I wrote this Sunday…

So the race at Talledega (Tallidiggie in my family) is about to start. I’m writing this at a little after noon. I won’t be able to post this in my diary until OD is back up online. It really frustrates me that OD is down right now ’cause I really want to check and see who all has left me nasty notes. Oh, I decided that since some people are being rude, I’m letting the diary monitor know. There has got to be something done to stop people from harrassing other people. If that means those people losing their OD accounts, then so be it. Don’t do the crime if you’re not ready to do the time. This is my diary, so it’s up to me to keep it clean and safe. Upsetting notes DO get to me. I shouldn’t have to deal with them. I have enough going on in my life without having to read rude notes.

My room is almost done being “renovated”. LOL. We started working on July 4th. I’m hopefully going to have all my stuff back in my room by July 4th of this year. Actually, I would hope that it would be in there by May 4th. LOL. If I’m not on much in the next few days, just assume that I’m probably working on my room…or reading…

Hopefully, I’ll get those books from Amazon.com sometime this week. They haven’t been shipped yet. Of course it takes a few days for Dear Diary to even be shipped. It’s not readily available. LOL. And I’m not going to get Jake Finds Out ’cause it’s (according to Amazon) out of print. That’s crazy that the second book in the series is out of print, but the rest aren’t. It’s really frustrating. I want to know what Jake does when he finds out about Zoey and Lucas. I think my favorite character is either Zoey (who I really identify with) or Nina. Jake seems like a jerk and Lucas seems to be too much of an outcast. Not that I don’t like outcasts…I’d probably be like Zoey and befriend him anyway, but he just seems to take it rather well. Usually outcasts are at least mad at the people who don’t like them. Or so that’s been my experience.

My sinus infection is getting worse. It’s really making me upset. I can’t believe I have to be sick. It’s finally getting to be a pretty time of year and I don’t get to enjoy it. Although with my allergies, I probably wouldn’t get to enjoy it anyway.

Anyways…I was flipping through my diary (my handwritten one) last night…I really was struggling with a lot of stress when I was in school. I read through the diary and I was sick with aches and pains that no one could explain and now I really think it was stress. Back when it was diagnosed as stress, I just scoffed and said that it wasn’t humanly possible for me to be stressed out and now I know…I was. I still am in some forms. I get stressed out easily though. I don’t know why. It probably just has to do with hereditary and environment. My parents are both easily stressed people. We all lead high-stress lives.

Ow…it burns when I breathe. I keep coughing up nasty stuff. I know, you don’t need a visual. It really is nasty to be sick. I’m always sick.

Oh well…what do I have to say?

Oh I know…how many people here watch racing? I do. I like Jeff Gordon. (He’s mega bien & a very good driver.) My mom likes Tony Stewart. My dad’s kind of torn between the two. Elijah likes Mark Martin ’cause he has some of his merchandise.

I really hope that no one thinks I’m that screwed up Jenna chick. I’ve checked around (I went to the OD Fakers site-go to Juliepatchouli’s diary for the link) and it seems so hilarious and stupid that someone would make up so much of their life and other lives. She stole baby pictures and passed them off as her own. Isn’t that just stupid and crazy? Who would be so idiotic? I know I would never pretend I was someone else. I didn’t tell people about my other diary because I didn’t want people from here to bash me and I didn’t want people from it to bash me, but now I’ve decided since people seem to think I’m Jenna, that I’ll just be completely honest. I don’t want to be compared to some other loser without a life. I happen to be proud of my status as a ditzy-klutz (Dutz) without a life. Thank you very much.

You know, I don’t know why I have to be so concerned with other people having to like me. It drives me crazy. I just want to be “Miss Popularity” with everyone and it’s really stupid, because there really is no reason to be popular with everyone. It’s just really dumb. In order to be popular, you either have to have almost everyone hate you or have almost everyone love you. I want to be loved. I am loved by my friends and family, but for some reason…THAT’S NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!!! I want to feel loved and be loved by everyone. Being unpopular is just unthought of. Some days I wish I had never been born because then I wouldn’t have to be torn between being myself and being the girl that everyone loves. Those are two distinctive people…although, most wouldn’t think that.

Go Jeffy! He’s almost in tenth place. OMG…I hope that what happened with Dale Earnhardt Sr. at Daytona never happens again. That was a really sad day. I didn’t really even like him, but he’d been around forever and I just couldn’t imagine racing without him. But it’s practically the same. The only thing that’s different is that he’s not there anymore. That’s all.

Well, I’m going to surf the web some. I’ll probably write another entry later and post it even later.

About Janet Morris

I'm from Huntsville, Alabama. I've got as many college credits as a doctorate candidate, and the GPA of some of them, too. I have a boss by the name of Amy Pond. She's a dachshund. My parents both grew up in Alabama.