Hook isn’t fair. When would it have been acceptable for the school shooting episode to take place? Should they have waited until there hadn’t been a school shooting for a few months? Chances are that that, unfortunately, won’t be happening anytime soon in this country. As for people upset by it being Becky (played by Lauren Potter) that brought the gun to school and thinking that this is Glee‘s way of demonizing people with Down Syndrome, I just want to shake my head at you guys. Becky didn’t bring the gun to school with the thought that she was going to hurt anyone. She did it because she was scared that she would need to protect herself. This is the kind of thing that causes a lot of kids to bring guns to school–most of them are not ones who have Down Syndrome or any form of disability. And, for the people who are jumping on the anti-Glee bandwagon for this without seeing the episode, they should know that Becky didn’t shoot anyone. The gun discharged twice accidentally. She didn’t hurt anyone. And she was just as scared by it going off as everyone else in the episode. Would it make people feel better if the person who brought the gun in was someone who had a history of mental illness? Or would they feel better if it was someone with a history of violence? Would it be okay if it was someone who was poor? Or should it just be a some random white boy who happens to be a loner? Is it just because she has Down Syndrome that people are thinking that she shouldn’t be capable of bringing a gun to school? That doesn’t seem very fair. Lauren Potter’s mother, Robin Sinkhorn, commented on the outrage about Becky being the shooter, “The shootings are still fresh in all of our minds. If Becky’s going to be fully included on the show — which they’ve done such a good job about that and giving her these juicy stories — then why not Becky? Whether she has Down syndrome or not, it doesn’t matter … Why wouldn’t it be somebody with Down syndrome because she’s a kid. She’s a teenager. She makes stupid decisions just like other teenagers do.” Another thing to think about is that Glee is not the first television series to have a show with a school shooting in it. In 1999, there was an episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer called “Earshot” and it was originally scheduled to air the week after Columbine. (Obviously, they didn’t know Columbine was going to happen when they came up with that episode, but there had already been quite a few well-publicized school shootings in the year or two before Columbine.)  Buffy fans didn’t get to see it until September. Degrassi: The Next Generation had a shooting in 2004. (This one is rather well-known since one of the victims of the shooting was played by Drake Aubrey Graham.) In 2006, One Tree Hill there was a school shooting episode where a main character ended up dying. There have been so many more with shootings at schools. So this is not just some thing that only Glee did. This is something that has become a very prevalent part of television shows that are marketed to younger audiences. School violence is reality. And we can’t expect for fictional outlets, like television, movies, and books, to completely ignore this facet of reality. This is the reality that kids face when they walk into school everyday, even if they don’t realize it. This wasn’t an exploitation of a single event, but a wake-up call about what life is really like in a society like ours. If the episode made you uncomfortable, good. No one should feel comfortable with the idea that, one minute, their child can be laughing and joking like a child […]

A Very Special Glee