I hate the term “chill” when used to tell a person who is a annoyed to calm down. It seems really obnoxious to tell a person to “chill”. It seems like a way of discounting their feelings about a subject. I hate it when people tell me to “chill”. When they tell me to “chill”, do I calm down? No. I get more infuriated. Something that might have only been slightly annoying to me before becomes extremely annoying afterward.

You know what else I hate? People who specifically rule out joining all Invision boards because they hate Invision? I hate XMB, but I still belong to quite a few XMB boards. It seems really stupid and superficial to me to just completely rule out a board because of the software it uses. That’s like not commenting on someone’s blog because they don’t use your favorite blogging script. It’s childish and ridiculous!

I get that people have a right to join whatever board they feel most comfortable with, but to not give the people at the board a chance because you don’t like the way that board looks? I think that’s just stupid. A board isn’t about the software that is used. It’s about the community that makes up the board.

I have pretty much accepted that Celestial will probably never be one of the more popular boards. I mean, after 3 years, its got 400+ members, but only a few of those actually post. I don’t really know why people don’t like it. Maybe its that I used Invision instead of phpBB or XMB? Maybe its that I’m not as popular as other board owners out there? Maybe I have too many forums to choose from on there? Maybe its just fate? Maybe its that I can’t afford to buy a domain for Celestial? Whatever it is, I’m cool with it. I’d love for the boards to be busy and have lots of members who actually took the time to post on there. I’d love for people to actually know what Celestial is without me having to explain it. I’d love for my boards to not be ignored by some of the people that I respect on other boards. But that won’t happen. Celestial will just have to be the best board that no one goes to.

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Molly is at the vet’s office right now. She’s staying the night, and possibly longer. The vet thinks she has pancreatitis. She also may have breast cancer. Of course, they can’t remove the lumps she has until she recovers from the pancreatitis. I’m really worried about her. I know I’ve only had her a month, but that doesn’t matter to me. I still care about her, and I’m going to worry until I know she’ll be okay.

So, I’m now finished with all of my classes at Calhoun. I finished on Tuesday, which you probably know if you’ve paid attention to my Calendar. I can’t believe that I’m finished going there. It seems like just yesterday that I started there. No, wait. It seems like I’ve been going there forever.

I finally started reading Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone two nights ago. I’d been putting it off for quite a while. I’m about a chapter away from being finished with it. I’d probably have finished already if I hadn’t gotten in an argument with my dad over reading while having the tv on a specific channel (MSNBC). I might have also finished it if I hadn’t fallen asleep this afternoon while reading it.

You know, I don’t understand the negative stigma that is attached to getting a GED. I’ve seen some people acting like its not as good as a high school diploma or even a night school diploma. Personally, I don’t think that’s true. The only difference between a diploma and a GED is the pomp and circumstance that a person goes through. And even GED recipients can go through graduations. All three are just pieces of paper that signify the end of one part of your life. So, why do GED recipients get a bad rep? Why is it considered by some to be a “waste of an education”? I think that’s stupid. I got my GED 3 years ago and started to college a year early. How exactly did I waste my education?

Tomorrow is the Preakness. Another horse race. I’m not happy with this whole horse racing thing.

I decided to put over 100 of my fanlistings up for adoption. Here’s a list. Please feel free to check out the list, if you’re interested in adopting some fanlistings. If I’m not able to adopt them all out, then I’m closing the ones that don’t get adopted. I’ll still have fanlistings. I’ll just have 30 or 40-something of them instead of 150+.

Does anyone remember the game MASH? Well, Emma from the TFL Boards found a link to an online version of MASH. Apparently I’m destined to live in a Mansion in Alabama. I’ll marry my old crush/chemistry lab partner, John Allen, and we’ll have 5 kids. I’ll work as a Social Worker and drive a Pink Mustang.

Anyone have any ideas/suggestions for the next skin for FPS? I mean, I don’t know when I’m going to do another one, but I’d love to have some suggestions for some new ones. Also, which one do y’all think should be the default skin? Currently, its the latest one (Something Wicked This Way Comes). So what are the suggestions y’all have for skins?

Stay tuned (under the more section) for fan girl ramblings and spoilers on One Tree Hill.

Plugs: Carrie, Courtnee, Courtney, Gill, Jessica, Kaye, Keith, Kitty, Paris, Rosie, Sanne, Trisha

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I was doing my Provance commenting and one of the sites I went to basically had a conspiracy theory about the whole Iraqi Prisoner Abuse scandal. This person thought the pictures were taken to keep Bush from getting re-elected. Yeah, right. I’m sure the first thought going through the soldiers’ minds was to keep Bush out of office. I highly doubt that that was the reason they committed war crimes. Honestly, I’m not really interested in why they did what they did. I don’t think anyone will ever know. We’re probably only going to hear pathetic excuses anyway. For example: I was ordered to do it. Okay, I don’t know that they were or were not ordered to commit those acts. What I do know is that they should’ve realized that there was something wrong with the orders. If they had any feelings that the orders were wrong, then they shouldn’t have followed through with the orders; instead, they should’ve reported what they were ordered to do to a person in the chain of command.

