My stating that my mental status had declined over the past four years was not from my mouth, it was straight from the teachers involved. I don’t think my mental status had decreased over four years, or at least not severely. I think I could do the internship, but I also think that if my psychiatrist and the disability specialist think it’s best for me to split my internship, then I should be allowed to split my internship.
My mom and I talked a little about my suicidal ideation yesterday. I don’t actually want to die. I just want a break. It would be nice to be able to wake up one morning and not feel the pressure. It would also be nice to not dread waking up in the morning because I have so much to do the next day.