It’s not that I don’t WANT to sleep. I do. I would love to lay down and sleep for a long time. It’s not that I’m not tired. It’s not even that I have a mood issue causing me to stay up. I’m just afraid to go to sleep.
Every time I go to bed or fall asleep for any length of time, I wake up with this excruciating pain in my back, but that’s not the worst part. Below the pain, I feel heaviness, but not much of anything else. I have trouble moving, and if I try to sit up with all of this, I fall over because I can’t hold myself up. This problem lasts for 30 minutes after I wake up.
I called the family doctor, who was going out of town and told me to call the neurologist. I called the neurologist…well, first I talked to his receptionist, who was very calm and sweet with me, before she started to freak out to the other people in the office before she put me on hold. The nurse is supposed to call me back.
So, I hate this because I WANT to sleep. I really do, but I am so scared that if I go to bed, I won’t be able to walk when I get up.
Oh, I haven’t tweeted much lately, but I’ve been busy on my tumblr.