I don’t think some of my meds that I take to knock me out at night are working. Last night, I woke up at 2:50 and had to come in the living room to try to sleep because I couldn’t sleep in my bedroom. Then I woke up at about 5:00 in the living room, unable to sleep in a recliner we have that I can normally just completely conk out in. I go back to my room, and I halfway sleep for the next five hours. (Yes, I sleep for about 11 hours a night normally, or at least that’s how much I sleep when I’m depressed.)
I had two nightmares last night, too. Normally, I just have weird dreams, but last night I had nightmares. It makes me wonder if the precog dreams are coming back. I used to have nightmares before I’d have a precog dream. Now, I’m just waiting. It’s been almost 7 years since I’ve had a really strong one, so I guess it’s been long enough.
I’m in so much pain lately. Between the abdominal pain, chest pain, migraines, and fibromyalgia, I’m just wiped out with pain. Then I take a Percogesic to help me out, and it knocks me out. I used to be able to take any kind of pain killer and stay wide awake for hours on end. Now, I take the normal dose and I end up falling over asleep.
I’ve found a couch full of fabric to work on patterns with. (My mom and I had bought a lot of fabric back when I was in 7th grade so I could have new clothes back then, but we both got busy with the death of my grandfather, my obsession with choir, and our ongoing problems with depression). I also found patterns from when I was about to start to Calhoun. When I finish making some clothes I’ll try to post pictures. I still need to buy some new fabrics and patterns, so that I don’t look too 2002 or, even worse, 1996. I mean, those are okay years fashion-wise, but I want to have clothes that fit in.