30
March

Epic Fail?

Am I the only person who has gotten overly annoyed with the continuous usage of “fail” as a noun? I am so sick of reading so many things saying, “epic fail” and all that crap. I know that my grammar isn’t always as good as it used to be, but I do, at least, try to use words in their proper context. Saying fail like it’s the noun is wrong, and just bugs me to no end. There are few times when it is okay to say the word in the noun context, and when you have added epic to it IS NOT ONE OF THEM!

Now, I want you to grab the person next to you by the hand and say this with me, “I will not use the word fail in the wrong context anymore.” If you break this oath, I swear that zombies will come out of the graveyard and cannibals will come out from under bridges and eat you alive.

I hope that this contemporary misuse of the term fail fails and has a painful death while it is failing, as it hurts even the least delicate of ears to hear it misspoken.

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26
March

Blog Is To Blogging Like…

Okay, so I am now writing in my blog after however long it has been since my last entry. I haven’t really been a good little writer, now have I? Actually, I took Spring Break off from the computer. I barely got on that week, except on the days where I was recharging my iPod or downloading the iTunes version of Twilight, so that I could watch it a few hours before the lovely people at USPS decided to drop off my copy that had been in their truck since the day before. (Gotta love those little tracker things.)

I have decided NOT to drop out of school…now. I will try another semester. It may be that I am only able to go in the fall semesters and not during the spring. That would be weird, but it seems like spring has always had this stranglehold over my emotions and drives me to the brink of utter insanity.

I have an appointment with the head of the English department on Monday at 1 PM. That should be cool. Well, maybe the meeting won’t be really interesting, but it should be okay at least.

I’ve watched my DVD of Twilight a few too many times to proudly admit in front of the world. Okay, 1 time on the iPod, 2 more times on Saturday on DVD, the audio commentary on Sunday, and the 1 time I watched it on Monday. I haven’t seen it since Monday night. I may be going through withdrawals. :P

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9
March

Organization, Schmorganization

I’ve decided to do a little spring cleaning on the blog. I’m reorganizing the categories and tags. Fun stuff, I know. Just the most exciting stuff that you can do on a bright, sunny day.

I took my test. It seemed relatively easy. I want to say that I did well on it, but I know if I did, then I’ll end up getting it back with a failing grade. That’s what always happens. If I think I failed, I passed and vice versa.

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8
March

Method to the Madness

I can almost walk around without my foot feeling like it will fall off. That’s a good thing, right? Well, it still hurts enough that I don’t want to walk on it much. I’ll get this crazy inspiration to walk on it one day, and the next it’ll complain to me about how I’ve abused it by making me writhe in pain.

You know, foot pain is one of the worst kinds of pain. (I should know, having been in pain for the past several years.) It’s there, and it won’t go away without being elevated and iced. That’s nice, but life doesn’t stop for foot pain. It just can’t. If life could stop every time any person was in any kind of pain, then not many people would have lives. Everyone is touched by pain of some sort.

I’m not looking forward to tomorrow at school. I have a test. Having skipped most of the classes leading up to said test because I felt like crap, I’m not actually prepared for it. It’s open book, which is nice, but it would still be nice to know what is going on. I know, I could be studying right now like a sane person would. There are two things that you should know about me:

  1. I am not now, nor have I ever been sane. I find it insulting that you might find me so boring that you would think me such a thing.
  2. Studying causes me to forget. Cramming in about two minutes works, but sitting down daily and studying (or even sitting down the weekend before a test and studying) is a guarantee that I will forget everything that has ever been discussed in the class. This fact points to the above statement about sanity.

I only have one week of school until the time that everyone looks forward to until they have children of their own–Spring Break. Yes, I said Spring Break; that lovely week off from classes where many go to Florida, only to come home with fewer brain cells, not-so-funny diseases, and a 9-month reminder that they had fun. What shall I do? The lovely thing I do EVERY Spring Break–sit at home. Yay much? No, not really. I just like having the days off.

