Stubbornly Innocent

That would be me. I’ve decided to ramble a bit. This is what I’m thinking right now. Don’t like it, then leave.

We’re trying to teach Elijah not to use God’s name in vain. For future reference, when I say OMG it’s Oh My Goodness. I try not to use his name in vain. It really bugs me when people do. Especially people who don’t believe in God. Who are they to use God’s name? They don’t even “know” him. It really bugs me.

Today was the anniversary of Columbine. That was such a sad day in America’s history. But it’s another thing to add to the “don’t hate people” stack. I have a feeling that if those kids hadn’t be taunted, they might not have actually done their crime. Of course, I also believe in fate, so…there goes that idea.

I guess I really stirred some people up by my comments on Eminem, but that’s good. Controversy helps to make us understand more about our culture. I do not like Eminem and nothing anyone here says can change that. It is up to me to choose my musical tastes. Personally, I don’t even think he qualifies as a musician. He doesn’t do any form of music in his songs, except for excerps of other musicians’ songs. He doesn’t sing. He doesn’t play an instrument. He just talks. And he isn’t even that good at it.

I miss Stephanie more on days like these. She used to love Eminem, but whenever I would start talking about how he bashed people, she would agree it was wrong. I was always so thankful that she knew the difference between right and wrong. Some kids in foster care don’t.

I don’t want to get off the computer, but I’m about to have to. My dad gets to get on at 9 o’clock every night. It’s 9:01. At least he is playing with the dog, so I don’t really have to worry about it right now.

I keep looking down at my wrist. It’s ugly. I shouldn’t have cut. Right after I did it, I knew I shouldn’t have done it. Why couldn’t I have felt the guilt before I cut? It would be so easy that way. But it isn’t easy.

Life is never easy.

About Janet Morris

I'm from Huntsville, Alabama. I've got as many college credits as a doctorate candidate, and the GPA of some of them, too. I have a boss by the name of Amy Pond. She's a dachshund. My parents both grew up in Alabama.