If there is one thing that I hate that happened as a result of the gastric bypass surgery, it’s that I can’t seem to keep my lips healthy. I take my B-12, which used to be the reason that my lips would split. In fact, I take it everyday. (You’re only supposed to take it every week under the tongue, but I take it everyday in regular pill form.) I do have one other problem with the surgery. I can’t keep my iron levels up. Of course, if I could eat a 52-ounce steak, that would be no problem. 
I have to take two of those pills a day, or I’m falling asleep or nearly passing out.
My mom and I tried to watch Hannibal Rising last night, but it was too boring. Silence of the Lambs has been one of my favorite movies for years, but it’s the only one of the Hannibal series that I can actually sit through. Ugh! And if I had finished that movie, then I would have completed my 100 movies in one year goal. My mom just turned it over on FX, which is playing Crash. Now, I know someone is going to say, “God, I LOVE that movie!” I cannot agree. It was total crap. Yes, it had an interesting message, but it was boring and the writing didn’t do it justice.
I slept about 11 hours last night, with the breaks that I have for waking up and not being able to completely get back to sleep. I got 5 good hours of sleep, then I had 6 hours of broken up sleep. I can’t do anything to make my sleep any easier. I don’t want to take Ambien or any of those drugs because I don’t like the side effects they have.
I didn’t take most of my meds yesterday, which, of course, makes me a bad girl, but I didn’t feel like I needed them. Isn’t that the problem with anything bipolar-y? We never feel like we need the drugs, when we always do. At least I’m not following the original IG, and abandoning psychiatry. Today, I’m just skipping the morning dose of Abilify, which is my anti-psychotic. That just means that I have an increased risk of seeing people in walls, feeling bugs crawling on my skin where there are none, and feeling a little more paranoid than usual.
I am supposed to take Abilify, but I don’t like the way it makes me feel. Haldol, either. They give me haldol cause I can’t seem to handle the newer meds that are out, and abilify supposedly doesn’t “work” on it’s own. I’m also taking prozac for my OCD, and uh.. lithium. The lithium and prozac are the only things that seem to be helping at the moment. ANYWAYS, I dunno.. I’ve never had any type of surgery, gastric bypass or otherwise, and I have low iron. Also my lips crack, but my OCD problems cause me to peel them constantly and make them bleed. I also pick scabs on my body and have a hard time healing because of it. NICE LIFE I TELL YOU! Seriously, the reason I came here was not to compare mental illness, but to say hi, wanna trade links?
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