I’m going to have to take a class this summer.  I hate that.  I’m going to be taking statistics in the morning, when I should be sleeping in.  I was going to get a C in the class, which would have led to me losing my scholarship.  I can’t do that.  I would’ve waited until the fall to take the class, but that would put me with the same teacher and I would make the same mistakes.  This way, I’ll end up with a different teacher, one who is rumored to be easy.  I need easy.  I need good grades.  I need a high GPA so that I can graduate with honors and easily get into grad school.

I got Medicare, which I didn’t expect.  Now I can go back to my old doctor.  With Medicaid, I was having to go to a clinic where they didn’t know anything about me or how to treat me, and I was getting a new doctor every time that I went in.  Now I get to go see someone who has known me since I was a baby.  I like that idea better than the one where I’m with total strangers who know nothing about me.

I keep having internal “fights” with my Advanced Comp. class.  Some of the members, one in particular, seem to be so ignorant.  It’s infuriating.  I am so glad that that class is almost over.  I hate going in there and trying to keep my mouth shut.  I want to argue, but I can’t.  Every time I argue, I’m the only one arguing my position.  No one else seems to agree with me.  I’m used to that, but it’s hard when they act superior to me because they have “knowledge” that I don’t have.  I can cite different studies and legitimate sources, while this one person cites groups that are known to be completely biased and untrustworthy.  They’re the kind that say completely screwed up things about evolution.  I’m okay with someone not agreeing with evolution, but when you’re making up things, like there being dragons that were slayed by Adam to explain fossils, that’s where I draw the line.

I’m a bit nervous when it comes to the whole announcement time of TV shows that comes out in a few weeks.  I keep checking to see what the odds are that Conviction will get picked up, and it doesn’t look all that great for the show.  I’ve grown quite attached to that show, and I don’t want to see it go away.  There are some sources, like the NY Times, that say it has a chance, but others, ones that I’ve never heard of, say that it has little to no chance of being picked up for next season.  I guess that I’m being ridiculous about this whole thing, but I have no life, so TV is very important in my lack of a life.

I have a special thing I have to go to tomorrow that the Graduating Seniors in the Social Work department are throwing for the people who are supposed to graduate next Spring.  I hate the thought of being up here at school on a Saturday.  Saturdays are supposed to be one of my days away from school.  I need time to relax, but I guess that isn’t going to happen tomorrow.  I can’t miss the thing because it’s mandatory, so no skipping is allowed.  The only way I could get out of it is if I had a legitimate excuse.  I don’t have one, so I must go.

Oh, I can now where “normal people sized” clothes.  It’s really cool.  I’m still losing weight, or at least losing size, which doesn’t make sense because I’m always eating because I’m always hungry.  It doesn’t make sense, but who am I to question or complain about what’s going on?

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Well, I found out last week that I don’t have mono. I found out that I have fibromyalgia. Then, this week, I found out that my left foot wasn’t broken. Instead, I have tendonitis. If it isn’t better, I can go back in 3 weeks to get it re-checked. Still, neither of these diagnoses ends the pain that is continuing.

I’m sorry that I haven’t written in a while. I’ve been trying to get everything back up and running. It’s taking me forever because there’s a lot to do. I know that means that I may have taken on too many sites, but I don’t think that’s true. I just didn’t expect to get sick or to have so much work to do. I just didn’t anticipate what the future held. How can you? All of the old subdomains at fuzzypinkslippers.com will be on urban-sunrise.net, except The Kate Revolution, The Taboolistings, and Celestial. All will have their own domains. It may take me until June to get everything back up and running, but I plan on having everything up and running SOON.

I got a B on an English paper, and I was quite ticked off. I deserved an A on that paper, and I don’t just say that because I’m full of myself. I know that I did a better job than she gave me credit for. My dad said that she gave me a B because she expects more from me. That may be true, but it still isn’t right. If my paper was good enough for someone else to get an A on it, then it should be good enough for me to get an A on it. Besides, I NEVER get a B on papers in English. I’ve always been an A writer. Getting a B on composition is like a slap in the face or a punch to the gut for me.
Speaking of grades, I was having a bit of a rough patch with Statistics. Going into the test we had on Monday, I had a C average, with my last two grades being D’s. It wasn’t that I didn’t study. I just got confused on them. It was simple stuff, but I got confused. This latest test earned me an 83. I think if I’m able to keep getting grades like that and higher, I might be able to pull off a decent grade in that class.

I found out that I didn’t do as much damage to my bank account as I thought. Of course, I still don’t get my check card back, and I’ll still have to ask permission before I buy anything. I want to get Fredalba’s CD and Brokeback Mountain, but I don’t know if my $150 allowance starts this month or some other month. I tried asking my mother, but she was a bit elusive about it. Maybe she hasn’t decided quite yet. I told her what I wanted to get, and brought up that I wanted to buy new clothes (since the majority of what I wear falls off of me) with the money. Maybe she’ll let me do that. She told me that we could go to a “used clothes store” to get me some jeans. I guess that’s okay, though I’d rather go to Ross. I guess I have to be more thrifty about my clothes money, especially since my size is changing about every 3 weeks.

Speaking of clothes sizing changing. I’m now able to fit into size 18 pants. I haven’t been “small enough” to do that in the last 10 years. I weigh less now than I did in 7th grade. When I lose 30-40 more pounds, I’ll be smaller than I was in 3rd grade. Though I’m getting smaller, I still see the same fat loser in the mirror. If I didn’t notice my clothes not fitting, I would still feel like I was almost 350 pounds. I actually feel like that any way. I hope that that feeling goes away. I know it might happen eventually, but I want it to happen right now. I guess that’s too much to ask for, though.

Has anyone else seen Conviction? It’s the new show on NBC that has young DA’s in New York (based on Law & Order) doing cases and dealing with their out of court stuff. I think it’s brilliant. It’s the first show in a long time that makes me giddy. I love Alias, Charmed, Friends, and Buffy, but they don’t make me feel giddy anymore. I still am a huge fan, I just don’t feel the excitement anymore. If you haven’t seen the show, then watch it, or at least tape/DVR/Tivo it so that you can watch it. I hope that it doesn’t get cancelled. I would hate to have a show that I like so much get cancelled.

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