My monthly splurge that I am now allowing myself again was WinDVD 9 Plus Blu-Ray for my laptop. Of course, when buying a product to watch DVDs and Blu-Rays, you would expect to be able to watch DVDs and Blu-Rays. It is a very simple thing that you would expect. What happens with the copy I get? It won’t open…at all. It did install. I was able to get it to do that much, but any way that I try to open the thing makes my computer stop and point and laugh. I don’t like it when my computer laughs at me.

Well, I’m off to elevate and ice my foot. Hopefully, now that the pain is subsiding somewhat, the swelling will also ease. (It’s still the size of a California orange.) Keep your fingers crossed.

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6
March

Playlists

I decided to post these to my blog instead of posting on Twitter only. These may have repeats in them. I know if you combine the two, there are repeats.

On-The-Go-2
Scream – High School Musical Cast & Zac Efron
I’m Still Breathing – Katy Perry
All Around Me – Flyleaf
Sober – Pink
I Don’t Believe You – Pink
Flightless Bird, American Mouth – Iron and Wine
Better In Time – Leona Lewis
Alfie – Lily Allen
Our Time Now – Plain White T’s
Friends Don’t Let Friends Dial Drunk – Plain White T’s
Circus – Britney Spears
Cassie [Acoustic] – Flyleaf
All Around Me [Acoustic] – Flyleaf
Human – The Killers
Leave Out All The Rest – Linkin Park
Paper Planes – M.I.A.
After Tonight – Mariah Carey
Supermassive Black Hole – Muse
For A Pessimist I’m Pretty Optimistic – Paramore
Crushcrushcrush – Paramore
Decode – Paramore
Hey There Delilah – Plain White T’s
Unfaithful – Rihanna
Shut Up And Drive – Rihanna
Let Me Sign (Bonus Track) – Rob Pattinson
Listen (From “Dreamgirls”) – Beyoncé
Everybody Hurts – R.E.M.
No One – Alicia Keys
Shattered (Turn the Car Around) – O.A.R.
Irreplaceable – Beyoncé
He Wasn’t There – Lily Allen
Him – Lily Allen
Fuck You – Lily Allen
The Fear – Lily Allen
Everyone’s At It – Lily Allen
If U Seek Amy – Britney Spears
Sin Wagon – Dixie Chicks
Love Story – Taylor Swift
Kill the Lights – Britney Spears
Pork and Beans – Weezer
That Time – Regina Spektor
My Life Would Suck Without You – Kelly Clarkson
Just Dance – Lady GaGa & Colby O’Donis
Lost+ (with Jay-Z) / Viva la Vida – Coldplay
You Pulled Me Through (Live At the 51st Grammy Awards) – Jennifer Hudson
American Boy (feat. Kanye West) - Estelle
House of Cards – Radiohead
You Found Me – The Fray
I Hate This Part – The Pussycat Dolls
Stay – Sugarland
Crush – David Archuleta
When I Grow Up – The Pussycat Dolls
Never Again – Kelly Clarkson
Respect – Aretha Franklin
The Devil You Know (God Is A Man) – Face To Face
It Doesn’t Matter – Alison Krauss & Union Station
Wild Horses – The Sundays
Close Your Eyes (Buffy/Angel Love Theme) – Beck, Christophe
Motownphilly (Original Version) - Boyz II Men
I Will Survive – Gloria Gaynor
Bohemian Rhapsody – Queen
Another One Bites the Dust – Queen
Bicycle Race – Queen
Fat Bottomed Girls – Queen
I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles) – The Proclaimers
Somebody to Love – Queen
We Will Rock You – Queen
We Are the Champions – Queen
Who Wants to Live Forever – Queen
Streets of Philadelphia – Bruce Springsteen
Fidelity – Regina Spektor
Edit – Regina Spektor
On the Radio – Regina Spektor100
At Seventeen – Janis Ian
Genie 2.0 – Christina Aguilera
Extraordinary – Mandy Moore
Tattoo – Jordin Sparks
Linger – The Cranberries
That’s the Way Love Goes – Janet Jackson
It’s the End of the World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine) – R.E.M.
Losing My Religion – R.E.M.
Powerless (Say What You Want) – Nelly Furtado
O… Saya – A.R. Rahman & M.I.A.
I’ll Make Love To You – Boyz II Men
On Bended Knee – Boyz II Men
Yesterday – Boyz II Men
Water Runs Dry – Boyz II Men
Wannabe – Spice Girls
Say You’ll Be There – Spice Girls
2 Become 1 – Spice Girls
Who Do You Think You Are – Spice Girls
Honey – Mariah Carey
Butterfly – Mariah Carey
My All – Mariah Carey
Tiny Dancer – Elton John
Don’t Know Why – Norah Jones
A Thousand Miles – Vanessa Carlton
Ordinary Day – Vanessa Carlton
Never Had A Dream Come True – S Club 7
If You Had My Love – Jennifer Lopez
Waiting For Tonight – Jennifer Lopez
Una Noche Mas – Jennifer Lopez
No Me Ames (Ballad Version) – Jennifer Lopez
My Love Is Your Love – Whitney Houston
Heartbreak Hotel – Whitney Houston
When You Believe – Whitney Houston
I Learned From The Best - Whitney Houston
Ironic (Acoustic) – Alanis Morissette
You Learn (Acoustic) – Alanis Morissette
Hand In My Pocket (Acoustic) – Alanis Morissette
You Oughta Know (Acoustic) – Alanis Morissette
This Is Me Remix (Featuring Kain) – Dream
Never Let You Go – Third Eye Blind
Candle In The Wind 1997 – Elton John
I Knew I Loved You – Savage Garden
All Or Nothing – O-Town
The Boy Is Mine - Brandy and Monica
Angel Of Mine – Monica
For You I Will – Monica
What’s My Age Again? – Blink-182
If I Could Turn Back The Hands Of Time – R.Kelly
When The Lights Go Out – Five
C’est La Vie – B*Witched
Save Tonight – Eagle Eye Cherry
Anytime - Brian McKnight
I Do – Lisa Loeb
Torn – Natalie Imbruglia
I’ve Got A Theory / Bunnies / If We’re Together – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Overture / Going Through The Motions – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Under Your Spell – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
I’ll Never Tell – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Rest In Peace – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
