I’m really quite proud of Taboo. It’s growing so quickly. Currently, there are 199 fanlistings on upcoming and 159 that have been finished. Yay. I really recommend that if you have anything that you’re a fan of that TFL won’t approve a fanlisting for that you apply over at Taboo. I doubt that Taboo will EVER be as big as TFL, especially since TFL has been around a lot longer and has such a following. Still, I think that Taboo is doing relatively well considering its newness and that it doesn’t really get as much attention as some of the other fanlisting networks.

(For the record, before I get any comments stating that I’m somehow putting TFL down, let me clarify that I’m not. I did not say anything bad about TFL. Somehow, whenever I mention something about TFL I end up having someone pick apart what I say and make it sound like I’m insulting the entire network or picking on staffers. I’m not. I’m just stating how proud I am of my fanlisting network.)

Ugh, its all thundery right now. I hate stormy weather…it really creeps me out. Yes, I’ll admit that I have a fear of stormy weather. Does that make me a bad person? Of course not…it just makes me an easily scared by storms type of person.

I am quite annoyed with ABC. The next new Alias is supposed to be in like 2 weeks at a different time. How do those evil monkeys at ABC honestly expect people to keep up with this terrific show if they’re constantly either not showing it or showing it at the wrong time? Are they trying to give it the boot like they did with Once and Again? They never really advertise Alias. They treat it like its some kind of cancer that they need to rid themselves of, when its really their best show. Let’s face it, ABC is really struggling…they have been for a while. If they keep mistreating their best programs, then ABC will become the next UPN.

I did my FAFSA, but I didn’t realize until after I’d finished it and sent it in that I’d screwed it up. I’ll have to wait a while and send in the corrections. Hopefully I won’t be penalized for my screwing it up.

You know, as disgusting as this will sound, I actually miss throwing up like I did for so long after my surgery. Almost everytime I would eat, I’d throw up. I know it sounds really weird, but I think I formed this sort of habit/tolerance of throwing up. I got so used to it that I expected it to happen after each meal. Now, when I don’t throw up, I don’t know how to feel. I think that’s part of the reason that I do my mini-binges now. I think somewhere in my subconscious I want to throw up after every meal. I expect it to happen and then I’m kind of disappointed when it doesn’t happen. Yeah, I know it all sounds crazy, but that’s me. I’m crazy like that.

I’ve added more buttons. I doubt anyone will ever use them, but for some odd reason, I really enjoy making them.

Plugs: Angela, Chloe, Claire, Elizabeth, Iris, Liz, Marie, Michelle

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Yesterday, I got to spend the day at Nana’s house. Of course, I spent part of the afternoon sleeping. I was thoroughly exhausted, so sleeping was about the only thing I could do coherently at that point. Anyways…that was why I didn’t get on yesterday.

I may not get on here tomorrow either. I have to go to the 25th wedding anniversary of my great uncle and aunt. I just thought I’d give y’all a heads up about that. I’m sure, though, that after my daily blogging, you could all use a small break from my constant ramblings and rantings.

My parents are working on taxes right now. It seems to be going well, which is incredibly shocking. Usually there’s some drama that goes on with the whole “doing taxes” stuff. Hopefully, this year will be completely different, and drama will not occur.

Some folks questioned how I could have a Tylenol addiction since its not physically addictive. My problem was more psychological. I started taking it one day because I had some pain. I kept taking it because I was afraid not to. I thought that I couldn’t function without it and that something would happen to me if I didn’t take it. It’s all very complicated.

Tomorrow is my last official day of Spring Break. I’ll still have Monday off, too, but that’s not really “Spring Break”. That’s just one of my regular days off. I can’t believe I only have like one month left at Calhoun…ONE MONTH. It seems like just yesterday I was dropping out of high school, getting my GED, and starting to college a year early. Now, I’m 3 years in…and I still have like 3 or 4 more to go.

Yes, I’m going to plug Celestial again. We really need to get that place more active, and y’all can really help.

Plugs: Angie, Debbie, Erin, Iris, Jennifer, Jeslyn, Kat B., Kristie, Naheed, Rachel, Shannon, Steph, Sunny, Tara

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I had to see my psychologist today, and I told him about my anxiety about taking Tylenol. This meant that I had to disclose my addiction to him. He kind of laughed at it. Not like he was laughing at me, but he was laughing at the fact that I had become a habitual user of Tylenol. He told me that he was glad that I never did serious drugs, had alcohol, or tried smoking…had I done one of those things, I’d be addicted to something more serious. We actually talked about a lot of my routines that I have to do in order to have a good day. Apparently, I’m a habitual person. I’m the type of person who gets used to her routines and her intakes of certain things (including Tylenol) and continues to do them, even when its completely ludicrous to do those things. I’m quirky like that.

