What is friendship?

I recently found out that some of the people from the BB don’t want to be friends with those of us who are leaving. Now, what’s up with that? We were friends before I officially left (and let’s face it, I wasn’t there for a month, so you couldn’t have missed me), but now that I’m saying that I’m leaving I’m all of a sudden not worth for a friendship? What?

If everytime someone left a situation because of age, further schooling, moving, etc. they lost a friend, none of us would have friends. People go to college! People have school! People have RL friends and family! People have problems offline! Yes, I consider people online to be just as good of friends as my offline ones, but…that doesn’t mean that I would dump them just because they moved on with their life!

Everyone at the BB should’ve realized that I was going to be leaving soon. I’d been talking about going to college since I got there at Christmas and now that I’ve got 18 days until it starts, they should’ve realized the time was coming. This shouldn’t come as some big shock.

I thought that those people who were staying deserved to hear from me one last time. I thought they deserved to know that I’d miss them. I thought they deserved to know that I was going to go to college and pursue my dream of becoming a psychologist. I want to help people and now, it’s like I’ve hurt a lot more than I’m going to help.

I shouldn’t have to sacrifice my offline life to please people that I’ll probably never meet. People who probably forget about me whenever they turn their computer off. I mean, I am not going to pay money to go to school and fail because I was up 1/2 the night before catching up on posts and in a chat. I’m sorry, but my RL is more important than that. I don’t have the money or time to devote to being full-time OL girl, full-time friend, full-time daughter, and student. I mean, yes, I’m only going to have classes for about 3 hours, 2 nights a week, but…I’ll have assignments and projects. I also have to keep up with my friends (some who I’ve known for 12 years!) who’ll be LEAVING for college next year.

I can’t just say I’ll devote my life to you guys when obviously you could care less about me.

If people can’t understand this…then, that’s their problem. If I knew of anyone (online or off) who was going to go to college and get their degree, which was something they’ve wanted since they were a little kid, and needed to take that time off for that, I would be happy. I would be saying, “Good luck! Have fun! Do well!” I would be giving them a card or sending them a virtual bouquet of flowers. I would do something other than post some entry in my diary that said:

If they think they’ve grown up, then they can go away. I don’t want to have to deal with them anymore. I’m deleting them from this thing and that thing and the other.

Lisa, Manda, if you two are reading this, I’m keeping you on my faves. I’m still going to check up on you, because you two are sweethearts. You guys mean a lot to me. If you don’t like me because I’m growing up, well, that’s TDB!

To quote Bon Jovi:

“It’s my life. It’s now or never. I ain’t gonna live forever. I just wanna live while I’m alive.”

This is my life. This is my choice.

If you are my friend or ever were my friend, you’d respect that.

About Janet Morris

I'm from Huntsville, Alabama. I've got as many college credits as a doctorate candidate, and the GPA of some of them, too. I have a boss by the name of Amy Pond. She's a dachshund. My parents both grew up in Alabama.