What You Feel – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Standing – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Under Your Spell / Standing (Reprise) – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Walk Through The Fire – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Something To Sing About – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Where Do We Go From Here? – The Cast Of Buffy The Vampire Slayer
One Voice – Billy Gilman
Oklahoma – Billy Gilman
Inner Smile – Texas
Independence Day – Melanie C
Hot Hot Hot – Bina Mistry
You’re Still The One – Shania Twain
From This Moment On – Shania Twain
Man! I Feel Like A Woman! – Shania Twain
Spice Up Your Life – Spice Girls
Move Over – Spice Girls
Viva Forever – Spice Girls
That’s What You Get – Paramore
1, 2, 3, 4 – Plain White T’s
Big Bad World – Plain White T’s
Natural Disaster – Plain White T’s
That Girl – Plain White T’s8:55 AM
Hate (I Really Don’t Like You) – Plain White T’s
Just a Girl – No Doubt
Don’t Speak – No Doubt
Fly On The Wall - Miley Cyrus
Bottom Of The Ocean – Miley Cyrus
7 Things – Miley Cyrus
Goodbye – Miley Cyrus
See You Again (Rock Mafia Remix) – Miley Cyrus
Seventeen Forever – Metro Station
Kelsey – Metro Station
Shake It – Metro Station
Smile – Lily Allen
Freak On a Leash – Korn featuring Amy Lee
One of the Boys – Katy Perry
I Kissed a Girl – Katy Perry
Hot n Cold – Katy Perry
Thinking of You – Katy Perry
Foundations (Full Explicit Version) – Kate Nash
Love Lockdown – Kanye West
No Air – Jordin Sparks & Chris Brown
Teardrops on My Guitar (Radio Single Remix) – Taylor Swift
Picture to Burn – Taylor Swift
Starlight – Muse
Fifteen – Taylor Swift
Teardrops On My Guitar (POP Version) – Taylor Swift
White Horse – Taylor Swift
I Caught Myself – Paramore
Never Think – Rob Pattinson
Clair de Lune (Bonus Track) – The APM Orchestra
La Traviata (Bonus Track) – The Royal Philharmonic Orchestra
Gives You Hell – The All-American Rejects
Halo – Beyoncé
If I Were a Boy – Beyoncé
Ave Maria – Beyoncé
Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It) – Beyoncé
Heart Songs – Weezer
Good Morning Baltimore – Nikki Blonsky
I Can Hear the Bells – Nikki Blonsky
At Last - Etta James
Bruises - Chairlift
Geraldine – Glasvegas
Chasing Pavements – Adele
In the Ayer (feat. Will.I.am) – Flo Rida
Pocketful of Sunshine – Natasha Bedingfield
Soulmate – Natasha Bedingfield
I’m Yours – Jason Mraz
4 Minutes (feat. Justin Timberlake & Timbaland) – Madonna
With You – Chris Brown
Clumsy – Fergie
Big Girls Don’t Cry (Personal) – Fergie
Fall for You – Secondhand Serenade
Shadow of the Day – Linkin Park
The Time of My Life – David Cook
How Far We’ve Come – Matchbox Twenty
In Love With a Girl – Gavin DeGraw
Love Remains the Same – Gavin Rossdale
Nine In the Afternoon – Panic At the Disco
All-American Girl – Carrie Underwood
Last Name – Carrie Underwood
Wasted – Carrie Underwood
So Small – Carrie Underwood
Before He Cheats – Carrie Underwood
Don’t Forget to Remember Me – Carrie Underwood
Ain’t No Other Man – Christina Aguilera
Hurt – Christina Aguilera
Reflection – Christina Aguilera
Realize – Colbie Caillat
…Baby One More Time – Britney Spears
From the Bottom of My Broken Heart – Britney Spears
Piece of Me – Britney Spears
Brave New Girl – Britney Spears
Everytime – Britney Spears
Let Me Be – Britney Spears
Prelude 12-21 – A.F.I.
Perfect - Alanis Morissette
Dirty Little Secret – The All-American Rejects
Move Along – The All-American Rejects
It Ends Tonight – The All-American Rejects
Straitjacket Feeling – The All-American RejectsPieces of Me – Ashlee Simpson
Kill Caustic – A.F.I.
Love Like Winter – A.F.I.
Miss Murder – A.F.I.
Ironic – Alanis Morissette
You Oughta Know [Alternate Take] – Alanis Morissette
Can’t Take It – The All American Rejects
Shadow – Ashlee Simpson
Lala – Ashlee Simpson
Harder Everyday – Ashlee Simpson
Bella’s Lullaby - Carter Burwell
Bubbly – Colbie Caillat
Viva La Vida – Coldplay
Like A Star – Corinne Bailey Rae
Put Your Records On – Corinne Bailey Rae
Seasons Change – Corinne Bailey Rae
Wide Open Spaces – Dixie Chicks
You Were Mine – Dixie Chicks
Let ‘Er Rip – Dixie Chicks
This Kiss – Faith Hill
Let Me Let Go – Faith Hill
I’m So Sick – Flyleaf
Fully Alive [Acoustic] – Flyleaf
An Irish Party in Third Class – Gaelic Storm
I Want a Hippopotamus for Christmas – Gayla Peevey
Slide – The Goo Goo Dolls
Broadway – The Goo Goo Dolls
Black Balloon – The Goo Goo Dolls
Iris – The Goo Goo Dolls
Goodbye My Lover – James BluntNo Bravery – James Blunt
Lose Myself – JC Chasez
Imagine - John Lennon
Black Horse and the Cherry Tree – KT Tunstall
22 – Lily Allen
I Could Say – Lily Allen
Back To The Start – Lily Allen
Never Gonna Happen – Lily Allen
Who’d Have Known – Lily Allen
These Four Walls – Miley Cyrus
Tearin’ Up My Heart – *NSYNC
For the Girl Who Has Everything – *NSYNC
God Must Have Spent a Little More Time on You – *NSYNC
I Want You Back – *NSYNC
I Drive Myself Crazy – *NSYNC
Sailing – *NSYNC
Hallelujah – Paramore
So What – Pink
Got 2 Be Down – Robin Thicke
You and Me Song – The Wannadies
A Beautiful Lie – 30 Seconds To Mars
Cooties - Aimee Allen
Swing, Swing – The All-American Rejects
11:11 P.M. – The All-American Rejects
Autobiography – Ashlee Simpson
Violet Hill – Coldplay
The Hardest Part – Coldplay
I Can Love You Better – Dixie Chicks
There’s Your Trouble – Dixie Chicks
Tonight the Heartache’s on Me#1 Crush – Garbage
The Rose – LeAnn Rimes
Here We Go – *NSYNC
Crazy for You – *NSYNC
Giddy Up – *NSYNC
Misery Business – Paramore