You know, the reason I never smoked, drank, or tried drugs was that I was afraid I would become addicted to them. I even used that fear as an excuse to not go to parties. I would tell my friends in high school (yes, I had actual friends offline then) that I was afraid that I would try something at a party and become addicted to something. (One of my friends (and my crush at the time) thought it would’ve been fun to get me drunk because I was so serious, and so against getting drunk.) Anyways…what’s really ridiculous about that excuse was that by the time I was being invited to these parties, I had been addicted to Tylenol for almost 3 years. In a way, I was being a hypocrite by saying “I don’t want an addiction” because I already had an addiction.

So, on the TFL Boards, there is a thread asking what 5 fanlistings would you “kill for”. My list:

• Alias (or one of the seasons)
• Buffy the Vampire Slayer (or one of the seasons)
• Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Willow Rosenberg
• Dachshunds
• Kate Winslet

I would actually give up a great majority of my fanlistings for any of those 5 fanlistings. So, if any of the owners are reading this blog right now, if you would like to have over 100 of my fanlistings for one of yours, I’ll seriously trade them to you.

Please go join Celestial. We’re looking to have a more active and more fun board.

Oh, and if you like making screen captures, then go sign up at The Big Picture to run a screen capture site. You can make screen captures for an episode of a tv show, a movie, a music video, or even a commercial. Whatever you want to cap, just sign up for it, and create a site for it… BTW – I just put up a new layout, so go check it out.

Plugs: Angela, Chrissy, Erin, Goli, Iced Glare, Iris, Jeslyn, Lime, Sarah, Sarah

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I’d better hide my default skin (which features the Buffy episode “Becoming”) from Chloe, since she wants to molest it. My poor innocent layout.

You know, its pretty cool for me to finally have people reading my blog that like Buffy. I mean, I don’t mind if people don’t like it, but sometimes I’ve felt (in the past) like I was one of the only people who liked it. Now, I don’t feel so strange. I have my fellow Buffy fans like Iris, Leanne, and Chloe. I’m no longer alone in my love for Buffy.

I’m so thirsty. I probably need to be drinking more water. :water: Its just hard for me to remember sometimes that I need to be drinking water. I probably wouldn’t crave food as often if I would just drink more water.

My mom is gone to take back Mona Lisa Smile and Good Boy to Hollywood Video. :movies: I rented them with some leftover Christmas/Birthday money on Friday. Personally, I liked Mona Lisa Smile a lot better than Good Boy. I thought Good Boy would be more funny, but it seemed like the best parts of it were in the trailers. I mean, it was a cute movie, just not as good as I had expected. Mona Lisa Smile, on the other hand, was incredible. My favorite character was Giselle. She just seemed so spunky, and that’s a great character attribute.

I found some of my self-injury books to use for my research paper. :book: I found Bodies Under Siege and Cutting, but I couldn’t seem to find A Bright Red Scream, which was the one book that I really wanted to use. I also found several magazine/journal articles on self-injury that I had printed out back in 2002.

I finally got a little relaxation this morning. I was sitting on the couch watching The View, and Xander hopped up in my lap and laxed out. :dog: I enjoyed holding him and petting him. Everything was going great until my mom went to turn the chicken off in the kitchen. When she went into the kitchen, he smelled the chicken and hopped up and ran into the kitchen to beg for some chicken. He left me for chicken. I guess the way to a boy’s heart really is through his stomach. I guess my holding and petting couldn’t compare to the possibility of getting a bite of chicken.

Can y’all go join Celestial? It’s getting rather lonely around there. Even if you can’t post bunches every single day, it’d be nice to have a few more friendly faces around there. So please, join!

Plugs: Angela, Chloe, Erin, Iris, Jeannie, Leanne, Meghan, Natalie Marie, Tashina

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Day #2 of Spring Break is coming to a close, and I have yet to really rest or relax. I guess that’s what summer vacation is for. The only problem with that little scenario is that this summer I have to get ready to go to Chattanooga in the fall so that I can go to UTC. I bet I’ll be having panic attacks like crazy this summer. The thought of going that far away (its only a couple of hours) is frightening for me. I have some separation anxiety issues. It’s kind of strange, I guess. I mean, I don’t think most 20 year olds still have separation anxiety. I think its mainly a little kid problem. But, I guess I’m a little kid at heart.

I finally got around to checking Iced-Glare out again, which I’d been meaning to do for weeks. I just kept forgetting. Apparently, I went at a good time because she’s got a new layout up.

I finally cashed the $50 check that one of aunts sent me for my birthday. Of course, she sent it a few weeks late, so its not like I waited forever to cash it. So, what did I get with that $50? The Buffy Season 3 DVDs. Woohoo! I know I could’ve spent the money on a webcam, so that I would stop whining about not having one, but I decided I’d been whining about the BtVS DVDs that I didn’t have a lot longer. So, now I have to update my Amazon wishlist so that it no longer has the S3 DVDs listed. So far I’ve watched one of my favorite episodes, “Bad Girls”. I love Faith’s philosophy about the life of the Slayer. “Want. Take. Have.” Of course, I could never be like that, but its fun to see that kind of attitude on a tv show.

Anyone know of some good banner/button rotations? I mean, I made all those new buttons, and I’d like to put them to good use. Also, if anyone wants to do a button exchange, then just let me know in the comments.

