My mom told me that the one thing that used to get me in trouble, when I would get in trouble, was my honesty. She said that I was always really well-behaved, but that if something upset me, I was vocal about it. Not really surprising news, is it?
So, I have now added an IP from Huntsville and one from Altoona to my .htaccess file for blocking. This time, they refer automatically to a notice that basically tells the family members involved to just leave me alone. I honestly think that (in order to catch the post on the day it was posted) someone had to be waiting around for me to post something like it. I’m supposed to feel guilty (according to them) because I posted something about them on a website for all the world to see. Now, for those of you not related to me, where in the post did I explicitly identify who I was talking about? And did I say anything worse about her than I did my own mother? (My mother doesn’t read the blog, but knows that I talk about her and has a fairly good idea about what I might be saying. My father does read the blog, and knows exactly what I say about him.)
I do think that I voiced some legitimate concerns. Her son is on a stimulant for hyperactivity. He has dyslexia and he’s hyper is all that my mom, grandmother, or I are ever told–my parents and I have suspected that he might have a developmental disorder for a while. When he wasn’t talking by 2, I was a bit concerned. When that continued into 3, I was even more concerned. I couldn’t bring it up because she didn’t ever want to talk about that kind of thing with me. But I digress. Like I said, he’s on a stimulant. Stimulants are great for some kids with ADHD and some who are on the Autism spectrum. They aren’t necessarily great in a family that has a history of psychotic and mood disorders. Now, I know that the cousin-in-law doesn’t think of me as her family, but I am related by blood to her husband and son. Children in families with histories of schizophrenia are at an increased risk of ending up with schizophrenia. Children who go on stimulants are also at an increased risk for ending up with schizophrenia. Also, children on the Autism spectrum are at an increased risk of schizophrenia, in general. So, it’s not that big of a jump to say that she should be on the lookout for symptoms.
Also, I think that the idea that maybe it’s hypocritical to continually insinuate that my mother and grandmother are druggies because they have chronic pain and have taken addictive drugs, but that it is okay to give her son something that is well-known for addiction because he has issues is a legitimate issue to be upset about. My mother and grandmother both have degenerative issues with their spines, not to mention a plethora of other problems (neuropathy, arthritis, FM, hypermobility, etc.) that cause them pain. I think it’s a little unfair to treat them like they’re some kind of criminals because they feel the need to seek medication.
I had a cousin on the other side of the family tell me that this would all pass over and things would get better. I don’t think so. Every year since the last major issue (2002), I have felt like a stranger at my family’s functions. I have had this sense of impending doom because of that particular family member. She thinks it is because I’m spoiled and that I want to be the baby. I don’t care about being the baby in the family. On the other side, I have cousins who have kids that are younger than me (and have for almost 16 years) and I’m cool with them. This pretty much comes down to her coming into a family and trying to take over. We were a close family until she came along. Now, not so much.
Anyway, my Nana (or “Granny” as the family member called her) seems to be on the side of her only granddaughter in this. I’m sure that my aunt is pissed. I’m sure that my cousin is, too. Do I really care that these people are upset because I voiced real concerns? No. I’m more upset that they think it’s okay for her to be hateful to members of their family, but if I say anything, then I’m some kind of monster. Double standards suck
I also think it was rather rude of her to call someone who she knows has trouble expressing themselves vocally to express her anger. The only point of making that call would be to yell at me, since she would know that it would be almost impossible for me to express my thoughts. If she had an issue, she could’ve emailed me or commented. She could’ve gone about this in a way where we would both be able to communicate effectively, but she didn’t care about that. She wanted to be able to make me feel bad, which she didn’t do.
I don’t know. I might not have posted the “bad” entry this time if I hadn’t found out about the comments that she’d made on the same week that I was informed (via local news) that my cousin had a child that had been diagnosed with developmental delays. Finding out that she trusted strangers over people that she actually has some relation to just irritated me. You add that to the thing with my mom and just her attitude in general, and everything just kind of festered.
Sorry if I’ve spent too much time ranting about this. I know that some of you have probably read a lot more about this than others, and I’m sorry. Maybe now that my thoughts are known to this family member, though, life will not be nearly as stressful.
Heh. Yeah, right.