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Grindhouse (Main Titles) – Robert Rodriguez
Shut Up and Drive – Rihanna
Tell Me What to Do – Metro Station
Disconnected – Lindsay Lohan
Until You Leave - Permanent Me
Unfaithful – Rihanna
Goodbye My Lover – James Blunt
The Hardest Part – Coldplay
One Headlight – The Wallflowers
Incomplete – Backstreet Boys
Warwick Avenue – Duffy
Everything’s Not Lost – Coldplay
My Immortal – Evanescence
Some Unholy War - Amy Winehouse
Tears and Rain – James Blunt
Twenty Years – Permanent Me
No Bravery – James Blunt
Lose Myself – JC Chasez
Umbrella – Rihanna
Shake It – Metro Station
Stop and Stare – OneRepublic
I Wish I Felt Nothing – The Wallflowers
Pon De Replay – Rihanna
Just Let Me Cry – Ashlee Simpson
Move Along – The All-American Rejects
Dead To You – Permanent Me
Are You Gonna Be My Girl – Jet
On the Way Down [Acoustic Version] – Ryan Cabrera
Graduation (Friends Forever) – Vitamin C
Human Behavior – Björk
Cocaine Blues – Joaquin Phoenix
Only Hope – Mandy Moore
San Francisco – Vanessa Carlton
Come Clean (remix 2005) – Hilary Duff
Manic Monday – Bangles
When Doves Cry – Quindon Tarver
What I Like About You – Lillix
Dancing With Myself – The Donnas
Lovefool – The Cardigans
Trouble – Pink
Save Me from Myself – Christina Aguilera
Like a Star – Corinne Bailey Rae