We heard from the animal shelter in Selma. :dog: Molly will probably be ready for us to pick her up on April 13th. That’s not too far away.

:soapbox: The latest thing from Avon to annoy me is a thread entitled fat humans. I hate the ignorant stance people take about overweight/obese people. They act like we choose to be big…and that’s not true. Ugh. Not all “fat” people drink sodas, and not all of the ones who do drink sodas drink the sugary ones. Not all of us eat bags and bags of potato chips and junk food every single day. Oh, and our binges are something that are more difficult to control than simply “taking responsibility for our actions”.

Plugs: Chloe, Iris, Janet, Kristie

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First, Unconscious Mutterings

1. Wife:: Husband
2. Criminal:: Mastermind
3. Campaign:: President
4. Infection:: sore throat
5. Portland:: Oregon
6. NASCAR:: Jeff Gordon
7. IMAX:: movies
8. Martian:: Marvin
9. Nike:: sneakers
10. Trial:: court

Mom called at 9:00 this morning. Nana was fine and there’s nothing wrong with her heart. I was so thankful. I was also very tired, so I didn’t really want to stay on the phone long. I didn’t get to go back to sleep, though, because I had to take Xander out for a walk. :dog: I tried to go back to sleep when we got back inside, but I was too awake by then.

I feel really silly because I’ve been getting kind of jealous of certain people online. :crazy: They seem to get all this cool stuff and get to do cool things. I just get jealous because I know that I won’t get those things or get to do the stuff they do. I know that its silly to be jealous of these people, and there’s always a possibility that these people are lying…still, I do get jealous. I’m not too proud to admit that I get jealous.

It was very cold this morning. According to weather.com the low today was 27? and currently its 43?. Don’t you just love the wacky weather of Huntsville? One day its up to 86?, and then a couple of days later, its down in the 20′s. Of course, it might not feel so cold if I were wearing an actual shirt, instead of a tank top.

Haha…UAB (University of Alabama at Birmingham) beat Kentucky yesterday during the NCAA’s March Madness. I bet that was a shocker for a lot of people. I mean, I feel bad for the Kentucky players, but I’m rather glad they lost to UAB.

I probably should start working on my research paper for Human Growth and Development, but it seems like kind of a shame to work on school work during Spring Break.

There are new buttons in the link me section. I made a lot of them (31 in a variety of sizes), so please take one and put it on your site. Don’t let my effort be wasted. Oh, and you can probably tell that I’m a bit obsessed with Buffy from the new buttons. After all, there are like 15 banners/buttons that are related to Buffy or Angel.

Plugs: Ebony, Erin, Iris, Kristie, Leanne, Melissa, Rachel

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People can just be ridiculous when it comes to certain things. Now, its considered “retarded” to respond to comments in your own blog. I get that it can be annoying for some, but some bloggers (such as Sasha) have their blog set up so that they can respond in an easy manner to all of their comments…and yes, their responses end up on their comments page at their blog. Does that make Sasha or her blog retarded? No. I think the way she has her blog set up is very smart. Sometimes the best way to respond to a question or a comment is to make a comment in your own blog. That way people won’t end up asking or saying the same thing over and over again. And honestly, if it annoys people that much, then why do they go to that blog? Is someone forcing them to go? No. They’re making a choice to go to that blog.

Oh, and I’m quite annoyed about another rant that was started on Avon. This one was started about Krissie. It was started by a girl who doesn’t like her and who has started past drama about Krissie. Honestly, it seems like everytime that particular poster starts a thread, its some kind of call to drama. Very irritating.

You know how warm it was yesterday? Well, today is 50 out. What a difference a day makes. Oh, and the 81 yesterday wasn’t even the high. (The high was 86 degrees.)

So, we have about 4 weeks now until we’re supposed to get Molly. The closer it gets to when we’re supposed to get her, the happier my mom seems to get. My mom has always wanted a Basset. :dog: I just hope that Molly will be happy and healthy. This morning my mom and I discussed how things would be different once we get Molly, i.e. with the walks and with baths. (We had to give Xander a bath this morning.) I guess we’ll adjust to the changes, though. One thing that may be difficult to change is Xander’s cuddle time with Mom. He loves to get up on her lap and be held like a baby. Right now, he’s laying on her chest/stomach like a baby. He’s so cute. I worry about how he’ll adjust to Molly, but I guess we’ll find out in a few weeks.

My mom is leaving in a little while to stay the night with Nana. Nana is supposed to have a heart catheterization done tomorrow, so mom is going down there so she’ll be there early in the morning to take Nana for the procedure. I hope that Nana will be okay. She’s the only grandparent I have left, and I worry about her a lot. I don’t want anything to happen to her.

I took a quiz today and found out my bloginality. Apparently, I’m a INFJ. I’ve included more info about that personality type in the more section.

New smilies test: :dog: :muffin: :headache: :worried:

Plugs: Erin, Iris, Jasmin, Karen, Kristie, Meg, Steph, Terri, Thiri

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