Anyways…the back to that person’s comments. He/she seems completely convinced that this is a conspiracy going on perpetrated by the Democrats. Apparently, we’ll do “anything” to get Bush out of office. That sounds a little crazy to me. Personally, I would love to get Bush out of office, but I would never conspire to harm human beings in order to get him out of office. I am disgusted by the idea that all of us Democrats are so anti-Bush that we would harm anyone in order to get him out of office. Normally, I get a little annoyed by conspiracy theories. This time, though, I’m thoroughly annoyed…to put it nicely.

Yesterday, my mom went to my Nana’s. I didn’t go. I had an anxiety attack and couldn’t go. I get so anxious and afraid lately. I’m worried that something will happen if I leave the house. I worry about Xander and Molly when I’m not home. I worry about my parents if they’re out on the road. I worry about getting the car. (I have a fear of cars, driving, and riding.) I just worry myself ragged. Yesterday I had to take a half a Risperdal to calm down enough to not be really panicky about my mom while she was gone to Nana’s house. Then, when she was on her way home, I was on the computer to keep myself distracted. I should probably tell my psychiatrist about all this anxiety, but I’m worried that he’ll put me on more medicine. Yes, the girl who willingly takes her psych meds does not like to take medicine. I especially don’t like to take anti-anxiety medicines because they make me so tired and depress me so much…especially Xanax. I mean, I like feeling calm and all, but I don’t want to be sleeping all of the time.

Of course, sleeping all of the time seems to be what I’m doing lately anyway. If I get comfortable on the couch, or even if I just lay down and am uncomfortable, I fall asleep. I can sleep from anywhere from a few minutes to a few hours. If things were quieter around here, I might sleep all day. Maybe its from my anxiety. Or maybe its something else. It could be my depression. Whenever one of my psychiatric problems gets worse, other psych problems seem to get worse.

I guess I should’ve known with all of the separation anxiety I was having (over going to UTC) that there was something more serious going on. I guess I was just in denial. Maybe I just wanted things to be better than they really were. Who knows? I just hope that this increase in psych issues doesn’t mean that I’ll have to go back to the hospital. I never want to go back to that place ever again.

Go to Celestial, please.

Plugs: Andrea, Erin, Franki, Gwew, Katie, Krysteen, Paris, Rad, Tara, Tina

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I really enjoyed the Friends Finale last night. I was quite happy with the ending. I don’t want to spoil it for anyone who hasn’t seen it, but I was quite happy with the endings for Monica, Chandler, Rachel, and Ross. I was a bit bummed that Phoebe and Joey didn’t get much of a storyline. I mean, Joey got more of one than Phoebe did. She seemed like more of a background player in the episode.

Anyways…I’m a little annoyed. Lately, I’ve been posting on several boards, one of them being Paradise. It’s a lovely board, but some of the people have been annoying me by saying that I’ve been bumping my threads. Technically, I haven’t. Yes, I’ve added to threads after I was the last poster, but the rule clearly states:

No “bumping” threads (creating a pointless post to move your thread to the top).

My posts weren’t pointless. One was to let people know that Celestial had 7 new themes. The other was an update to a post plugging this site. I was stating that I’d added an extra skin since the original post. I don’t consider those things to be pointless, especially when some people were creating all new threads to plug basically the same things. I was technically saving space by doing the updates in the threads.

I hope I don’t cause any drama by complaining about that, but it’s just annoying me that people are so quick to call me a “bumper”. I’m not being a bumper! At least its only 2 people complaining about the “bumping”…of course one of those people y’all might remember from past drama on here. You know, the girl who likes to call me a fat slob.

I had 2 of my exams yesterday. They were okay, I guess. I think I did well on both of them, which either means I did well or I was so confused by the tests that I outright failed them. I hope that its the first one. Even if I didn’t do well, though, I should still be able to pull off an A in both classes. I mean, on my midterm in Philosophy I got a 120 out of 100…I have a bit of leeway in that class.

Well, I just got another piece of mail from UTC. I get that they have me on their mailing list because I got admitted there, but this time it’s a little strange. It’s from the Band department about their Marching Band/Flag Corps program. I’ve never been in either band or in flag corps. I don’t know how the band got my info. I never requested for them to contact me or to be a part of that whole scene. Very strange.

I have to fill out a request for my transcripts to be sent from Calhoun to A&M before Tuesday. They won’t be sent until after I’ve gotten my grades posted from this semester. After the transcript is sent, then the A&M folks can finish processing my application.

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Tonight is the last night of Friends…that’s so sad. It’s one of my favorite shows and I’ve been watching it for so long. I can’t imagine what Thursdays will be like without it. I’ll probably watch Joey when it comes on next year, but that won’t be the same.

I know I haven’t seen the episode yet, but I really want the series finale dvd. It’s on my Amazon.com wishlist. So, if anyone wants to get that for me, I’ll be greatly appreciative.

That reminds me…if you haven’t checked it out already, you can purchase ad space on fps or on Celestial. It’d really help me out if y’all would buy an ad. I am always in need of money.

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