I hate when we have to do group stuff. I always end up being the odd man out. For example, almost everytime anything was done for my Methods class, I was the last to know. I wouldn’t find out until the day before that we were getting together. I didn’t know that we were supposed to go get fabric for our head scarfs for our presentation yesterday. Even if I had known, I wouldn’t have been able to come. I was stuck at therapy until around 11:30, then I had the family doctor appointment at 2. I was strapped for time.

On a positive note, I finished my Statistics test and the teacher looked over the math part and said that I’d done it right. I was so afraid that I had royally screwed it up, but I guess I hadn’t. I guess that means that I’ll at least make a fifty on the test. I’m pretty sure I’ll do a bit better than that, since I knew most of the symbols and most of the multiple choice stuff.

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I may have mono. I’m not quite sure where I got it. My mom suggested that it may have come from drinking from the water fountain at school or from her working with kids at Extended Day. All I know is that I’ve been sick for 3 months with flu-like symptoms that are getting to a point that I can’t stand them. I had to miss 2 classes yesterday because I felt so bad. Marakie saw me yesterday and asked what was wrong. I told her it might be a virus. I didn’t know until today what virus it might be. I kind of expected it to be something like mono or Epstein-Barr. The doctor said it was probably mono, but it could be a number of things, including vitamin deficiencies, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and Fibromyalgia. I had to have a lot of blood drawn to figure it out. Hopefully, it will be something that will go away. Until it does, I have pain medicine to help control my aches and pains that have gotten worse.

I have a test tomorrow in Statistics. I think I’m ready for it. I’ve learned the stuff that I didn’t know on the last test, so I think I’ll do better than a 67. God, I hope I do better than that. I want to pull off an A in that class. At the very least, I want a B.
Ugh. I’m thirsty and I’m sitting at Daddy’s computer. Normally, I would take a sip of what he has to drink, but now I’m afraid I’ll give him mono or something.

I’m tired, but I’m not. I’m still manic. I thought it had gone away, but it hasn’t. I had an appointment with Gulshan today, and she got me an appointment with the nurse. She decided that if I was going that manic on my meds, then I needed to have some medical professional assess me. She thinks I may need new meds. I can’t take Lithium again, and I’m already on Lamictal. I know that there are a world of other drugs that I could be put on, but I keep thinking that there’s a possibility that I’ll be put on Depakote. I don’t know why, but I just expect it in a way.

Speaking of meds, did you know that Medicaid only covers 4 name brand drugs a month? That meant that I couldn’t get a new acid reflux med today because I already had used my four–Effexor XR, Wellbutrin XL, Lamictal, and Geodon. I’ll have to stick to the Prilosec OTC. It isn’t as expensive as getting the other drug without the Medicaid covering it, but it can be quite annoying. The pharmacist suggested that I get the Wellbutrin XL changed to Wellbutrin SR, so that I could get that as a generic. Whatever happens, I will still think that it’s dumb that Medicaid can’t cover more name brand drugs. It’s not like they pay full price for them, as it is.

I feel like crap, so I better go.

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you have to yell back.

We were discussing various things on Tuesday in my Social Problems class. We got around to the topic of the Death Penalty. Now, I don’t believe in the death penalty, but I know that a lot of people do. I was sitting in class listening to people say why it should be allowed and how it should happen within a few months or weeks of the end of a person’s trial. They said that it should be even quicker when a suspect admits to the crime. Well, not everyone who confesses is actually telling the truth. Well, the topic went on and on, and some people got even more adamant that the death penalty was this great and wonderful thing.

Well, one guy decided that we should go a step forward (or backward from my perspective), we should let the people be tortured. The family could torture them…BEFORE the trial. My blood had been boiling throughout the whole death penalty thing and when he said that, I yelled towards him (he was yelling to the class) that if we did that, we would be just like the Taliban.

Well, all of a sudden, this meant that I supported all of the wars that go against terrorism and people accused of having weapons of mass destruction. It also meant that I supported what happened to the people of New Orleans. Anything that a white person had done wrong was suddenly my fault. (I go to a “Historically Black College/University”.) I face racial tension there enough as it is, but suddenly, when I open my mouth to tell this guy how disgusting his position is, I’m a far-right-wing conservative who gets her kicks off of seeing people suffering in the streets and seeing homes be ruined. I told them that I didn’t support what happened.

Another girl decided to give me a hard time about the Taliban comment because her brother is in Iraq. “We shouldn’t be fighting for other people. Let them do whatever they want to their people. If the Taliban wanted to kill their people, then let them.” I guess the same would apply to Hitler or Milosevic. She doesn’t want us to help other people. What if she knew about the mass genocide occuring in Darfur? Would it be okay to let them die? Probably not, because instead of being whites or Arabs, they’re Africans. They’re the good guys and anyone who isn’t black isn’t good. Anyway, the girl was upset because her brother could die because of the fighting. As sad as that would be, the guy decided to go into the military. He pretty much made an agreement that it would be okay if he died. He signed up for a possible suicide mission, so why am I being blamed for what he chose to do?

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