Isn’t it funny when someone online who has no clue about you judges you by your picture? It seems really mature. Yeah right! What does a picture have to do with a person? It’s just the outer appearance…a true person understands that what’s inside is what counts. Besides, it’s been my experience that those who judge are usually lacking something either in the looks or intelligence department. I’m not saying I’m supermodel beautiful, but I’m not a dog. I have GREAT hair. I have a cute face…it’s the rest of my body that I don’t like. I mean, you can’t tell in that picture, but I have really pretty eyes and I have 5 dimples. Besides, that picture was from November of ’99. I bet you might think I look different now. (Speaking of pictures, my mom and I have to go pick up some from Wal-Mart afterwhile…I’ll scan and upload them and share some with you guys…)

Anyways…

Now that I’ve had that lil bit of grandiosity that brands me as being Bipolar, what shall I discuss?

Oh, yesterday, I went to therapy…FUNNNNNNNN! LOL…actually, we talked about the week leading up to me going in the nuthouse and my mom’s suicide attempt. Lilian wants me to figure out what might have caused me to go so…well, psychotic…and what I can do to prevent it next time. So far…she thinks I was REALLY stressed. Well, I could’ve told her that! That’s really all we talked about.

The whole faking thing actually cheered me up yesterday. I don’t know why. It was just, well, hilarious! Me a faker? :::in the Janet ditzy tone::: I don’t think so.

Anyways…so, I guess that’s all for now.

People actually think I’m faking? LOL! I don’t lie in here….

So here are the notes.

Yep I agree with other people. You ARE A LIAR!!! Od should delete you’re diary, and you’re fake one “mum to be”. Oh god, how pathetic are you? Did you really think that people wouldn’t find out you two were the same person? Hahaha should have THOUGHT before you LIED! People aren’t stupid, but OBVIOUSLY YOU ARE dumbass. What a stupid person you are!! Hahaha i hope you get deleted i really do. 6/26/2001 12:46:58 PM

Yeah…I don’t lie on here. In fact, I RARELY lie IRL. I’m not Mum to Be. I only did the picture for her as a favor to her because she’s friends with my friend Del. Yeah, I’m really stupid…I didn’t go around accusing people when it could’ve just been that I was being nice to someone. Why would my diary be deleted? I haven’t broken any rules. I don’t cuss (unlike you). I don’t make hatefilled remarks.

Why? “sometimes known as sophie”?! What. The. Phuck.
sohpie as in mum to be? Are you not the same person? (hence the BPD) http://www.fuzzypinkslippers.com? YOUR home page, at ‘HER’ OD? there are a million other things that would lead (normal) people to believe that you and mum to be are the same person. so watch your step.

Okay, first, the “sometimes known as sophie” is a referral to when I pretended to be fake as a joke because Heather2256 said I was fake. I don’t really know Sophie as in Mum to Be. She’s a friend of my friend Del (aka Delly). Borderline is not the same thing as Dissociative Identity Disorder aka Multiple Personality Disorder. Borderline is more a problem of anger, so is the Bipolar. Yes, some people who have it have DID. And yes, I did hear voices, but I didn’t have multiple personalities. You do realize that since I have been stalked that just saying ‘watch your step’ (since you did e-mail me, too) I could turn you over to the police and insist that you’re one of the people who has stalked me? Why would anyone think this diary is fake? Because I’m friendly? Because in Eccentric Goddess I have temper tantrums? That’s because I have BPD.

Okay, so here’s how the whole, Sophie thing went down…the REAL Sophie, not my little portrayal of a 19-year old who slept with Justin Timberlake.

Sophie is from England, or so I assume since she is Mum to Be instead of Mom to Be. She’s a year younger than I am. She IS pregnant (as far as I know) and she had an ultrasound. She wanted to share that ultrasound picture with her readers. She didn’t know how to upload it to a webpage, so being the nice person that I am, I told her (and Del) that I would upload it for her and send her the code. Well, the code got screwed up, so some people apparently saw that it was from my website, so they began to accuse me.

As for me, I AM Janet. I’m from Alabama. I AM 17. I AM starting to college in August of this year. I DO have Borderline Personality Disorder.

You can ask my friends if I’m telling the truth. LOL, Kristen, if you’re reading this, can you believe this? LOL…me fake? Actually, I’m one of those people who turns people in for being fake or sounding fake. So, if any of you got the bright idea to “turn me in”, I’ll be by Julie et. al’s diaries and I WILL find out.

As for those of you who still think I’m fake, oh well…that’s your loss, not mine.

Why is it the one time (okay so it was twice) that I screw up and send an e-mail to all the mailing lists I’m on, I get cussed out? I mean, if someone else were to screw up, everything would be fine, but…people seem to treat me like I’m never supposed to screw up. Ugh…people just really make me mad sometimes.

I slept a long time last night. Actually, I went to bed at 11:30 and woke up at 8. I took Xander for a walk and then I told my mom that I was having a really mad muscle cramp in my arm. She told me to take 2 Tylenol (which I hated to do) and go back to bed. So, I did and I slept from about 8:15 until 11:30. That’s A LOT of sleep for me, esp. since I usually only sleep from 12:30 until 8. :\

The other day when I was basically saying I felt unloved…it’s a feeling offline. Online, esp. OD, I feel (for the most part) like people do care, but my offline friends…it’s like they don’t have time for me anymore. But I do appreciate all of your thoughtfulness.

Oh well…I’m bored…I need to work on my website, but I kind of don’t want to.