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3
March

When It All Falls Apart

I’m depressed. Not the mild, oh-no-I-think-I-may-cry-a-minute kind. More like the endless pit of loneliness and despair kind. I’ve been crying a lot lately, and I mean, for hours straight I will sit and be in tears. I feel like absolute and utter crap. I’ve been getting more and more depressed for months, but my mom keeps trying to convince me that I’m not depressed. It’s one of those lovely time periods where I haven’t been acting the part, so she doesn’t believe I’ve been feeling it. Well, I have been feeling it, and denying it hasn’t been helping. Telling myself that I’m not miserable is not making me happy. It’s not even helping me put up a brave face anymore. I’m depressed. I’ve wanted to cut, but I haven’t actually done any cutting. (Mainly because my lovely razor won’t cut anything at all ever.) I have been able to scrape my leg with my finger nails. (Yay for being able to accomplish one thing in my life.)

I’m considering dropping out of college…for good. I’m sick of going. I’m sick of anxiety. I’m sick of paranoia. I’m sick of getting out and putting myself out there, and not having anything good come of it. I’m tired. I’m always tired. I want to sleep. I want the ability to be able to sleep when I’m tired and stay away from people when I just don’t feel like dealing with the world.

I just want a break from reality. A real break from reality. I can’t have one, though. No one would allow me the chance to recuperate from life.

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